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2008-08-27T14:23:00.004+08:00

One More Thing: Jacq Jacq hates TORTOISE!! ^^

2008-08-27T14:05:00.003+08:00

A NEW RECORD!!! Han Bin has killed himself and stay dead for 43 days without the use of preservatives and is able to revive himself.. haha.. erm.. mayb a bit of rotting flesh here and there.. but he is generally healthy.. WAHAHA!! oh ya.. did i mention the brain damage done to him?? lets jus say tat his brain condition is absolutely matching to his craziness.. o.O

haha.. so sry for reviving myself onli now.. as u can see, i m trying to get into the Guiness World Record for being dead the longest period of time.. :P ok ba.. truth to say.. i hav been utterly busy.. nights were spent in front of the lappy typing reports after reports.. if not, i will be generating lists of items that can be used in my FYP.. if not, i will be f**king or getting f**ked by my projects.. if not, i will be out with my dear jacq jacq, trying to spend wad time i hav with her.. haha.. interesting lifestyle.. WA!! sian liao lor.. at first i tot after OYP-OBT saga is over, i will hav more time.. but it seems that things are popping up like popping popcorns.. haha.. steady liao la.. if someone can ever grant mi a day for mi to not do work, find a relax spot for mi to wake up, slp, wake up, slp, wake up and slp somemore.. i will love the person like i would love jacq jacq.. wahaha.. :P hmm.. wad more do i hav to say?? ok then.. on to set a new record.. wahaha.. this time lets try a 45 days.. ^^

"I don't believe in an afterlife, so I don't have to spend my whole life fearing hell, or fearing heaven even more. For whatever the tortures of hell, I think the boredom of heaven would be even worse." - Isaac Asimov

2008-07-14T09:51:00.007+08:00

01. Why are you answering these questions?

Hmmm.. Nice question.. Lets jus say lesson got a bit boring....................... >.<

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?

Lets see.. I got no particular destination in mind.. Mayb jus somewhere quiet where i can hav some time to myself and chill out.. Somewhere i can jus sit back and relax the whole day..

03. What would you most like to do?

As mentioned in the previous question, to be able to sit back and relax for a whole day.. Sitting in the sun and falling aslp.. i dun mind the sunburn.. ^^ or mayb jus lay down on some pasture under the stars and be mesmerised by the night sky..

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?

Hmm.. We all hav our material needs.. It jus how easily satisfied one is.... >.<

05. Where do you think your strength lies in?

Wahaha.. Time to make myself look good.. Erm.. Actually i think my greatest strength is my luck.. haha.. I am realli lucky to be able to meet friends who are able to and has helped mi through my journey through life thus far.. So thx to all.. ^^

06. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?

Wahaha.. Derrick ar.. Erm.. Hard to find leh.. lol.. Nah.. Joking.. Let's see, at work, he is a quiet but effective worker.. Great team player.. Outside of work, he is a good crapper and is fun to be with.. A GREAT FRIEND..^^

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?

Erm.. Lets see.. I cant survive without love i think.. Love from friends, love from family, love from everywhere.. ^^ In all, i think wad i m most afraid to lost is BONDS....

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?

Yeah!! $1million wor.. Erm.. i will go learn driving and riding.. then get myself a Nissan R35 GT-R and then a Honda CBR1000/RR.. Then got left over money then treat all my friends and family to a meal.. WOOTS!! but that is if i win $1million............. =.=

09. What colour represents you the most?

Erm.. Let's say grey ba.. Cos i dun realli understand myself that well also..

10. 1+1 =?

Wa sian.. is this supposed to be an IQ question?? Lets see, my best bet would be 11.. LOL!! ^^

11. What makes you happy?

Having people to talk crap with mi and having someone to hug every now and then.. ^^

12. What type of person do you hate the most?

Eh.. Until now, i haven realli hate anyone b4.. cos i got poor memory.. so i may hate u today but gd frens with u the nxt.. ^^ but if there is one type of people hu puts mi off, i guess it has to be people hu are ungrateful..

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?

Erm.. Lets see.. 19+10=29.. Mayb i will be dead.. Haha.. But in the case when i m not, i think i will most probably still in Singapore.. :P

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?

Hmm.. Well, i hope to be able to morph freely, like into animals or mayb even inanimate objects..?

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?

I sense a similar question somewhere.. Haha.. Interpersonal BONDS..

16. What disappoints you the most?

Hmm.. Erm.. Hard to say.. When my hardwork is nt appreciated ba..

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?

Erm.. No idea leh.. What is my character in the first place?? Haha..

18. What makes you cry?

Aiya.. Hmm.. Let's jus say i m a very emotional guy within.. I noe i once cried when watching a movie....................... >.<

19. What is your least favourite animal?

NONE!! I love animals.. ^^ Reptiles are mystifying, Birds are my envy, Mammals are mostly furry and cute, Fishes are sometimes delicious(opps!?), Amphibians are intriguing, Insects are interesting....... ^^

20. What is one thing your friends probably don't know about you?

Erm.. My inner world where all my darkest secret lies.. Even my family members dun realli noe everything about mi.. ^^

And now for the more evil part.. anyone who has read through the abv questions and has an avenue for expressing ur views(e.g. blogs, forums..) are tagged.. answer to ur conscience!! ^^ GD LUCK!!

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

2008-07-10T08:52:00.001+08:00

"Fall For You - Secondhand Serenade"

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed but I have loved you from the start

Oh, But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible
So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

2008-06-30T10:38:00.003+08:00

well.. recently this is the favourite song.. if u wan the song, tell mi and i can send u.. i haven put it up on my blog cos this is chinese song.. listening to this song has invoked lots of my feelings.. everything i experienced in the past, everything i was promised in the past.. well.. when i first heard this song, the lyrics of the song hit mi realli hard.. if anyone needs translation, can oso get from mi i guess.. my translating skill is not bad oso.. hmm.. now then, let mi apologise to my dear Jacq and hope u can grant mi this minute of emo-ing.................

"吻的太逼真-张敬轩"

无论怎麼讲我都觉得虚伪陪伴你那麼久你说是受罪
从前到现在当我是谁你这花心蝴蝶
昨夜陪你醉唱到我心碎你竟说我和你不配
完全忘记往日为何能与我彻夜缠绵

*和你吻吻吻吻吻你吻得太逼真
让我把虚情假意当作最真心的亲吻
怪自己来不及区分
你对我是酷爱是敷衍
我想问问问问问我该怎麼脱身
你却说花花世界不必当真
多麼伤人让我爱上薄情的红唇

拿什麼心肠面对我的善良
能不能想一想你让我的伤
你的爱就像完美毒药对手断肠你仍然漂亮不敢想
曾与你度过多少真实的晚上一转眼热恋后深受重伤
Repeat *

深渊万丈你把我的爱用尽后丢弃谎言埋葬
你犯的罪状没人知道用什麼证明你的亲吻真的残忍

RAP：我不知为什么你现在对我毫无感觉
以前种种快乐就好像成为一种罪恶我的心情
你不闻不问或者其实所谓爱情都只是彼此填满寂寞空虚
或者是一种冲动
的幻觉让自己失去理智到最后得到教训何时有感觉
到何时没有知觉就算你突然失去音讯你我之间早可能不该继续

*(你吻得太逼真)
(我已无法脱身)
(Oh~ 最后悲剧发生)
(我爱得深你没责任)
(都怪我太认真)
(把薄情的红唇)
(亲~吻)*

2008-06-26T09:29:00.005+08:00

Hi all.. i am back.. well, jus now i was trying to publish a post with my handphone..but unfortunately, the browser my handphone uses is different from IE.. so there were lots of things i cannot do.. things like making the words smaller or making the words go from left to right or right to left.. lol.. well.. its been some time since i was last here.. haha..

lets see.. things tat happen to mi when i did not appear here:

too many to be listed out..

haha.. ok then.. since it's like tat, lets list out some of the most impt ones..

1) well, this is stupid.. haha.. and happened the most recently.. lol.. for all those hu hates mi, this is a news for u to be happy about.. haha.. I LOST MY WALLET AGAIN!! haha.. and pls pay attention to the last word: AGAIN!! lets see.. a few months again, i dun rmb how many but it seems pretty recent.. haha.. i lost my wallet.. but my wallet found mi back wor.. this time, it ran away again.. and i wonder how long later m i goin to get it back?? lala.. *hands folded, standing in front of the letterbox, whistling and waiting*

2) haha.. this has got to be the most impt thing that has happened to mi during the whole time i was not here.. and perhaps the one that can change my life the most.. lol.. well, i found my dearie.. haha.. who is my dearie?? haha.. i think by this time there is no nid for mi to ask u all to guess le ba.. lets see, first alphabet J, second A third one C fourth Q fifth U sixth E seventh L eighth I ninth N tenth E.. lol.. wa.. ok.. wad's the moral of the story...... nxt time when u find a gf, find one with shorter name so u dun hav to type so much things.. haha.. ok.. she's so gonna kill mi when she sees this.. so i cannot officially change my marital status to attached.. haha.. :P so nxt time dun bully her hor.. if not hor.........................................

3) is there a number 3 significant thing that happened?? erm.. well, i guess not realli.. all the other things happen pretty much every other day.. quarrels, fights, accidents.. lol.. these things are pretty common to mi i guess.. and from one accident i got, i think i may hav a fear of seeing injuries on myself.. lol.. got once i cut myself and while i was treating myself, when i saw the wound, i kinda feel faint and weak all over.. lol.. and seriously, it onli happens when i see the wound on myself.. i hav attended to wounds for other ppl and saw horrible stuffs but nth happen to mi leh.. so u noe the way to torture mi now.. haha.. tie mi up, cut mi somewhre and put a mirror in front of mi.. LOL..

"Contradiction is not a sign of falsity, nor the lack of contradiction a sign of truth" - Blaise Pascal

2008-05-15T01:19:00.002+08:00

"I m confused.. REAL confused.."

"The pessimist sees difficulty in every opportunity. The optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty." - Winston Churchill

2008-04-20T22:01:00.003+08:00

hi all.. 10days since i last posted.. hmm.. so wad do i wan to post today leh?? haha.. i hav no idea leh.. hmm.. let's see.. let's talk about first training..

OMG!! first training is a shock man.. lol.. the number of participants, the dynamics of the participants.. lol.. cool stuff.. we had an overwhelming number of participants.. there were at least 90 members at the grandstand.. woots.. i was taken aback by the number of participants.. haha.. at tat point, my first fear was gone.. and then came my second fear.. how are the participants goin to be like?? complete strangers dun usually come and be ur buddy.. haha.. but then this batch of participants is more hyper sia.. they are shy when we first saw them, no doubt.. but as soon as the names were exchanged, they became like immediate friends.. haha.. some of them i keep hearing them talk and talk and talk.. haha.. not bad for first training.. i hav to commend my 2 TCs for their great job in handling the first training too.. however, there is always room for improvements.. keep on improving urself wor.. ^^

ok.. first training done.. wad do i hav to say nxt leh?? haha.. hmm.. let's see.. erm.. eh.. wad do i hav to say?? i got nth to say liao.. hmm.. i think i hav nth to say.. eh.. do i really hav nth to say?? erm.. haha.. hahaha.. hahahaha.. hahahahaha.. hahahaha.. haha..

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us." - Helen Keller

2008-04-10T12:30:00.002+08:00

lala.. random post.. hello everyone.. actually i dun noe wad to say.. hmm.. i m actualli waiting for lunch to be up.. haha.. recently i hav been waking up at earthly hours and thus, been skipping breakfast.. haha.. everytime i wake up is exactly during lunch hours.. nt bad wor.. and it does nt matter wad time i slp the night b4.. lol.. something is wrong liao wor.. haha.. later i m goin out to buy stuff.. haha.. tonight got meeting.. haha.. tmr night got training dry run.. then staying over in sch till sat then go bbq.. lol.. sort of a packed schedule.. hee.. most imptly, i get to see her almost everyday of the week wor.. so happy!! :P

"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved." - George Sand

2008-04-08T03:27:00.002+08:00

woots.. its so early in the morning.. GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!!

haha.. i m here waiting to play a game wif dearest chengyi.. haha.. unfortunately, there is no game.. wahaha.. so sad..

"Courage, it would seem, is nothing less than the power to overcome danger, misfortune, fear, injustice, while continuing to affirm inwardly that life with all its sorrows is good; that everything is meaningful even if in a sense beyond our understanding; and that there is always tomorrow." - Dorothy Thompson

2008-04-03T21:29:00.002+08:00

haha.. ytd nite wanted to post.. but fell aslp in front of the lappy.. so tired la.. ytd had meeting in sch until very late.. haha.. i was still intending to write my report which is due today, ytd la.. but unfortunately, while checking my mail, i slipped into lala-land.. haha.. so saded.. well, ytd nth much happen anyway.. :P onli tat i wan to say i m very tired.. haha.. very very tired..

today is also the same.. same routine.. go work, play game, attend my weekly meeting, sort out some admin stuff.. wahaha.. tmr is my presentation day liao.. which also means its the last day of my attachment!! woots!! haha.. i dun care bout the presentation la.. after all, it does not realli affect whether i pass the attachment or nt.. haha.. so i will jus try my best.. :P well, last day of attachment, last day to go work.. dun noe y.. i think the ppl at the department is goin to miss mi.. lol.. i hav given them so many chance to slack.. wahaha.. everytime they feel like slacking, they will come into the room and chat wif mi leh.. haha.. jia lat.. sounds like wenting liao.. always trying to say things that make ppl think that she is indispensable.. lol..

hmm.. i find tat it is actualli pretty hard to say sensitive stuff over here on this blog leh.. haha.. cos if certain ppl read and understand wad i m talkin bout hor, the news will spread.. if the person dun understand then good la.. haha.. its like wordplay.. meaning inside words.. words that hide a motive.. wahaha.. although sometimes it is actualli pretty obvious liao lor.. I M A LIAR!! woots.. ^^

"A man who becomes conscious of the responsibility he bears toward a human being who affectionately waits for him, or to an unfinished work, will never be able to throw away his life. He knows the 'why' for his existence, and will be able to bear almost any 'how'." - Victor Frankl

2008-04-01T22:07:00.003+08:00

HOHO!! first and foremost.. HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL DAY TO ALL.. lol.. i dun noe wad is so happy bout being a fool.. but when u are the one tricking ppl, it has gotta be some kind of fun.. lol.. unfortunately i did not trick ppl nor did i get tricked.. haha.. well for all those hu has been tricked, forgive and forget ba.. haha.. for all those hu has tricked ppl, GOOD JOB GUYS/GALS.. lol.. :P

another day to strike off of the calendar.. haha.. today is my last 4th day of the attachment.. and then, i will be able to regain my freedom.. wahaha.. well, actualli my freedom is dependable on when my pay comes in.. haha.. this attachment hor, spend a lot leh.. din manage to save any money at all sia.. haha.. in fact i m in still in credit.. :P haha.. lala.. so i will be very happy when my pay comes in.. ^^ in the meantime, i jus hav to play laptop everyday until i can go out.. wahaha.. today at work, i got to experience wad is called a slack working environment.. haha.. today i was playing game in my 'office'.. then all of a sudden, i see a person standing at the door looking at my fren's screen.. haha.. he is oso playing la.. the person din seem too bothered bout us playing.. then he suddenly come in and looks at us.. haha.. and then the first sentence he say is "wah lao, play game bo jio".. lol.. and this guy is a full-time staff at the shipyard leh.. but then he neva realli join us la.. he jus said that in jest.. haha.. then he saw that the 2 of us were actualli playing the same game, in this case DOTA.. then he asked if we are playing together.. when we replied no, he asked if we got lan cable so that we can connect and play together.. then when we say no hor, he got one for us leh.. he got extra in his office.. lol.. i m not naming the person in case it gets him into trouble.. haha.. not bad leh.. but then again, to mention it here, i m putting myself into a certain level of risk.. wahaha.. but this does not mean that i did not learn anything during this attachment.. a balance level of fun and work is wad my manager wans mi to hav.. haha.. :P

bedtime reflections are rare nowadays.. cant help it when u fall aslp almost immediately the moment u hit the bed.. haha.. but its the dreams that are making mi saded.. lol.. somehow my bedtime reflection time is integrated into the lala-land time.. haha.. FEEL SADED!! lol.. -.-

"There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness." - Carl Jung

2008-03-31T20:47:00.002+08:00

hi all.. its been sometime since i hav been here wor.. haha.. under pressure to start blogging again, i hav returned.. haha.. well, but i still hav no idea wad to blog about.. today marks the first of five days of countdown for mi.. haha.. this friday is my last day of attachment.. woots.. unfortunately, i got presentation to do.. sianz.. but neva mind la.. since it does not really affect how i will pass my attachment, i hav decided to slack through it.. haha.. so far, i hav done wad i nid to.. hee.. and thank goodness i got a mentor which is equally pro in slacking.. :P or mayb he is too busy to entertain mi ba.. in other words, i got hell lots of time in office doing nth.. haha.. and i got 3 buddies to sit with mi in my office and talk crap together.. haha.. we practically talked about anything and everything nonsense.. haha.. so far.. i ain't thinking much.. in my mind all i hav been thinking about is this coming friday at 5pm.. last day i will ever get to knock off from work!! however, i think i will miss the ppl at my department.. haha.. they will always come into my office and start a casual talk wif mi.. things like hobbies, adventure, studies and play.. haha.. ^^

for the whole of the hols until now, so much has happened to mi.. haha.. gd things, bad things and more bad things.. it was really a emotional roller-coaster ride.. haha.. up a bit less.. down a lot.. saded.. but its ok.. since it has already passed wor.. everything jus happens so fast.. basically attachment helps a lot cos i cant possibly bring my sadness to work.. so i jus hav to act like nth ever happened.. and soon, after 2 or 3 nights, everything will jus work out la.. mayb i will forget.. mayb the pain will be numbed by my tiredness.. haha.. everything will work out.. as they say, 船到桥头，自然直.. haha.. translated, it means that the ship come to the bridge will become straight.. lol.. jialat.. my chinese is a disgrace to my sec sch.. lol.. well, more detailed explanation: everything will work out fine on its own.. ^^

"The road that is built in hope is more pleasant to the traveler than the road built in despair, even though they both lead to the same destination." - Marion Zimmer Bradley

2008-02-22T23:22:00.001+08:00

"Love Hurts - Incubus"

Tonight we drink to youth
The one that finds the truth
I don't want to lose what I had as a boy
The monster lies appete
Love is not a fate
With covered eyes I'm wandering in that place
Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
Sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends to memories
I want to chime in
'Cause without love I won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
Standing naked and accused
Till' I surface, and stronger next time around
I only want the truth
So tonight we drink to youth
I'll never lose what I had as a boy

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is it a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
Sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends to memories
I want to chime in
'Cause without love I won't survive
Without love I won't survive

Love hurts
Sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends to memories
I want to chime in
'Cause without love I won't survive
Love hurts, oh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive

2008-01-13T13:36:00.000+08:00

"Colors - Amos Lee"

Yesterday i got lost in the circus,
Feeling like such a mess.
And now I'm down,
I'm just hanging on the corner.
I can't help but reminisce.

Cuz when you're gone,
All the colors fade.
When you're gone,
No new years day parade.
You're gone,
Colors seem to fade.

Your mama called, she said,
That you're downstairs crying.
Feeling like such a mess.
Ya, i hear ya,
In the back ground bawling.
What happened to your sweet summer time dress.

I know we all,
We all got our faults.
We get locked in our vaults,
And we stay..

When you're gone,
All the colors fade.
When you're gone,
No new years day parade.
You're gone,
Colors seem to fade,
Colors seem to fade.

2007-12-31T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hi guys.. about time i update a bit.. haha.. well, today is a special occasion.. its goin to be the start of a new year.. haha.. i noe most of the peeps out there are goin to ask mi wad's up wif tat statement and y i dun jus say its goin to b the end of the year.. haha.. awhile b4 i m typing this post, i was discussing wif a fren of mine about being pessimistic and optimistic.. and i told him tat today is the end of the year and he started to preach about wad a pessimist i m and wans mi to change this and tat.. lolx.. so i m jus goin to play safe ar.. haha..

well, lets hav a little talk bout this year then.. lol.. this year is a gd year for mi.. learn a lot of stuff and got to know a lot more about myself.. haha.. yes!! i m growing up.. haha.. i saw one of my fellow colleague today.. its been a long time since we saw each other and thus we had a long talk sia.. outside bpp sia.. and i was still carrying my backpack and stuff.. somehow we din realise mac's is jus beside us and we can go over, sit down, order a cup of drink and talk until tmr morning.. haha.. we jus stood there and talk la.. haha.. and i liked the last sentence he told mi.. "i think u hav really matured a lot.".. WAHAHA!! actually tat is the second last sentence la.. ^^

yes ppl.. i m growing up.. but i m still goin to b childish.. haha.. i dun care.. a mature kid.. lolx.. lets go into more details..

this year, i was appointed the training coordinator in the 14th comm for OB.. haha.. quite a milestone in my life and it actually shaped my entire life to revolve ard it.. 5 days out of 7 days of the week spent in the OB clubhse.. haha.. and a lot of things happened there.. found a new job there as well.. haha.. NPOB professional sniper.. 95% accuracy.. haha.. mission accomplished rate 95%.. lolx.. and i hav a team behind mi.. my spotter and my various informants.. haha.. tat aside.. got to know my 14th comm colleagues.. its had been a pleasure to b able to work wif all of u guys.. learn a lot of things from u all.. i wan to thank all of u for all the things i hav experience wif u all..

another person i wan to thank is the gal hu i hope to b mine.. haha.. i understand myself more through her, whether she noe or dun noe bout it.. lolx.. well, somehow i realise things do nt always go the way u wan to.. haha.. and i realised i changed a lot becos of her.. lol.. thanks for the happy times u hav shared wif mi.. haha.. sounds pretty wrong i guess.. haha.. but jus wan to let her noe la..

nxt, i wan to thank all my frens hu hav stick by mi throughout the year.. one special name deserves to b mentioned.. and tat person is jiahao.. haha.. when u read dis dun cry hor.. lol.. but seriously he did a lot of things for mi.. although i hav to suffer a lot of nonsense from him, he helped mi out a lot too.. thanks hor FAG!! haha..

THANKS TO ALL MY FRENS IN MY LIFE THAT HAS HELPED MI IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER AND SORRY TO ALL THOSE HU I HAV OFFENDED IN THE YEAR

gd things aside.. there are several bad things tat happened to mi.. haha.. but then again, let the bad things pass on and fade into obscurity.. haha.. BYE BYE BAD STUFFS!!

reflections for myself will b done on my own later.. and until now, i still ain't got any resolutions for the new year.. lets jus hope for world peace.. lol.. a miss universe type of answer.. hee..

"There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness." - Carl Jung

2007-12-18T14:17:00.000+08:00

"Last Christmas - George Micheal"

[CHORUS:]
Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special

[CHORUS:]

Once bitten and twice shy
I keep my distance
But you still catch my eye
Tell me baby
Do you recognize me?
Well
It's been a year
It doesn't surprise me
I wrapped it up and sent it
With a note saying "I love you"
I meant it
Now I know what a fool I've been
But if you kissed me now
I know you'd fool me again

[CHORUS]

A crowded room
Friends with tired eyes
I'm hiding from you
And your soul of ice
My god I thought you were
Someone to rely on
Me?
I guess I was a shoulder to cry on

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover but you tore me apart
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

[CHORUS x2]

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover buy you tore him apart
Maybe next year I'll give it to someone
I'll give it to someone special.

I m sorry if the quality of the song is nt good.. i guess something messed it up when i uploaded it.. anyway,jus tune up the volume a little and enjoy......

2007-11-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

"Apologise - Timbaland ft. One Republic"

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, a yeah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground

2007-11-04T20:23:00.001+08:00

HI ALL!! THIS IS A MESSAGE TO ALL WHO STILL COMES IN TO TAKE A LOOK EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE.. I M GOIN TO STOP BLOGGING FOR A LONG LONG TIME UNTIL I CAN FIND A REASON FOR ME TO START BLOGGING AGAIN.. SO U CAN DELETE MY BLOG URL FROM YOUR FAVOURITE'S LIST, BLOG LIST OR WHATEVER LIST YOU PLACE MY BLOG URL UNDER.. IF THE DAY EVER COMES THAT I START BLOGGING AGAIN, YOU WILL FIND OUT ON MY MSN.. THAT IS IF THE DAY EVER COMES.. SORRY FOR WASTING SO MUCH OF YOUR TIME HERE.. !!PEACE OUT!!

2007-10-15T23:26:00.000+08:00

today is the first day of sch.. dun noe to be happy or sad.. happy cos it means attachment is over.. no more long hours.. sad becos hav to study liao.. if nt will be like last sem.. lolx.. haix haix... contradicting behaviour.. haha.. first day of sch pretty ok la.. but some module already start teaching liao.. modules like project management and ship drawing.. but still quite ok.. still can slack a bit.. i think i give myself one more week break.. haha.. then i think i will study.. i think la.. lolx.. i guess its pretty much fated how i m losing my games one-by-one.. first i lost my maple.. something wrong wif patch i think.. cause mi to log out the moment i log in.. haha.. then i lose my warcraft.. cos my brother pattern.. wan to change my CD key so tat i can bnet on my laptop.. lolx.. then he did something wrong.. haha.. but thanks to frens, i managed to get back warcraft but maple is still missing from my game list.. :(

i din realli do much things today leh.. cos today rain.. so very the sian.. rain affects ppl's mood.. and i think i m actualli the kind whre weather plays a very impt part in determining how i feel for the day.. so i can start the day feeling very happy.. but if it rains, i will mood swing.. haha.. or vice versa.. hmm.. hmm.. hmm.. hmm.. hmm..

recently hav been feeling very down inside.. still manage to get happy every now and then.. but inside still feels like sh*t.. haix.. i feel so fake la.. laugh and then feel sad inside.. damn it.. dun realli feeling like doin things now.. everything i do now seems to take twice as much energy from mi as compared to last time.. now i jus wan to slp and dream.. and hopefully live in the dream forever.. so sian lor.. haix.. but i dun realli noe wad feeling i m actualli feeling.. lonely or jus pure sad or feel neglected or jus sian.. wadeva it is, its very negative.. lolx.. ... ... ... ... ...

"Like all dreamers I confuse disenchantment with truth." - Jean-Paul Sartre

2007-10-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

hihi.. i m here today.. but i hav no idea wad to write.. u see, today i did nth.. and i do mean nth.. i hav been slping the whole day.. except waking up for lunch and dinner.. as a matter of fact, i jus woke up to type dis post.. lolx.. slping is gd.. u get to dream.. and u can dream bout the impossible.. things tat neva seem to happen in real life.. take it as a escape from reality.. ^^.. ok.. i guess tat's all i wan to say.. i think i'm go back to slp liao..^^

"The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle." - Anais Nin

The Feeling - I love it when you call

2007-10-07T23:07:00.001+08:00

2007-10-07T22:03:00.000+08:00

resuming my life here.. YEAH!! i hav completed my attachment.. ^^ nt bad sia.. was goin to say it earlier here but i hav been out celebrating the past few days.. lolx.. so this is a bit of delayed news.. this news shld hav been dated 5 Oct 07.. :P but wadeva..

nth much realli happens for the past few days.. friday i had my presentation.. well, it went pretty smoothly except for the part when i forgot some words, particularly racks and pinion.. well, i had a slide where it shows the pic of a gear and the rack and i forgot totally wad the whole system is called.. so i casually called it rack and gear.. unfortunately, the mistake was spotted.. :P but other than tat, the presentation went smoothly.. after work on friday, went to hav steamboat with weilson and gang.. ppl hu were present: too many to rmb... ^^ actualli is i lazy to type out la.. but jus noe tat quite a lot of ppl went.. after tat, went arcade play a few games then home sweet home.. nth much lor..

saturday morning had to go recee for ARC event.. more details wait for updates.. ^^ cos i hav forgotten where i can get infomation from.. :P.. or u can direct all ur enquires to KELVIN WANG SHAO YUAN.. thx.. lolx.. but the recee din take quite long.. 11am to 1pm.. well, it shld hav been 10am to 1pm..but unfortunately, i din wake up on time.. haha.. sry ar kelvin.. lolx.. then after went home and slp.. cos din really slp much friday nite.. then at night went out wif some frens to drink.. was supposed to hav another appointment.. but i guess the other party forgot.. so neva mind lor.. haha.. went 'hunting' wif my frens.. lolx.. and it's still pretty much amaze me the transformation one can undergo after drinking.. haha.. well, all of us in the grp went home wif some form of 'rewards'.. i got this phone number.. haha.. but i din ask for it.. i was given.. u see, my fren had jio this grp of gals.. then he say one of the gals ask him to pass it to mi.. but i dun think tat happened.. most prob is tat gal is nt realli his target but he got her number.. so he conveniently passed it to mi.. lolx.. another one of my fren got a kiss on the lips by the gal he was 'hunting' la.. lolx.. nt bad.. well, i was pretty passive tat night.. din realli do any stupid things.. haha.. i left the grp pretty early.. nt much mood to play tat night.. lolx.. took a cab home.. and i think the cabby shld realli jus quit his job and go join some racing team or wad.. the way he drives the cab is like pro.. had a little race with a subaru.. and subaru lost for the first few mintues.. lolx.. but the few minutes count la.. crown vs wrx leh.. lolx.. and the uncle actualli know he will lose one.. so after the few minutes, he jus dropped speed.. nt a bad experience..^^

nth is goin through my mind these few days leh.. blank one.. lazy to think too much oso la.. i m so goin to enjoy my 1 week hols.. but unfortunately, I CANT PLAY MAPLESTORY!!! something wrong wif my patch i think.. zzz

"Absence is to love as wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small and kindles the great." - Roger de Bussy-Rabutin

2007-10-06T19:39:00.000+08:00

[Intro]
"Outta My System - Bow Wow ft. T-pain"

Oooooh, Damn!
I mean I just keep thinkin about you (awww baby)
I mean I wanna move on but I can't move on (oh, oh, oh, ooooh)
it's like you got some kind of hold on me
and I don't know, but I'm a go ahead and talk about it, Listen

[Verse 1 - Bow Wow]
I'm sittin lookin out the window like damn
tryna fix this situation that's at hand
You still runnin through my mind - when I'm knowin that you shouldn't be
me all on ya mind, I'm knowin that it couldn't be
cause you ain't called, and I ain't even apalled
I still got alot of pain, I ain't dealt with it all
I been runnin 'round with other chicks - I'm single and they lovin it
I'm likin it, but I just want the one that I was in love with
that's not the end of it - I'm tryna let you go
I can't get a grip of it, is what I'm tryna let you know
You gotta hold of some kinda control on me
I don't know what it is - but I gotta get you gone from me
I'm workin at it and it ain't gettin no better
just tryna be like "yeah, forget it, whatever"
instead of starrin out this glass - lookin at this bad weather
damn I gotta pull myself together, cause...

[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think 'bout is you
when I'm all alone - that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiley faces in my sidekick, out of town visits
all the time we spent together, makes it hard to get you outta my system
You know what you do to me (do to me) - you don't even understand
damn - you know what you do to me (do to me)
it's so hard to get you outta my system

[Verse 2 - Bow Wow]
I'm too attached my heart wont let me fall back
I got it bad that's what you can call that (ah)
and when I see you in the streets that's the worse for me
use to love the little things you did, that's what works for me
it's too major, don't see you in my pager
know what you doin?, where you at?, or can I see you later?
the fellas tellin'me just let her go Bow
believe me I'm tryin man I just don't know how
I be in all the hot spots - leavin with the hot shots
knowin they just want me cause i'm the top spot
that's not poppin, and my brain ain't stoppin
thinkin who she with?, or where she goin?, is she club hoppin?
I never had this kinda problem in my life
this is my first time dealin with this kind of fight
it's every night, and every flight, and everytime you in my sight
damn, this ain't even right....cause

[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think 'bout is you
when I'm all alone - that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiley faces in my sidekick, out of town visits
all the time we spent together, makes it hard to get you outta my system
You know what you do to me (do to me) - you don't even understand
damn - you know what you do to me (do to me)
it's so hard to get you outta my system

[Bow Wow - Repeat 2x]
Is it wrong for me to feel this way
You been runnin thru my mind all day - can you feel me
I been tryna get you off my mind
but I can't after all this time - that's what kills me

[Chorus - T-Pain]
When I'm with somebody, all I think 'bout is you
when I'm all alone - that's all I wanna do
I miss the smiley faces in my sidekick, out of town visits
all the time we spent together, makes it hard to get you outta my system
You know what you do to me (do to me) - you don't even understand
damn - you know what you do to me (do to me)
it's so hard to get you outta my system

[Bow Wow]
I remember everything that me and you talked about
me and you had our whole life planned out together
and if I could, I would turn back the hands of time
and correct all my mistakes that I ever did
but now I guess I gotta move on right?
it's still hard and I still love you to this day...Peace!

2007-10-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

MEMORY LOSS........................ SAD..................... FORGOT WAD TO SAY..................... BYE BYE..........

ok.. nt bye bye yet.. lolx.. hmm.. been having realli bad memory recently.. i can forget wad i did 15 to 20 minutes ago.. damn it.. nt a realli nice feeling to noe that u r forgetting things.. and it's getting more and more serious.. mayb one morning i might wake up and forget hu i m... mayb it's nt such a bad thing.. restart my life.. lolx.. then my dear frens here, u will b busy trying to make mi rmb back all of u liao la.. haha.. btw, i cant figure out the reason y.. may b considering a trip to the docs.. ^^

2007-09-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

20 days.. welcome mi back, people.. lolx.. now i very sensitive to ppl.. PPL shipyard.. my workplace.. woots.. u noe wad.. time passes realli quickly.. in the blink of an eye, i m goin to finish my attachment soon.. and in this 20 days, a lot of things happened to mi.. much more than i can ever imagine.. lolx..

firstly speaking.. attachment has been fun.. dangerously fun.. haha.. had a lot of chances to die there and then.. but i m still alive.. however, there is still a chronic effect from sucking in all those blasting sands, rust and smoke in my workplace.. haha.. currently fine but hu noes wad will happen if more and more things get inside mi.. unfortunately, this cannot be avoided.. protections are onli goin to be able to lessen and nt eliminate the problem.. ^^ but i did learn a lot of things from my attachment.. things that are nt found in the textbook.. or at least nt wad i had study until now.. lolx.. experience is really wad counts in a shipyard.. my mentor had the ability to spot errors jus by looking at them.. fascinating.. everytime he tells mi that they is an error there, i din even noe wad was he refering to until he points it out to mi.. lolx.. length: longer or shorter, angle:bigger or smaller, thickness:thick or thin.. all he can spot jus by looking.. and most of the time he is right la.. whether if the measurements are correct.. pro pro pro.. and he is realli gd to us.. the whole production department is.. they keep taking mi as a little boi la.. lolx.. they always call mi boi.. chinda ard my same height but they dun call him tat lor.. zzz

work aside.. relaxation time is pretty short.. or shld i say at the minimum.. everyday leave home at 6.30am, reached home at 8+pm.. lolx.. wad can i do sia?? and very tired everyday la.. waiting up and down the oil rig.. 8m abv ground, nt including the living quarters' stairs.. haha.. sometimes climb the crane.. (8 + 17)m abv ground level.. haha.. nt bad ar.. but its gd exercise.. my legs are stronger i think.. lolx.. now my form of relaxation onli revolves ard slping and msging.. haha.. gaming and goin out times are left onli on weekends.. erm.. trying to recall wad happened but too lazy.. so lets jus forget the past and move on.. lolx.. i promise to update for the many weekends more to come..

my love life is getting pretty much interesting though.. cant actualli believe all these things are happening.. but then, there is no confirmation yet as to the exact future and wad it will bring for mi.. so i m jus goin to keep it hush hush for now.. mayb when the time is right, then i will tell everyone.. haha..

other than tat, nth much else to report on.. i m still alive!! tat's one gd news rites?? lolx..

"Happiness often sneaks in through a door you didn't know you left open." - John Barrymore

2007-09-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

hi to all.. haven been here in quite a long time.. everyday after work i m tired and lazy to come online.. haha.. so din come online lor.. and having to write my logbook everyday oso spoil the mood la.. haha..

hmm. today start the day feeling weak, mentally.. u see, i woke up at 3am in the morning and din manged to get back to slp all becos of a dream.. i won call it a nightmare though.. cos for some part, i feel happy in the dream(or so, i think).. but something happened in the dream which made mi wake up and stay awaken.. haix.. nt goin to say it here.. haha.. but it can shocking how detailed a dream can b.. everything from smell, wad u see and how u act.. lolx.. so shockingly real.. someone once told mi a dream u can rmb wont come true.. but then this time, i dun think that statement applies.. haix..

today during work, nth to do AGAIN.. lolx.. so i was using my laptop scanning through some pics.. scanning and scanning.. looking through the photos, can help feeling a void in my heart again.. then i paused a while more at one pic.. and bloody hell suay.. one of the foreman saw mi staring at the pic and then he look oso.. zzz.. then begin asking question.. and my partner din managed to make things better.. add fuel to the fire.. zzz.. keep disturbing mi.. haix.. then the uncle began giving mi advice.. haha.. wa.. like he very experienced.. then keep asking mi to chiong.. say youngster shld be straightforward.. if u like the person, go tell her.. dun go in circles.. haha.. then the example he give damn funny.. "y do ppl pray?? it's becos they wan something from God to b done.. and how do u get God to give u wad u wan?? u hav to tell God straight in the face(although it hardly possible since i hav some doubts whether such person exists).. then u will get wad u wan.." when i was listening, i feel like laughing.. nt at his example.. but how foolish i m.. judging from his age, i dun think wad he say pretty much apply to mi now.. cos i did it and i kinda regret.. being straightforward?? i feel like telling the uncle his method doesn't realli work.. but then again, lets leave it for him to realise it himself.. but on the other other side, he may nt hav the chance to realise it since he's already married with children.. lolx..

terrible terrible feeling today.. on the inside onli though.. outside looked happy.. at least until my partner found out my secret.. which was near goin home time.. so job wise pretty much unaffected ba.. haha..

"Pessimist: one who, when he has the choice of two evils, chooses both." - Oscar Wilde

2007-08-31T22:42:00.000+08:00

"If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield"

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms.

2007-08-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

hi ppl.. this is supposed to b a realli sad post, u noe?? so pls turn on ur sad mode and read on..

but then again, hanbin and sadness does not go very well together.. haha.. so wadeva la hor.. haha.. dis is probably my last post liao.. haha.. after tat, i shall disappear to a world whre nth else, except mi, exist and live my life in solitude.. ^^ hmm.. let's start by telling u some things i did ytd night.. lolx..

ytd night, i went to the airport to send off some of my classmate hu were goin overseas for their attachment.. haha.. the few of us, jiahao, liheng, joe, mi and terry decided to go home first then meet u again b4 goin to the airport.. and so we went home and we meet again.. dis time, - terry, + win.. haha.. went to airport eat fish & co... lolx.. expensive but well-spent.. i like the fish and chips there.. so hu eva wan jio mi out for any meal, u noe whre to go.. haha.. jking jking.. so we ate and went to terminal 1 whre mi classmate, daniel, bjorn, jintze and noraini, were leaving.. they were scheduled to fly at 0015 and so they had to check in at 2215.. 2 hrs b4 flight take off.. we reach the terminal at 9 plus.. went there talk cock.. lolx.. haha.. for the first time, saw some of their parents.. and surprisingly, noraini's mum know my name.. o.O lolx.. then daniel has interesting parents too.. lolx.. but dun get any wrong idea.. i know all parents care for their child..^^

so after we see them off, joe had plans to go to dbl O.. then he jio us go.. at first i din wan to go.. but jia hao keep saying he wan to and wan mi to accompany him.. so i jus went lor.. haha.. first minute go in, everybody guai guai one.. haha.. when the drinks came up and everyone had a bit to drink, everyone started to go crazy.. liheng and win top the charts with their change.. lolx.. at first din wan to drink a lot.. cos i see liheng siao liao.. later no one bring us home.. lolx.. but joe keep asking mi to drink sia.. lolx.. but ok la.. jus drink lor.. haha.. i noe i drink a lot.. lolx.. and i vomitted.. but then i was sober.. or at least thinking quite straight.. lolx.. was there till the club closes at 3am.. lolx.. almost everyone was knocked out except for joe and his fren i think.. haha.. heard tat chin da vomitted too.. din see though.. and jiahao couldn't take it and had to leave early.. haha.. then liheng damn funny.. but i m nt goin to say wad he did la.. lolx.. last time they got jio mi go.. but everytime they go is on friday when i hav OB training.. haha.. hmm.. go wif them quite fun la.. see them do funny stuff.. hope to hav a chance again.. haha..

ok.. back to the topic.. starting from monday, i will b working liao.. 8am start work.. so i will hav to sleep early liao.. cos attachment is nt like going ngee ann.. haha.. lectures late still ok.. but work late, i m a goner.. lolx.. so i will try my best to slp early and wake up on time.. haha.. and i gather tat i will b too tired to start blogging when i reach home.. and i hav to fill in my attachment logbook.. so, if i were to blog, i will b writing the things i write in my logbook.. lolx.. but if i hav the chance i will try and update.. mayb a change of layout or a change of song every now and then, with the latter having a higher chance of happening cos changing layout is tedious stuff.. lolx.. on another note, ppl, pls keep in contact.. although i wont b online, but i every month cannot use finish my free sms one.. so pls help mi use finish.. lolx.. thank you huh^^

"Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it's a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from." - Al Franken
Oh well, at least ppl do learn from MY mistakes..^^

2007-08-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

- chorus from "What Hurts the Most" by Rascal Flatts

heard the song on the radio jus now.. suddenly listening to the song again made mi think quite a bit.. how many ppl hav u actualli let into ur life, and then to let them slip away again?? and how many times hav u actualli found out that wad u wan to say to a person jus wont come out of ur mouth the way u wan it to b?? so near yet so far.. simple words tat are hard to express.. i made my mistake.. i paid for it.. words meant to b spoken but neva are told.. and also words meant to b heard but neva are spoken.. same thing.. but then again, how sure can u b of ur feeling and wad u wan to say?? how sure can u b if the same feeling will b reciprocated?? once again, another puzzle the brain offers............

but for now, i m jus goin to think of thermodynamics.................

2007-08-22T13:41:00.000+08:00

hihi.. long time no post liao lor.. haix.. been rather busy.. lolx.. studying and playing.. juggling both at the same time is tiring.. haha.. in the past it was all playing onli.. so easy.. wahaha.. so now, while i m supposed to b studying like mad, i hav drawn time out to write a post.. lolx.. ever since the previous blow from engineering maths, i realised studying is one of the best way for u to hav a peace of mind after ur paper.. tat way, even if i fail, i can jus tell myself: "at least i tried!!" haha.. but for maths, since i din even study, i m very sian.. even until, i m still reeling from the shock of an unprepared paper.. haha..

its like 1.47 in the afternoon and i hav nt done much since i wake up.. i woke up at 10.30 for a study session tat was supposed to b at 10.30.. lolx.. so much my style now.. being late.. haha.. but i went to sch anyway and study.. from the time i reach sch until now, all i hav been doin is whining at the stack of notes i m studying.. haha.. and i found out tat whining helps u rmb stuff.. but then again, i still dun hav much of a hope.. haha.. after all, all i hav been doin in class is nt listening to the lecturer.. :P

tots for now are pretty murderous, if nt sucidal.. lolx.. wahaha..

"Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory." - Albert Schweitzer

2007-08-18T13:27:00.000+08:00

"Wait For You"

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you want it to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

2007-08-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

sad day today.. haix.. quite a lot of factors.. firstly, today hav to go to sch.. and it was raining so bloody heavy.. zzz.. even walking along the covered walkway oso will get wet.. -.-" damn it.. such a gd weather to slp in, warm and comfy under ur blanket, but i hav to go to sch for maths exam.. first sadness point.. was late for maths exam.. bus was caught in a jam for like 20 minutes.. there was a vehicle breakdown at the exit off beauty world and bukit timah plaza.. a 2 lane road then got car breakdown.. haix.. then at kap got motorcycle skid..nt 1 but 2.. worsen the traffic condition.. so in the end was like 20 minutes late for exam.. but i was nt the last to reach sia.. after i settled down and started doin, still got ppl walk into the exam room.. lolx.. nt bad.. here comes the second sadness point.. the paper is damn damn damn difficult.. mayb nt for others..but for mi, it likes the hardest paper i ever did.. y?? mayb cos i dun understand the topics at all and cos i did nt realli study.. after all, how do u study a module which u dun understand..? haix.. confirm fail one.. first time i walk out of the exam hall wif this type of mentality.. the first thing tat came to my mind when i walk out is tat i hav to retake the module again nxt sem.. damn it..

hmm.. after the test, mi and my classmate went to town to eat.. indonesian food.. however, almost everything inside is spicy and i dun take spicy food.. haix.. so had a drink and bought some light snacks.. then tat's all.. then we went to walk ard lucky plaza(btw, the restaurant is in lucky plaza).. noraini, jin tze and daniel wanted to buy some souvenir to give to their overseas attachment mates.. those they will meet over in china, dalian.. well, then so mi, jia hao, liheng and terry jus tagged along lor.. talk a lot of crap.. soon after though, we split up.. mi, terry and jia hao detached ourselves from the rest of the grp.. haha.. went to look at the model car.. jiahao wanted to get spare part to fix his car.. and i wanted to look ard cos i m intending to buy one for myself too.. haha.. so the three of us went to the shop which is at i-dun-noe-whre.. haha.. i noe how to go but i dun noe the building name.. ^^ spent quite some time there.. and i m now more determined to get a model kit for myself.. after which we went over to zone-X at dhoby ghaut MRT.. play quite a few games.. haha.. nth to do lor.. and terry dun wan to go home so early.. so we jus loiter ard the area since he take NEL to sengkang.. went home at ard 3.30pm..

then sadness point 3 starts.. started feeling very uncomfortable on the bus home.. feel very feverish.. jus feel very uncomfortable.. and the aircon on the bus doesn't make things any better.. the walk home from the bus stop oso very jia lat.. cos like wan to slp like dis.. no energy wad-so-eva.. haix.. so sian.. when i reach home, wanted to go to slp.. but mummy washed the bedsheet and i hav to change new ones myself.. haix.. so i gave up slping and went to take a bath.. so now i still feeling kinda unwell.. lets hope tmr wake up will be ok..^^

btw, the reason y i din blog ytd is becos i study until i fall aslp ytd night.. studying maths.. keep looking at the book but nth goes in.. i read the first chapter and i tot i got it.. but after i continue reading on, by the time i reach the last chapter, i had already forgotten the first few ones.. and when i go back and read the first few ones, i will forget the last few.. zzz.. DAMN!!

"Mishaps are like knives, that either serve us or cut us, as we grasp them by the blade or the handle." - James Russell Lowell

2007-08-15T23:50:00.000+08:00

^^ long long time no blog liao.. ^^ hmm.. let's see.. wad had been stopping mi from blogging.. well, busy is one thing.. there are oso some events tat happened on days when i was not busy.. lolx.. out of the 6 days i din blog, 2 days were because of a sudden discharge of red liquid from the nose, i.e nose bleeding.. haha.. until now still dun noe y.. and for some reason, it onli happened at night.. haha.. another day was because i was out wif my frens.. and the remaining three days were spent playing maplestory.. lolx.. i noe a lot of ppl goin to ask y i still playing maple.. lolx.. but then these few days got a damn easy way to lvl.. so i ended up getting hooked for a while.. however, the method was 'banned' ytd or the day b4 (i forgot).. so here i m again.. haha.. nth much happened to mi..

fast-forward>> today i went for skin checkup at NSC again.. 3 weeks once appointment.. lolx.. anyway, my skin condition doesn't seem to be improving even after the first visit.. haha.. and today i go change doc liao.. and she prescribed for mi the strongest type of medication there is for my problem.. lolx.. can u imagine the seriousness??? haha.. but then again, i m still alive and kicking and so tat shldn't b a problem..^^

lolx.. hmm.. i received police warning a few days ago.. haha.. pretty 'impressive' huh?? nt abt to tell u how i got it though.. lolx.. go and let ur imagination run wild ba.. wad could hanbin hav done to warrant him a warning from the police?? lolx.. but no worries.. i m all fine.. nt much of a problem either..^^

lolx.. these few days feel very lonely.. very alone.. guess tat's wad happen to u when all u do is stuck urself in front of the com.. at night when wan to slp tat time very sian.. and then there were times when u feel like laughing and crying at the same time.. siao liao la.. kinda nt used to playing too much com liao.. all the side effects of continous playing surfacing.. lolx.. now this is a big problem.........

"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

2007-08-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

李玖哲 – 解脱

爱永远都是难题失去分寸太容易谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜伤害来的太无意有时爱太急需要空间呼吸
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻谁不会舍不得现在我给的或许并不是你要的

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我爱着你仍是我的执着

让你哭泣对不起为了爱承受委屈说过的承诺其实还没忘记
愈是在乎的关系愈是相处不容易伤害了你我也失去勇气
争吵愈狠痛愈深刻然后不断自责我们都忘了最初的快乐
拥抱越紧痛愈深刻谁不会舍不得现在我给的或许并不是你要的

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我爱着你仍是我的执着

走到感情关键时候却握不住你的手还能有什么藉口让爱再回头
多少的爱说不出口就让时间帮我说话我一个人拼命挣扎
总比两个人一起难过还好吧

如果分离是唯一的解脱最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱连未来也没有我爱着你仍是我的执着
爱着你唯一的解脱

2007-08-07T23:52:00.000+08:00

another day another post.. ^^ today i din go to sch.. IS day and the last lesson was last week.. so today free and easy.. stayed at home and studied marine industry safety.. or at least tried to.. went through the notes.. followed my previous study pattern and found out it doesn't work any more.. attention span getting shorter.. last time was i could study onli when listening to music.. haha.. so everytime i study, i will turn on the radio.. and then i can keep it going.. but ppl do change.. this time, even wif music, the slp demon still got to mi, i think, within the 1st hour.. so i changed.. i break my time into parts, with a leisure part in between each study part.. so today i was in and out of my room several times..^^ i guess i was pretty disciplined today.. dun noe y.. haha.. i keep quite close to the 'timetable' timings.. haha.. and i did hav my gaming sessions for today.. so pretty impressive.. cant believe i did it too.. haha.. but i got to say.. the amount of info registered is nt 100%.. and after a night's slp, i think the figure will drop more.. so i still nid gd luck.. ^^ btw, i cleared my last test fine.. not much of hope though.. haha..

no tots.. lost for the whole day.. dun noe wad to think oso.. haha.. or mayb too busy/lazy to think.. ^^ o.O

finally a short post...................................................................................

"The reduction of the universe to a single being, the expansion of a single being even to God, this is love." - Victor Hugo

2007-08-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

hi all.. realised its been sometime since i last blogged and if i dun blog soon, someone's gonna complain.. well, i din realise tat its been 5 days since i last blogged until when i look at the tags and the date of post.. time passes realli quickly when u are doin proper stuff.. haha.. recently been bugged by 2 tests and training stuffs ana bball.. proper stuffs..^^ no more gaming.. but i m still staying up late into the night in front of the com.. dun noe y.. but at least got slp earlier as compared to last time.. 1 or 1 and a half hours earlier.. haha.. better than nth.. ytd night was the best.. slp b4 12mm.. haha.. hmm.. lets rewind and do a fast forward for days i din blogged..

<3rd> friday training.. for half of the training, i was suffering.. damn it.. feeling all dizzy and chest was all stuffy.. hav a feeling of my head being compressed.. damn sick feeling.. got a few times almost wanted to give up.. but i din.. i believed i could and i did.. haha.. dun noe exactly wad happened up till today.. mayb cos of the bball game b4 training starts.. oh ya.. got a bit of heat stroke feeling.. mayb........

then found out how i was formed by grace mummy.. found out tat i m realli nt normal.. instead of forming inside mummy's body and then come out wif a 'pop', it seems tat i was something mummy spit out and then began to form into my current form.. so i may actualli be some sort of alien lifeform that escaped my home planet when it was facing certain destruction and somehow found a way into grace mummy's mouth or stomach.. interesting....... (sry for telling everyone so late.. grace mummy told mi to tell everyone on friday..)(erm.. babies dun form in the stomach.. they form in the womb jus for ur info)

<4th> sat morning bball session turned into captain's ball.. got the type of 'i-m-so-damn-cheated-' kind of feeling.. lolx.. attended this session of 'bball' for sally's I&E.. haha.. she needs ppl to be the crowd.. haha.. so interesting.. well, from wad i see, bball is nt such a popular sport in ngee ann.. her event's soccer side seem to be much more successful than bball/captain ball side.. haha.. and then there was a badminton side i think.. but then again, hu plays badminton in kismis....................... joe was almost killed by sally's fren.. ball to the face.. damn dangerous.. haha.. btw, ppl hu attended the event: yongjie, kaihoow, ben, joe, christina, yingjia and mi.. haha.. a lot of ppl wor.. haha.. and sally was bullied sia.. sally, if u r reading dis, i m sry.. i think..^^

<5th> today!! had to go back to sch.. haha.. had a little meeting wif jamie from arc regarding THE PINNACLE.. An ARC event, supported by NPOB and TAS.. lolx.. publicity shld onli start on monday.. but i guess by the time anyone sees dis, midnight shld b over and its officially monday.. so i m pretty safe?? guess so ba.. for more info, pls check out ARC website.. coincidentally saw mummy and yingjia in sch.. they doin some fyp report thingy.. so sad to go back to sch on sundays lor.. but they still did it.. haha.. but it seems like they dun hav a choice.. dealine for them: tuesday.. haha.. so good luck la.. haha.. all i can do.. meeting onli got mi, kelvin and jamie btw.. wenting is busy while eunice, hmm, dun noe wad to say.. haha.. btw, today i cut my hair.. haha.. but seems like no difference.. but i swear got a lot of hair drop from the top of my head when the scissors went clipping ard.. haha..

today no particular feeling or tots.. in a very light-hearted mood.. or rather, can be said to be denial mood.. tmr got marine engineering test but i did nt study.. and m nt feeling any form of urgency.. lolx.. dun noe y.. ppl hu saw dis post b4 my test, pls wish mi luck.. for those hu sees dis after my tests, pls get ready to console mi.. haha.. :P

"The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle." - Anais Nin

2007-08-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i m bored.. nth to do.. dun noe wad to do.. so sian.. as i m typing dis post, i m trying to think of wad i m goin to say as well.. so everything is quite random.. haha.. as i proceed to dis point here, i still hav no idea wad to say.. :P so i m jus typing without anything in my mind as to wad to type.. 哈哈.. 我应该说什么呢?? 我还是想不到.. ok.. enuf.. lets talk bout wad i did today..

well, today i was supposed to hav maths tutorial at 11am.. but i let myself blur.. lolx.. i tot lesson start at 12nn.. zzz.. so in the end i neva go for tutorial.. and during tutorial i hav CCT, Core Competency Test.. and i so bloody miss it.. 15%.. zzz.. but thank goodness i got a kind tutor.. i got a make-up test on friday.. haha.. lucky mi..... so i arrived at sch at 12nn.. then i got a piece of good news..^^ tmr lesson, which was supposed to be from 8am to 4pm, has been changed to 8am to 10am.. haha.. all my lecturers cancelled their lecture.. haha.. so tmr slack.. but become friday packed.. from 9am to ard 3pm.. cos i got my make-up test on friday, my common test 2 for another module on the same day and a revision lecture.. hmm.. after sch, jia hao, liheng, joe and mi went to slack again.. but this time its nt games cos joe din bring laptop.. so we sit ard at canteen 1 for a while, talking nonsense again.. then out of the blue, we decided to go play with jia hao's RC car.. haha.. so we went to get the car which he placed in the OB clubhse.. recently clubhse seem to be full of ppl.. everytime i go confirm full, open door oso difficult.. haha.. today is like dis, ytd oso.. hmm.. after i collect the car, we went down to the sports hall to play.. play barely 10 minutes, no batt.. zzz.. then mus recharge.. while the batt were recharging, we got bored.. then jia hao wanted to play badminton.. so went up to get racket.. difficulty in opening door again.. -.-" then found out no shuttlecock.. haha.. managed to pick up some on the floor but realised they were in realli bad conditions.. lolx.. but no choice.. if nt sit ard and wait is realli boring.. so we keep repeating the cycle: play car until no batt, then go recharge while we play badminton, then finish recharge, play car again.. lolx.. so we keep doin it until i had to go meeting.. then i left first.. then meeting everything over, then go home, then here i m typing dis post.. haha..*end of day*

recently, i hav been in a realli 'blank' state.. feeling very empty.. haix.. i m persistently trying to put something into myself, so that i dun feel so weird.. but nth seems to fit.. it's like trying to put a square block into a circular hole.. nth seems to stay inside for long.. and it doesn't help when my mind keep questioning the purpose of everything i do.. it's like everytime i finish doing something; be it work or play, i will start asking myself: 'wad did i do that for??' i m nt trying to be emo here.. but something is jus nt quite rite.. its like i m missing something inside mi.. haix..

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched ... but are felt in the heart." - Helen Keller

2007-07-30T22:09:00.000+08:00

*yawn* today is a fine day to slp through and nt wake up even for food.. nice weather, little rain in the afternoon, big rain at night, kinda hav the cold cold feeling whole day.. perfect day to jus stay under ur blanket and close ur eyes and listen to the rain drops patter on the window pane.. then slowly fall aslp.. but alas, all is but fantasy.. lolx.. so on dis cold cold day, i had to go to sch.. zzz.. i actualli din managed to wake up myself.. but my mum was on duty to wake mi up.. so after several attempts at faking sickness, i finally gave up and went to wash up.. let's see the strange things tat happened today.. well, today i did something unexpected.. i chased after the bus.. lolx.. it has been damn long since i chased after the bus la.. but today dun noe why, i jus had the sudden urge to run after the damn bus.. haha.. i used to walk slowly even though the bus is at the bus stop and the bus stop is onli like 15 to 20 steps in front of mi.. the range whre any frantic movement can catch the driver's attention.. today however, the moment i saw the bus at the traffic light, i began increasing my pace and when the bus drove past mi, i broke into a run.. lolx.. dun noe wad gotten over mi yet.. may nt find out forever..

after i reach sch, nth much happened.. but i will rmb a particular conversation between mi and my marine engineering lecturer.. lolx.. here it goes:

lecturer: wad do u mean it shed snows better than other collectors??

mi: it means that in winter when snow accumulate, they will slide off the collector instead of being stuck on top.

lecturer: but wad do u nid it for in winter?? there is no Sun(!!)

mi: (stunned look) hu says that winter dun hav Sun!!

wahaha.. kinda unexpected from a lecturer hu supposed is the best mathematician among the other lecturer teaching the same module.. lolx.. NO SUN!! jiahao today is keen on playing dota!! omg.. so rare sia.. most of the time when i suggest i wan to play warcraft, he will insist we play another game, cs or halo.. but today he took the initiative to jio thiam hee and enshao for a game sia.. lolx.. and we played for damn long la.. from 1plus to 4 plus.. wth.. strange o.o... after we finish all our game, mi and jiahao went to the clubhse to get his RC car.. and it was onli then tat i realised there was a meeting goin on in there.. and since i din noe bout it, i supposed it was nt meant for mi.. politely knocked on the door, asked to take the car out and then took the car out.. haha.. then jiahao let mi play wif the car along the corridor.. magnum force was occupying the sports deck if nt i would hav played there.. the car crashed a few times though, in the narrow corridor.. haha.. i noob driver.. i think we play wif the car for less than half an hour.. then we packed up.. put the car back into clubhse.. so paiseh la.. keep disturbing the meeting.. anyway, jiahao onli wanted the ag which he kept his car.. zzz..

walked out back gate to shell bus stop so jiahao can hav a better time.. lolx.. he takes 157, which is nt available at NP bus stop.. then coincidence happened.. met 3 dear frens.. first was kai hoow and benjamin at the bus stop.. lolx.. ben was wearing formal.. so shuai la.. haha.. ai zai one.. lolx.. but then he told mi his project panel review or smth like dis did nt go well.. said the lecturer like shit.. lolx.. wad's happening to lecturers nowsaday sia.. zzz.. my course oso got shitty lecturers.. haha.. sian lor.. got a feeling my results are goin to b pretty bad dis sem.. haix.. then after that, met grace mummy on the bus.. but she looks sad.. and tired.. can barely smile at mi.. when i stand in front of her, can feel her lethargic-ness.. so depressing kinda thing.. haha.. mummy!! if u are readin dis here, pls cheer up.. projects, sch works.. i noe they are tough.. but then again, it's all in the mind.. if u wan to feel tired and such, ur body will react according.. haha.. y nt take everything as a game.. perhaps it will b more enjoyable.. hmm.. come to think bout it, i dun think u r such a person to use that technique i use.. lolx.. so, the onli thing u can do is to learn to relax more ok?? too stress come to mi la.. i can provide some de-stressing nonsense.. erm, i mean ways.. ^^ and dis tip doesn't apply to mummy alone.. anyone out there feeling too stressed can come to mi la.. haha.. but i dun guarantee ur sanity back.. lolx..

jus now when i was lying in my room alone and listening to some songs, a lot of tots hit mi.. jus all of a suddenly.. i realised that the more u seek a thing, the more elusive the item will become, making it harder for u to find.. it had happened b4, and recently it happened again.. lolx.. meant to lose thing?? rmb the last time when i ask the love and like thingy? i sort of figure something out myself.. love is like accepting a rose from a person and noeing that the thorns are there, u gladly reach out and grab it wif both hands, nt caring if it would hurt u badly or nt, as long as the person hu give it to u is happy.. like, on the other hand, is like accepting the rose, but to prevent damage done to urself, u removed the stem from the flower.. and then return the stem back to the person.. lolx.. interesting metaphor?? seems a bit weird though.. i shall look more into it and come out wif a 'theorem'.. haha.. :P and i would like to condemn myself liaos..........

"Nothing is so strong as gentleness. Nothing is so gentle as real strength." - Frances de Sales

2007-07-29T22:56:00.000+08:00

back after an interval again.. haha.. hmm.. i wan to make it a point to blog everyday ar..but alas, my body works differently from my tots.. and my mind is nt in the exact position to support my tots either.. haha.. too lazy and tired the few days before.. short intro to today's post; had overnight training on friday and international night backstage crew on saturday.. let's begin..

overnight training was on friday, 27 july.. mi, in-charge.. ^^ fascinating huh?? lolx.. basically, it was all about walking again.. same as last year.. onli tat this year, we adopted a more flexible system.. we allowed the participants to choose whre they wan to go.. start: East Coast Park, destination: Ngee Ann Poly, time to reach: 7am the nxt morning and tat was all the rules of the game.. gd enuf?? lolx.. seems like a gd deal for the freshies.. but then, the old ones in the club will hav the feeling that it is very familiar.. lolx.. well, but then it was fun.. we split up into four groups.. mi grp members are rachel, yi biao, jia rong, jun kai, sally, grace, cheng yi, kai hoow.. they were all fun at the beginning but then, fatigue catched up wif them real fast too.. during the walk in east coast park all the way to tanjong rhu park, they were at their peak.. lolx.. cracking jokes, making fun of each other, and one particular person, singing.. but his player spoil and he onli sing one line throughout.. lolx.. my grp very steady.. they walk and walk and walk but dun noe whre they goin.. lolx.. had to play hinting games wif them along the way.. haha.. and my grp is a real chiongster grp.. lolx.. they walk damn fast la.. especially yi biao and sally, hu were always in front of the grp and sometimes damn far away.. lolx.. sally's speed completely obliterated my excuse of 'legs short walk slower'.. lolx.. apart from the 2 of them, the other members were mostly stick together, cracking stupid jokes every now and then.. lolx.. my grp did minimal resting and the few times we rested were all, but 1 time, prompted by mi.. lolx.. and when they heard that there was a grp in front, they realli mustered all their strength together and chiong.. we managed to catch up wif the grp in front of us, which was christina's grp and for the last part of the 'journey', we merged and walked.. haha.. the funny part in this is tat during the start of the journey, we actualli had the chance to merge but my grp had rejected their offer.. and fate brought us together again.. lolx.. i din realli wanted the arrangement but since everyone's tired and having more company might liven up the mood.. so i tot it was ok.. and anyway, from whre we were, the last part of the journey can be said to b the most sian part lor.. cos we will be circling the Botanical Gardens and along the road, there is nth interesting to see except road and tall bushes.. haha.. so nvm lor.. merge lor.. in the end, became the first 2 grp to reach sch.. but here comes another problem.. we dun hav a room.. haha.. partly because of my fault.. i forgot to draw out the keys to the room.. sry guys..*end of overnight training*

we reached sch at 6am plus while the lastest grp were said to arrive at 7.30am(i dun noe, i was slping :P).. the last grp detour-ed too much and ended up too far from out proposed route.. haha.. it was over for most of the members but it also meant the start of another event for mi and weilson.. lolx.. International Nite 2007.. cool stuff.. a dinner by the students for the students.. haha.. tat was quoted.. it begins onli in the evening but preparation works begin as early as 10am.. so immediately after overnight training, we had to work at this dinner liaos.. but for mi, i m a slacker.. and slackers cant go without rest.. lolx.. so i told weilson i sian.. haha.. he is one of the in-charge i think.. anyway, i had to go home and get long pants cos they say no shorts and everything on u mus be dark coloured.. so i had to go home to change.. but then, as one would expect, i went home and sleep.. haha.. a while onli.. then jiahao called mi and bloody made mi go.. haha.. and also because i tot since i had promised weilson i go, i shld la..haha.. and was i glad i went.. haha.. at the event, everyone was dressed to the nines.. haha.. got lots of pretty gals ard sia.. i din meant to switch on my radar.. but with the temptation too great and the fact that i was bored , i switched on and was overwhelmed.. lolx.. number 1 spot goes to dis violinist from NP Strings.. omg sia.. she got killer looks la.. haha.. and for the first time, jiahao agreed wif mi that she looks gd.. lolx.. but then again, we had to agree tat cosmetic may b at play.. but then again, hu cares.. i cant help but to feel she looks a bit like you-know-who(eh.. nt Voldermort.. ppl hu noe mi well shld noe la).. ^^ second place goes to a participant of the dinner.. i spotted her from back stage.. but then, weilson and gang reminded mi tat looks can differ with distance and can differ greatly.. lolx.. but then through a twist of fate, i saw her again, on my way to the toilet.. she was lining up for food and the queue snaked across the toilet's entrance.. so to get in, u had to cut the line.. and the place whre i cut is directly whre she stands.. i din hav it planned and i din noe she was the one cos she was talking to her frens behind her, back facing mi.. then when i was cutting in halfway thorugh, she turned ard rite into face la.. then i realised it's her.. lolx.. kinda fascinating huh.. third place goes to one of the ISC member.. the escort for the principal.. but then again.. cosmetic can be deceiving?? this third postion gal however, is adored by jiahao hu told mi that she has another fren hu is also a GG.. haha.. so generally the event is quite ok.. it would hav been great apart from one thing.. the welfare of the helpers were generally forgotten.. -.-" no dinner.. and the onli time they provided food was at 3pm.. a bit early for dinner and certainly doubting for a person eating at tat time to nt feel hungry until 10pm.. lolx..*supposed end of International Night(for those hu wan to noe more, ask and u shall be enlightened^^)*

once again, apology for these long long post.. for quote-lovers, sry for making u read through the nonsense to reach this section.. ur reward awaits u......^^

"... joy and sorrow are inseparable. . . together they come and when one sits alone with you . . . remember that the other is asleep upon your bed." - Kahlil Gibran

2007-07-25T23:50:00.000+08:00

^^ hi everyone.. i m back.. its has been rather eventful over the past few days when i did nt post but i had no way of sharing my experiences wif u guys because of a lot of factors.. first and foremost, the most impt of all, my lappy was down for 3 days.. 3 days no lappy.. i was so scared.. i scared i was goin to lose another one of my 'companion'.. zzz.. then come the busy part.. recently i hav been busy.. projs start to appear one-by-one liao.. so sian.. dis is something i hate bout my course.. first 3/4 of the sem nth to do.. then suddenly all come together.. zzz.. sian lor.. haha.. shld talk more later.. third is tiredness.. stems from being busy.. so actualli dis point can be considered as the second.. but i cannot think of a third point.. and leaving the number to end at 2 is nt nice.. so i tot i might jus crap a lil'.. :P as i hav said, a lot of events happened during the days i went 'missing', if u hav an interest to noe wad happened, pls check out our fellow OB members blog..if u go to one and din find anything, change target.. find another guy.. if the other person still dun hav the info u wan, go scout another person again.. if the third person still dun hav anything to clear ur doubts, then u hav no fate wif the event and i suggest u jus banish the tot of finding out and go to bed after u hav finish reading my post...... ^^

so let's let the past be the past.. today(damn it!today again), i had an appointment at the National Skin Center.. wahaha.. been a long time since i went there.. so long.. 2 yrs?? perhaps more.. however, recently, there has suddenly been an outbreak of my skin disease.. disease sounds so nt nice.. but ya.. it's the truth.. so sian.. i hate myself for having dis stupid thing.. haix.. a lot of things i like i cant do.. guess wad the doc told mi today.. 'pls stop doin exercises, slp well'.. both of which i cant realli do since i m a TC and exercising is my job and that the few projects and OB is realli helping mi stay awake at night.. nt to mention the night session of dota every now and then.. haix.. wif this illness, lots of stuff i cant do actualli.. but each time i try to push myself beyond tat limit and i hav to pay for it most of the time.. but its ok for mi.. i like to break limits.. same as breaking rules.. when u do things u are nt supposed to.. and when u did it, tat's when u feel gd, although some may look back and realised that the consequences is too great.. but for mi, i jus wan to noe tat i did something against my limit or against some greater authorities..haha.. sounds so pai kia.. but its the adrenaline rush.. cool thing..^^

hmm.. been rather busy lately.. OB proposals, proj reports, proj slides.. haix.. suddenly all come.. to think i was jus complaining i was slack in some previous post.. but then again,my level of busy-ness, as compared to the rest, is far far behind.. haha.. hmm.. this busy-ness is making feel empty again.. cos all my energy has gone into doin work, none has been left to fight this psychological monster.. been feeling all emo almost every night.. thank goodness the tiredness draws mi into lala-land pretty fast.. haha.. so neva affect quite a lot.. but still affected.. haha..or mayb is cos of tiredness.. i nid reassurance.. hug anyone?? lolx..

tots is pretty sad.. dun wan to say liaos.. time to slp.. emo-monster appearing.. it is fascinating how one letter can make 2 monster so different.. elmo is always so happy and funny.. but the emo is so sad and god-damn-it.. jus one 'l'.. one very impt question first.. someone pls enlighten mi on the difference between love and like?? ^^

"If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough." - Ann Landers

2007-07-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

:( today i very sad.. start the day feeling very very sad.. haix.. although today is afternoon class, which many ppl are happy to hav, i cant help to to feel so lost.. haix.. i think it's because i lost something very impt to mi ytd night.. haix.. so sian.. I LOST MY DAMN EARPIECE AND THE KEYCHAIN A FREN BOUGHT FOR MI WHEN SHE WENT BACK TO HER HOME COUNTRY!!!!!!! haix.. both valuable asserts to mi.. if my wallet gone i think i oso wont b so sian lor.. cos wallet gone can replace.. but the keychain cant b replaced.. the keychain is actualli part of a heart.. my whole class got the keychain and when u assemble them together, they will form a big big heart.. haix.. now 1 piece is gone.. and the keychain has my name on it.. haix haix haix.. earpiece wise.. my best buddy.. always keep mi company when i m bored.. my best fren liaos.. he was there when i was at my saddest, my happiest my sian-est.. haix.. sounds so exaggerated but its true lor.. haix.. now all gone.. but wad's gone is gone la.. haix.. i tried to backtrack my mind but i jus cant seem to rmb whre i lost my 'frens'.. -.-"

today is IS day.. haix.. add sian-ness to more sian.. lolx.. flash is getting more sian.. today hav to submit storyboard for proj.. means hav to come up wif wad r u goin to do and let the lecturer see... and then hor, submit liaos cannot change.. wah!! i hav neva tot of wad to do b4 la.. so today die die mus finish.. and ppl hu noes mi shld noe how i hate to do thinking under stress.. lolx.. ppl hu dun noe, jus rmb now.. haha.. stress jams up my little brain.. my brain is so small tat slight pressure may reduce it to nthness instantly.. for ppl wif big brains, a little pressure, mayb shrink a bit onli.. haha.. then i will become a no-brainer.. dun think its a gd idea.. lolx.. but in the end still managed to think of something without damaging the little grey piece in my skull.. haha.. if nt i wont b here talking to u.. but then again, today IS session short.. jus think of wad u wan to do, write a short report on it, then u can go liaos.. lolx.. but my day is nt over wor.. i hav to go to SDAR to book room for friday.. haha.. then i tot since i m there, might as well go clubhse slack a bit first.. anyway i nid to charge phone.. can save electricity at home.. so i was there for 1 hr plus.. almost fell asleep.. haha.. in the end no choice, hav to take out lappy and play.. cos if i were to fall aslp, i wont make it on time for dinner liaos..

conclusion: today is a sad sad day for mi.. sad sad sad sad sad.. haha?

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on." - Robert Frost

2007-07-16T23:52:00.000+08:00

hello ppl!! having monday blues?? stupid question cos i think by the time u read dis post, monday will b over.. lolx.. well, today no blues for mi though.. 8 to 9 lesson again.. long time no such timing liaos.. ever since they decide to change one of the 2 practical days, i hav practicals every week, odd week 9 to 11 and even week 11 to 1.. 8 to 9 is default every week got one.. so today is gaming day liaos lor.. recently jia hao and gang has been all crazy bout halo.. but we onli got the trial version though.. so our main game has moved on from dota and cs to halo.. but trust mi, i think we will b sian pretty soon.. cos everytime same map.. same weapon.. same imbalness.. lolx.. btw, imbal is short for inbalance, meaning an overpower in a game.. until now enshao is still the pro-est player of halo.. thrashed by him a few times liaos.. haha..

at 11am, which is the official timing for thermodynamics practical, i went wif noraini to see mr jayadran regarding on our proj.. today actualli no practical one.. but he wans to check up on our 'progress'.. so hav to specially go see him.. when we reach there, the lab was nt opened and jaya was nowhre in sight.. so mi and noraini sat outside.. then we saw a lot of our classmate hu did nt noe tat there is no practical dis week.. haha.. so all come for nth.. jus to add on.. my 8 to 9 lesson is em3b, which onli half the class is taking now cos the other half had taken it last sem when we were taking our eg2.. cos they are pro kias in studies, they can skip eg1 which is too simple for them i think.. haha.. so when jaya came, he oso did nt hav the means to open the lab.. thus, he jus check our work outside.. he look at the screen for barely 10 to 15 sec la.. then he say ok.. i think the onli thing he managed to read is the headers and section headers.. zzz. but wadeva.. haha.. report done, next is powerpoint slides and presentation.. shld b ok in dis area..^^

after tat, we went to canteen 1 and eat.. started the radar thingy again.. picked up a few positive signals.. actualli hor.. the radar is on 24/7, regardless of whre we are.. haha.. so everywhre is a 'battlefield'.. lolx.. every now and then, i will receive a 'enemy' spotted signal.. lolx.. courtesy of joe and liheng.. but i mus say sometimes i feel our taste differs.. especially jia hao hu thinks tat yingjia looks normal when everyone else says she's pretty and outstanding.. lolx.. zzz.. after food is game again.. haha.. at the library, the connection sux lor.. damn it.. play halo lagged real bad.. and i do mean real bad.. basically the person looks more like he is teleporting instead of walking.. zzz.. i gave up playing and ended up slping.. slp in wrong position.. wake up liaos cramp and got the feeling tat blood is nt flowing properly through the limbs.. haha.. so very the uncomfortable..

at ard 2, we left the library to continue our gaming session at another place: convention centre basement.. played dota and cs.. play all the way until 4plus, then i had to leave.. goin to watch campus superstar at mediacorp, to support elaine.. unfortunately, she din manage to win tonight's survival round and is nw officially out of the competition.. she's taking it very well though.. well, dun worry elaine.. u did well.. frankly speaking, out of the 4 gals hu managed to carry on, i think 3 of them CMI one.. lolx.. when u listen to their song, u jus hav an uneasy feeling.. nt tat i pro or wad but based on feeling.. i m nt biased or anything.. if elaine is realli bad, i wont say she's gd.. but nw she's realli actualli gd.. so it's a pity she's out.. shawn, the youngest player in dis game won the survival round for the male part and i think he realli deserves it.. dun see him small small.. he got a very nice voice and the necessary x-factor when on stage..nt to mention his cuteness.. when he appeared in the studio, u can practically hear everyone screaming for him, gals especially.. haha..

*end of post*

"The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be the beginning." - Ivy Baker Priest

2007-07-15T23:39:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i m still having difficulties starting a post.. lolx.. hmm.. how?? hmm.. actualli hor, i think i spend the most time on thinking how to start when i m blogging.. haha.. i jus dun wan to keep starting wif 'today i blah blah blah..." so sian to type it, nt to mention read it la.. haha.. after so much i hav typed, i still hav no idea how to start.. damn it.. haha.. hmm.. ok then.. let's start..

today, i wake up earlier than usual.. but nt on my own.. kena disturbed by my brother.. damn it.. for someone hu slpt at 3 plus the night b4, slping in is a very impt part of his day.. and he has to ruin it.. haha.. but wadeva.. lolx.. almost killed him.. but thankfully i became sober fast enuf.. if nt the slp demon in mi would hav shred him.. haha.. sry.. exaggerated.. today is a very packed day for mi.. after i wake up, neva slack.. the moment i wan to slack, i will rmb i hav things to do.. haha.. minutes after i wake up and washed up, i had to leave home liaos.. to mi grandma hse.. today is my grandpa's death anniversary.. so go pay my respect to him..^^ i neva got to see my grandpa.. he passed away either when i wasn't even born or when i was very very young.. i din see him appear in any of my 1 yr old bday celebration photos.. so he mus hav been gone b4 then.. but something tells mi he is a very gd grandpa.. haha.. my mum used to tell mi bout him.. onli thing nt gd bout him is tat he smokes.. and tat's the reason he's gone..

well well, the most impt reason i m kept busy today is because of thermodynamics report.. haha.. tmr nid to 'let him see progress' liaos.. wahaha.. damn it.. the most sian part bout writing a report is the bloody format.. all the indentation and such.. haix.. so sian.. then sometimes the computer refuses to cooperate.. currently i think i m done.. haha.. confirm gt things to change one after tmr.. haha.. so now lets jus do a rough job.. :P well, i did put my heart into doin the report.. first part.. haha.. so u can see tat the first part of the report damn ai zai one.. but towards the ed, it will become more short and brief.. lolx.. typical work of a person wif a short attention span, coupled wif the fact tat he is playful.. :P haha.. but dun worry.. i renew my attention span bar everyday.. so tmr i will start on the second part and make it as nicee~ as the first.. ^^

lolx.. my cousin graduated from SMU.. she had her graduation dinner ytd.. today she purposely brought her graduation attire to my grandma's hse so she can take photos wif everyone.. haha.. cool hor.. CONGRATS peixin-jie jie.. then i found out my mummy very typical.. she keep asking my cousin if she got bf liaos or nt.. nt one time but many many time.. then when we looking at the photos she took ytd at the dinner, everytime a guy appear beside my cousin, she will ask funny question one.. haha.. then another one of my cousin went to army liaos.. today hav the army boi looks.. NO HAIR!!! haha.. my uncle all come and call him botak.. hahaha.. soon it will b my turn.. lolx.. 1 more yr.. BOTAK!! haha.. my mummy say i dun look gd if i botak.. sian.. but then again.. i neva did look gd.. haha..

tots for the day: none.. nth to think bout anyway.. haha.. hmm.. emo times pls come soon.. so my post can b longer.. hahaha..^^

"Security is mostly a superstition. It does not exist in nature, nor do the children of men as a whole experience it. Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure or nothing." - Helen Keller

2007-07-12T22:56:00.000+08:00

update, updates, updated, updating.. 3 days no blogged.. ^^ cos dun noe wad to say liaos.. haha.. nth much happened, nth much achieved, nth much to show.. i m jus nth much.. haha.. hmm.. today actually oso nth much.. but i realised its time to update.. so i goin to create something out of nothing.. haha.. today, late again.. haha.. spree coming back.. last 3 days no late hor.. today 8am lesson, 8.45 wake up.. cool man.. looking at dis scenario, i will and i m late for 1 lesson and absent for the other.. haha..the absent part however, is covered by my favourite fren by the name of Gan Jia Hao.. haha.. he help mi sign attendance.. woots.. thx huh..^^ hmm.. then begins the rush to sch.. lets see.. when i was walking towards the bus stop, 100+m away, the bloody bus came.. being nt the peak time to go to sch, there was onli one person taking the bus.. so the bus came and go.. zzz.. nvm.. i tot i can take 75.. so i started walking over.. when the bus stop came into view, the bus left my sight.. -.-" haix.. sian.. nvm lor.. i walk back to 184 bus stop since 184 come faster.. wasted a lot of time.. haha.. ok.. after which i uneventful reach sch.. then reach sch liaos, lesson at blk 50.. then i went up to the 5th floor.. reach 5th floor liaos, look at timetable again.. damn it.. lesson on 2nd floor.. haha.. so after all the hoo-ha, i reached class at 9.40am.. went in, listen to lecturer say 2 sentence, lesson over.. lolx.. cool huh??

after tat supposed to b marine engineering tutorial.. 2 hours.. but kena cancelled.. cos lecturer wanna go health checkup.. haha.. so i got 3 hrs break.. normally when i say dis, ppl will assume i m goin to play games.. BUT!! today different.. hanbin did work.. haha.. marine industry safety tutorial 1 and tutorial 2.. wahaha.. but oso because the deadline for the assignments is today.. haha.. then had a little 'project meeting'.. :P its my fault la.. i work too much on marine safety and forgot the time.. so cut into the project time by a lot.. sry guys and gals.. agreed to compile the infomation together to atone for my sin..^^ 10 page report.. guess i can do it ba.. let the crapping begin.. haha..

well, recently i hav been having the feeling of emptiness again.. been long since i had tat feeling.. the feeling whre u wan to do things but dun hav the energy to do it.. when u feel tat u r lacking a certain something and tat without the thing, nth seems rite.. lolx.. i m getting lots of 'live with it' kind of encouragement.. haha.. sure i will.. another thing i feel is tat i m nth.. haha.. -.-" seriously, i feel tat i hav nt accomplished anything.. everytime i see my frens getting busy and all worked up wif their projects or work, and tat i m still at tat one corner slacking and playing, i feel i m so useless.. ok la.. a bit of emo wording.. but i seriously feel weird.. its like y r ppl getting so tensed but i dun hav a slight sense of urgency.. so sian.. everyday i m still like playing and playing and more playing.. haix.. i noe i shld change.. but i dun hav the means to.. i guess i jus like to escape to the virtual reality world.. whre nth is real.. jus like mi........

“A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable but more useful than a life spent in doing nothing. - George Bernard Shaw

2007-07-09T22:01:00.000+08:00

^^ wahaha.. today, one of the very very rare time, hanbin was actualli early for his lesson.. haha.. pretty cool stuff.. haha.. first time walk into class onli got 5 pairs of eyes watching mi.. normally there will b like 20+ pairs of eyes liaos.. but actualli i din noe i was early until i reach class.. cos when i was walking to class, there was nt much ppl ard mi.. last time when i was on time, i will b walking into the sch wif a crowd.. but today no.. very few ppl.. i guess monday blues ba.. haha.. but for mi no blues.. monday slackest day of the week liaos.. 3 hr lesson.. then end of day.. can go play and lie ard in clubhse to rot.. haha.. today is no different.. today first hour maths as usual, so sian.. but today time seems to pass extra fast.. watching terry play my laptop and b4 i knew it, the lecturer packing up liaos.. can go liaos.. haha.. after tat is marine engineering practical.. dis time practical realli slack one.. one report to do, group submission.. one grp got like 6-7 members.. so 1 person to do sketching of the experiment, another to copy down the results, which was like provided by the TSO.. lolx.. so practically the rest were left to wander round the room like zombies.. cos the oficer oso dun care.. and the room is small la.. haha.. walk and walk and walk in circles.. 2 hrs practical, 1 hr finish.. happy!!

after lesson, mi, liheng and joe went to canteen 1 to slack and wait for jia hao.. he in another practical grp doin different things.. then liheng and joe started to on radar again.. scan the whole canteen.. spotted GGs.. lolx.. btw, GG stands for Good Gals.. meaning gals tat deserves a second, third or mayb many many more times look.. then liheng coined another abbreviation, SG.. lolx.. Super Gals.. gals on a higher level than GGs, prettier perhaps due to make ups or mayb pure natural beauty tat can catch liheng's eyes.. by dis time jia hao already joined us.. ^^ then moved on to wad kinda gals will catch ur eyes.. lolx.. joe and liheng both got the same taste.. they prefer gals woth gd looking legs.. slender and long, nt too dark.. haha.. tats wad they told mi.. for mi, i prefer gals wif gd looking eyes.. big, but nt too big and bright.. jia hao lehs, i dun noe.. its either he neva say or he say then i din hear.. haha.. along the way, liheng's gf came into the crossfire too.. haha.. shall nt go into details though.. :P

after our little discussion, we went to clubhse and slack.. saw dongyang along the way, he din hav his keys wif him.. haha.. lucky he saw mi.. then we went together.. haha.. reach there liaos, wanted to play game.. then end up watching Ali G.. nt first time though.. haha.. supposed to show for joe to see one.. but in the end he fell asleep.. zzz.. haha.. then after tat dongyang went to slp also.. haha.. guess everyone was jus plain tired its a monday.. lolx.. then after tat dongyang had lesson, so he had to leave.. then i took over his place and slp.. ^^ wake up butt cramp.. cos i slp with my wallet in my back pocket.. at 2.50pm, the 3 bois left, 2 went movie, 1 went home.. joe was the one hu went home.. the other 2 went to watch die hard wif noraini and gang.. haha.. then i alone in clubhse lor.. went to snack bar and find things to eat.. then got one couple at the counter there gettin intimate.. lolx.. dun noe if i shld go near or nt.. but in the end i still went near la.. haha.. thick-skin.. ^^ but i was nt alone for long.. pretty soon, farand came to clubhse also.. haha.. then he left mi again to go for a run.. jus when he was about to leave, derrick came.. haha.. so i was nt alone realli.. hmm.. haha.. then weilson came too, then followed by ian.. yoyo, hafiz, caiying and shu juan came one-by-one soon after.. haha.. but then, yoyo, caiying and hafiz went to play badminton so the clubhse is nt as squeezy as one would imagine.. haha.. played dota wif weilson and ian.. ian, pls go brush up more on ur skills.. how to buy items etc, etc.. read guides.. haha.. went home at ard 7pm today..

problems hav all been totally solved.. now, i feel so much like a free man la.. haha.. interestingly so.. but still pretty much distracted.. number of freak accident.. walk stairs miss step.. cut things stupidly cut myself.. middle finger got a valley.. then dun noe if i knock into things or wad, knuckles mysteriously bleeding, even as i m typing now.. haha.. blood tastes kinda nice.. MONSTER!!!!!!! O.O hahahahaha..

btw, today shuxian birthday.. Happy Birthday.. i m typing it here cos she made it a point to let mi noe it's today.. lolx.. thx huh.. hope to cya friday..*end of very long post*

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity." - Gilda Radner

2007-07-08T01:14:00.000+08:00

ytd, i had the mind to blog.. but haha.. went to lie down a while....... in the end ended up slping.. haha.. tired la.. i will jus talk bout my tots ytd.. ytd, ob had a 2.4km trial run.. mi run 11.11 minutes.. -.-" serious drop from the past.. first time hit 11 minutes.. ouch!! stamina serious injured.. nid to buck up.. hmm.. my way of running haven change leh.. i still use my breathing rate as my pacing.. but for one, i felt tired faster liao.. last time can tahan until 4th or 5th lap.. now 3rd lap already feel like i m goin to black out liao.. mayb cos nt enuf rest.. or mayb i hav been slacking too much.. either way, nt acceptable.. lolx.. wake up boi!!!

lets move on to today, which is technically ytd, judgin by the timing now.. lolx.. kinda confusing.. lolx.. but wadeva.. erm.. today wake up oso usual time, in fact later, at 2pm.. and to think i slp earlier the night b4, at like 11 plus.. lolx.. and its the first time no one bothered to wake mi up.. normally i slp until so late, my mother or father will confirm kao bei one.. dis time dun hav leh.. haha.. at first i din noe i slp until so late.. until i wash up, bath, eat finish lunch/breakfast(i hav since regarded my breakfast as my lunch), then i went to hav a few rounds of dota.. look at the com clock.. wahs!! 4 plus already.. then i tried to backtrack and see wad i did.. couldn't hav took so long ma.. then i ask my mum.. then she say i pig slp until 2pm.. then exactly 2pm wake up.. haha.. ^^ piggy writin blog.. see b4?? lolx

after gaming, go eat dinner.. mummy got cook.. finally ar.. 1 week 7 days, i onli like 2 days eat at home.. monday and today.. tmr confirm eat out.. then mummy keep complaining y i neva eat at home one.. so i say i can eat at home.. ask her to jus leave food for mi.. then she oso dun wan.. lolx.. funny huh?? but ok la.. mummy cooking is better than outside food.. tat is when she dun wan to go the healthier route by having all veggie dishes.. haha.. everytime she cooks, i will try to b in the kitchen.. hah.. secret learning.. lolx.. so nxt time hungry dun nid to bother her.. wahaha.. but until now, i dun think i m anywhre near her level.. haha..

dinner finish.. movie time!! haha.. TRANSFORMER REALLI ROCKS MAN!!! for one of the few rare times, i walked out of the cinema without feeling any slight feeling of regret.. damn nice the movie.. been hearing a lot of comments bout the movie b4 i watched it.. but neva think too much as one man's trash may b another man's treasure.. which means opinions will differ.. but after i watch it, man, was i glad i joined them for the movie.. btw, the 'them' refers to jacqeline, huiting, shuxian, yingjia, grace, wenting, derrick, kaihoow, ben, kk.. ya.. movie damn nice.. the fighting scene damn cool.. the way they first transform damn cool.. the way they subsequently transform oso damn cool.. in all, everything damn cool.. haha.. greatest impression is of a phrase found on barricade when he is in the police car form.. it goes like dis: 'to protect and enslave'.. i dun noe y but the phrase leaves a very deep impression in my mind.. perhaps cos of the ironical nature of the words ba.. 'protect' and 'enslave' dun sounds like words wif similar meanings.. lolx.. interesting..

"There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness. - Carl Jung

2007-07-04T00:23:00.000+08:00

^^ jus now i cross the traffic light.. very normal.. then the green light came on.. i proceeded to cross the road.. took one step out.. jus the very first step.. then suddenly got car come in front of mi.. zoomed past mi.. so near tat i think i can actualli my shirt was actualli helping to wipe the car..

sounds like the driver's fault?? well, i m sad to say it's nt his fault.. i looked at the wrong green light.. i looked at the green light meant for the cars.. was very distracted.. recently my mind is kinda weird.. a couple of days again, i was waiting at the same traffic light.. then the red man was on.. so i waited.. jus standing there, mind wandered off i think.. so when the green man came on, i din cross the road.. onli when ppl from the other side almost wan to finish crossing liaos then i realised the green man is on.. well.. i think i may nid to go learn how to cross road again..

haha.. jus now i was thinking to myself.. is my time up already?? shld i actualli hav died jus now?? m i lucky or wad?? lolx.. cos i hav been thinking obut death for so long.. so much so tat jus now when the incident happened, i felt more adrenaline pumping throughout my body, nt of fear but more of excited.. of cos i did nt show tat out.. ppl will lock mi up in woodbridge.. haha.. i had been wishing for my death sentence.. is it coming soon?? haha.. sometimes i wonder wad will happen if i die.. but then again, i dun wan to make ppl sad leh, if there r ppl hu will b.. difficult choice.. but ppl do get over grief rites??

2007-07-02T23:29:00.000+08:00

HAPPY YOUTH DAY TO ALL!!! although i think by the time u read dis, it would hav been over.. for one thing, today is the make up holiday.. nt the actual day itself.. so my greeting is actualli late.. haha.. but wadeva.. i did manage to celebrate today wif my jc frens hu r having their holiday.. but then, i still got sch today.. lolx.. so stupid.. 8 to 1 lesson wif a 2 hr break between.. zzz.. stupid timetable.. after 1 then chiong all the way to eunos to meet them.. went to east coast park again.. and yes.. we cycled.. sounds rather sian.. i have been to east coast park thrice in a month, even though i live in the west which is bloody far away, and everytime i went, i cycle.. haha..but then again, everytime i go, the ppl changes and so the experience is different.. lets take today as example.. my jc frens.. 3 gals(mavis, peishan, qiuyan) 3 guys(grant, eric,mi) including mi.. rented 4 single bikes and 1 double bike.. i started the ride on a single bike and ended up on the double bike.. became sort of a taxi driver.. tired liao then they change 'shift'.. lolx.. but then again, onli the gals get tired easily la.. i din manage to ferry guys.. and since gals r lighter, there was nt much of a problem.. we cycled for 2 hrs plus a bit more.. supposed to end exactly 2 hrs later one but i think the rental shop boss also shuai bian la.. haha.. as long as nt too much ok liao.. haha.. after cycling, we proceeded to youth park to eat dinner.. after meeting another 3 more frens(justin, yong quan, evon) tat is.. eat 'tze char'.. well, today's outing was oso to celebrate grants bday which falls on the 28th of june.. it's belated.. heard the gals din buy present for him.. so we gave him a treat instead.. today almost everything he did is paid for by us.. after dinner went for desserts.. go nydc eat cake.. seems like the gals din buy cake as well.. haha.. the ice cream and pies there r truely gd food.. heavenly sia the chocs.. lolx.. one thing i dun like is cheese cake la.. i think the smell/taste too strong for my liking.. after tat went home liao..*end of celebratory mood*

well well.. today, the fact tat i managed to go for dis outing is because of my gd frens.. thx jia hao and liheng for lendingmi the money to tide over first.. especially jia hao, hu attempted to go ard and try to convince ppl to lend mi money when he dun hav enuf.. thx a lot!! i promise to return asap the money, fren..

tiredness caused emo feelings to surface.. lolx.. cycle till tired liao.. rest of the day pretty quiet.. i try to strike up conversations but i neva seem to b able to maintain them.. mind keep blocking.. like com restart like dis.. stupid.. imagine talking halfway then suddenly dun noe how to continue wad u hav jus said.. zzz.. then went back to the same old problem.. of solving affairs of the heart.. haix.. looks like trying to deny things is nt realli simple.. something happened to back tat claim.. haix.. the recent addition of another party(it's nt hu u think he/she is) has made things worst.. wad shld i do.......

"The important thing is this: To be able at any moment to sacrifice what we are for what we could become." - Charles Dubois

2007-07-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. jus came back from an overnight cycling trip.. well, nt realli jus came back la.. reached home in the morning.. nt the first time doin overnight cycling but then the first time i had cycled in the east part.. so at the start of the trip was pretty unsure of route and had to depend on my teammates.. didn't talk much during dis phase as i was concentrating hard on following up wif my teammates lest the traffic light or and wayward traffic were to seperate mi and the person in front.. then, we slowly moved into the central area and tat's when i grew more comfortable.. but actualli communication was also quite low as everyone is in a single file and i think by the time we reached the central area, most of them were already quite tired.. so all keep quiet to conserve energy.. so i jus relaxed and enjoy some scenery myself lor.. had quite a lot of checkpoints and it was onli during the rests tat we did manage to talk more and had the most fun.. no injuries.. kudos to everyone.. the whole trip took us east to west to east again, in like 7 hrs?? i din rmb wad time we start but we returned to east coast at ard 6am i think.. lolx.. enjoyed every part of the cycling trip although the muscle aches were there.. but the discomfort also tell u tat u r working out great!! ^^

hmm.. after i reached home, i din do anything much la.. too tired liao.. went to slp immediately.. of cos got wash up first la.. haha.. but din slp much la.. from 7am to like 12plus.. then hav to wake up liao.. cos goin out wif family.. went to granny hse.. went there sit sit.. ^^ haha.. din do much things there.. mavis called mi and we chatted for a while.. then i had to go for dinner so we hanged each other up.. lolx.. then hav to go home after dinner cos daddy working.. so home we came.. then when we reached home, i had a game of dota.. from the prey become the predator.. *woots* at first keep getting killed.. then late game owned.. i used dwarven sniper btw.. then after the game ended, changed from desktop to laptop and started to blog lor, which is wad i m doin now la.. strangely, i m nt feeling a bit of tiredness.. haha.. today is slping pill day liaos!! erm.. actualli hor, wad i m taking is nt slping pill i think.. its a milder form but i dun think will cause ppl to slp.. i think at most drowsy then will FEEL like slping.. cos i tried to drugged gals but neva succeed.. lolx.. *opps*

well, tots r generalli rare these few days as i hav temporarily switched off my brain.. all i hav been thinking bout these days is nonsense.. i cant even do proper work properly.. haha.. but i scared if i turn on i will think too much.. nvm.. let's make use of nonsense to create something proper.. mayb it's feasible.. after all, i had done it for like all 4 yrs in secondary?? haha.. crapping my way through each assignment and examinationss.. :P

"Instead of saying that man is the creature of circumstance, it would be nearer the mark to say that man is the architect of circumstance." - Thomas Carlyle

2007-06-28T23:46:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. today i got to noe all my ct results liao.. basket.. terrible terrible result..... 2 80s, 1 70s and 2 50s...... AH!!!!!!!!!!! sad life.. wad a difference from the past results.. haix.. looks like i m goin to get promoted to senior slacker soon.. haha.. haha.. haha.. haha?? y m i nt feeling any sense of urgency yet.. m i really gone-case.. haha.. basket.. still can laugh.... -.-"

well, today nt realli my day ar.. siao liao.. everything gone wrong.. firstly the results.. today both paper i got all 50s one.. damn it.. then gaming oso sian.. out of all the game i play today, onli one win.. damn again.. then jus now eating dinner.. almost choke to death.. damn once again.. haha.. how i choke..? damn stupid.. have u ever try breathing through ur mouth and eating at the same time.. idiots.. i did it.. the food went wrong pipe.. and i kena choke.. basket.. stupid hor.. then the way i stop myself from choking also damn funny.. cos i eating instant noodle.. ^^ i pull the noodle out leh.. haha.. stupid.. almost died i think.. lolx.. wad a joker..........

well, i got to say sorry to my frens.. recently i hav been rather vulgar wif all my flowery language.. haha.. well, i m still confused.. i think i hav solve my problem but then i realised wad i hav done is onli superficial.. the roots of the problem is nt yet removed.. so getting kinda confused over wad i shld do.. then cannot find the answer.. no solution.. mental block.. haix.. so sian.. taling bout it now makes mi blank again.. seems like dis is the end... end of post i mean..

"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

2007-06-26T22:18:00.000+08:00

^^ today is a gd day for mi cos i get to slp in.. lolx.. hmm.. actualli i din slp all the way either.. i keep wanting to wake up and play computer.. but then i keep goin back to slp.. so i was like 7 wake up once, 8 another time, 8.30 another time, 9 another time, then 10 finally wake up.. haha.. stupid hor.. kinda shows i actualli hav some weak willpower.. haha.. or tat i realli like my bolster a lot and i cant bear to part wif it..^^ hmm.. ya lor.. so from now onwards, my tuesday IS will b in the afternoon.. so sian.. means no more clubhousing..

talking bout IS.. my IS is now Basic Flash Application.. kinda stupid.. lolx.. well u see, today we were supposed to do an assignment tat will b graded.. then the lecturer wanted to teach us step-by-step.. let's see.. it was a 6 or 7 step thing.. before he got to the 3rd point, i already complete my assignment liao.. haix.. then i ask him finish liao can leave? he tell mi to wait a while more.. cos he got something more to say.. so i wait and wait and wait.. then he neva say anything lor.. haix.. 4pm supposed to end lesson but in the end 4.30 then he let us go.. damn it.. lolx.. but then ok la.. his lesson oso quite enjoyable.. he likes to self-entertain.. always laughing at some things we dun noe wad he laughing at.. oh ya.. dis time, there were no one i knew in the class.. so i get to sit one corner and act quiet.. haha.. today quite successful.. whole lesson seriously no words.. cool man.. i din noe i could do it.. but i was playing in the lesson la.. tat may b y oso.. haha..

eh.. i guess i nth to say liao leh.. wad can i say?? hmm.. wad shld i say?? hmm.. wad would i say?? lolx.. siao liao.. i m asking myself stupid questions.. lolx.. and btw, the song tat is playing now is call 'Ice Box' by Omarion.. a lot of ppl hav been asking mi.. the lyrics are below jus in case u wondering wad the hell is he singing..^^ till nxt time!!

Verse1:
Fussin and fightin we back at it again, I know that its my fault you dont understand(no),
I got memories, this is crazy, you aint nothin like the girl I use to know
Good wit ma, good wit pa, cool wit all my niggas,I should try to decide do i wanna let you in but
Damn these memories,and its crazy,you aint nothin like the girl I use to know(ohh)

Chorus:
Girl I really wanna work this out cause im tired of fightin,
And really hope you still want me the way that I want you,
I said I really wanna work this out damn girl im tryin its no excuse no excuse
But I got this ice box where my heart use be,But I got this ice box where my heart use to be(nnnooo)
Im so cold, im so cold, im so cold, im so cold,(nnnooo), im so cold, im so cold, im so cold,
But I got this ice box where my heart use to be,said I got this ice box where my heart use to be,(nnnooo)
Im so cold, im so cold,im so cold(nnnooo),im so cold,im so cold,im so cold

Verse2:
Why cant I get it right just cant let it go,
I open up she let me down I wont feel that no more(NO)
I got memories, this is crazy she aint nothin like the girl I use
Dont mean to take it out on you baby put I cant help it
Cause my heart is in the same old condition that baby left it
(And I)I apoligize,fa makin you cry,look me in my eyes and promise you wont do me the same

Chorus:
Girl I really wanna work this out cause im tired of fightin
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out damn girl im tryin its no excuse no excuse
I got this ice box where my heart use to be,said I got this ice box where my heart use to be,(nnnooo)
(said I got it) nnnooo, Im so cold, im so cold,im so cold,im so cold,(nnnooo), im so cold im so cold,im so cold
I got this ice box where my heart use to be,I said I got this ice box where my heart use to be,(nnnooo)
im so cold,im so cold,im so cold,(nnnooo), im so cold, im so cold, im so cold

Bridge:(Timberland)
I dont wanna be stuck off in this cold cold world
Dont wanna mess this up betta keep ya eye on me girl
Dont wanna mess this up betta keep ya eye on me girl
(Omarion)
I dont wanna be stuck off in this cold cold world
Dont wanna mess this up betta keep ya eye on me girl
Dont wanna mess this up betta keep ya eye on me girl

Chorus:
Girl I really wanna work this out cause im tired of fightin
And I really hope you still want me the way I want you
I said I really wanna work this out damn girl im tryin its no excuse no excuse
I said I got this ice box where my heart use to be
I got this ice box where my heart use to be,(nnnooo)
Im so cold,im so cold,im so cold, im so cold(nnnooo)
Im so cold, im so cold, im so cold
Now I got this ice box where my heart use to be, I got this ice box where my heart use to be(nnnooo)
Im so cold, im so cold, im so cold,im so cold(nnnooo)
Im so cold, im so cold, im so cold
Girl I really wanna work this out cause im tired of fightin

-lyrics from 'Ice Box' by Omarion

2007-06-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

first day of sch!! sian.. kena bluff.. got practical i tot no practical.. so i bluff myself.. lolx.. sian sian sian.. i was still thinking of starting the sch term wif a 1 hr day.. haha.. and to add to more sian-ness, tmr i m goin to start afternoon IS classes.. Basic Flash.. damn it.. now i regret being slacker.. hu ask mi to go in 15 minutes late when choosing IS tat time.. basket.. hmm.. but neva mind.. being sian is my a major part of my life.. if i dun feel sian, i think i m nt call hanbin.. haha.. even when doin things i like, its always hard to start.. haha.. but after i get started, i will enjoy it.. :P so tmr i m goin to get into class and act guai kia again.. my act in MANMAC was a failure cos bjorn was there.. cannot bluff him.. and i stupidly turned up late for majority of lessons.. haha.. so un-guai.. haha..

well, today was nt a one hr day but it was still short.. 8 to 11am.. ok la.. got one hr maths then 2 hrs practical.. haix.. the lab technician is up to something funny again.. lolx.. he give answers tat dun answer the questions.. haix.. haha.. but wadeva.. since he give answer, i jus copy lor.. anyway he is goin to mark ma.. then he see his answer he will put rite also.. haha.. nt tat the teacher is blur or dun noe anything.. its jus tat he do too much.. haha.. overfeed us.. haha.. then we become too fat.. haha.. basket.. lame guy talking.. i guess i m tired today.. cannot think properly.. haha.. hmm.. then after tat, i went to the clubhse to rot again.. sort of like my routine ba.. i dun noe y but i feel kinda suffocated to b at home.. sian.. at clubhse watch shooter wif jia hao and liheng.. then after the show, they left and farand came.. din realli talk much wif him.. haha.. he busy.. so i play game lor.. then shortly after junwei came, then derrick, then ian.. haha.. then after tat ian saw mi playing game then he suggested playing cs.. 4 of us.. haha.. so we play lor.. in the end keep playing and playing, keep saying last round.. haha.. then go on and on until time realli permits no more last round.. haha.. 7 plus liao.. lolx.. so we played for like 2 hrs.. haha.. after went home, took 184.. then met some of ian's fren.. and omg.. he got funny frens.. lolx.. bunch of jokers with atrocious chinese.. haha.. but entertainment value high.. lolx.. and tat abt end my day.. haha..

well, hav u ever used the tone used by the speaker at the end of the phone line to guess wad the person is feeling..? lolx.. well, i hav.. today i called someone.. then when the person picked up, i got a cheerful 'hello', but when the speaker found out hu i m, i noticed a distinct drop in tone.. sounded more dead.. like sian its mi like dis.. haix.. mayb i m losing my mum too.. lolx.. could there realli b something wrong wif mi?? damn it.. i m bad at relationships.. lolx.. or mayb i m jus over-reacting.. hope its the latter..

recently i think i m getting better at acting.. wad's up wif acting nonchalant bout stuffs..? i feel like a fool sia.. but then again, mayb i M a fool.. wad do i nid? wad do i wan? i seem to hav forgot.. damn it.. i m losing myself.. lolx.. cool rites.. yes.. i m lost.. help anyone??

"Death? Why this fuss about death. Use your imagination, try to visualize a world without death! ... Death is the essential condition of life, not an evil." - Charlotte Perkins Gilman

2007-06-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

yipps.. back from an overnight stay at east coast.. OB outing.. haha.. one night of cycling.. ride until butt pain.. haha.. well, in the first place, i was nt supposed to stay overnight one.. i din inform my parents.. then i neva take my phone wif mi when i was at east coast oso.. so i got a lot of missed calls.. haha.. first time my mum got call mi when i stay out late.. or rather nt the first time la.. one of the rare moments.... haha.. ya lor.. so i jus stayed over like tat.. nt my first time either.. so stay over liao then go bike lor.. haha.. keep biking cos nth to do.. the bbq is damn far away from the shops la.. its like 30 minutes cycling?? lolx.. so everytime we wan to buy something, we hav to cycle damn far.. transporting the bike to the place is already a huge prob lor.. and i got into an accident transporting the bike.. i think cos got quite some time b4 since i had transport bikes while riding.. so practically, i cycle on one bike and then hold another one wif one hand.. starting feel ok but when my hands got tired, i start to screw myself up real bad.. lolx.. first accident more serious.. the front wheel of the bike i was holding on to hit the front wheel of the bike i was cycling on.. so practically, the bike stopped immediately, like apply e-brake like dis.. lolx.. so i practically flew in front.. got some minor scratches.. other then tat quite fine.. second time, the handlebar of the second bike hit my leg.. so my bike went out of control.. but thankfully i managed to abandon bike b4 it actualli crashes.. so i managed to land standing up.. but i spoilt my slippers in the process.. haha.. sian lor.. but neva mind.. every accident is a lesson learnt.. then after tat got used to the pace liao then quite smooth liao.. but joe, hu witnessed both accidents, refused to believe i can do it.. -.- but i understand out of concern la.. so yup.. thx joe!! haha.. so after the 2 accidents, the rest of the night is very peaceful liao.. found out that my stamina level has dropped quite significantly.. hmm.. nid to do something bout it.. come to think bout it, i dun think dis is the first time i m saying dis.. haha.. then dis morning when everyone gathered, i had a little crapping session wif some of the members.. lolx.. fatigue can realli make a person 'think out of the box'.. haha.. in fact, by the time we finish our discussion, the box is in shreds already.. lolx.. then shortly after tat, 'break camp' liao.. haha.. tonight was supposed to b overnight training recee.. haha.. but i received several feedback to nt do it tonight la.. so i decided to postpone it.. haha.. so now i m here crapping in dis post.. ^^

i shld hav used dis quote for the previous post.. lolx.. quite apt.. but onli found it now.. here it is:

"He who permits himself to tell a lie once, finds it much easier to do it a second and third time, till at length it becomes habitual. - Thomas Jefferson

2007-06-21T23:45:00.000+08:00

*woots* today i was giving a topic to ponder upon by my one of my frens.. TRUTH.. wad is truth?? well, according to wikipedia which says, according to most common dictionaries. truth is an agreement wif fact or reality.. doesn't realli help, does it?? but then again, there is no nid for a definition of truth.. everyone noes wad is truth.. it's something nt everyone likes to listen to except when one noes tat he or she has realli done a gd job.. but then again, whether an individual has done something gd or bad differs wif each opinion.. lolx.. so chim rites??

actualli i oso dun noe wad to say bout truth la.. u see, i m a liar also.. haha.. i lie to everyone including myself.. seasoned liar.. haha.. so i m in no position to talk bout the truth.. well, frens out there hu think that u noe mi vey well, think again.. haha.. if having a dark secret is akin to keeping a skeleton in the closet, then i mus hav the most extensive collection of bodies.. haha.. sounds like a lie?? haha.. dun mind if u think tat way.. in fact, on some days, i wake up and look in the mirror and ask myself hu m i?? damn it.. i noe it sounds extreme for a 18-yr-old to b thinking dis way.. haha.. but seriously, i hate my very own existence.. there r a lot of things i hav to hide within myself.. things nt meant to b shared even wif my own family.. but dun worry.. these things i hide will nt affect any other living things beside mi.. all these things will b my downfall.. they r like timebombs in my head.. a tiny one exploded b4 and i had experienced the consequences le.. its nt something to b proud of and definitely nt something i think i like to happen again.. haha..

with regards to affairs of the heart, i m still pretty much confused now.. or shld i say i m much more confused than b4.. looking at myself these few days, i realised something pretty much true.. how m i to take care of another person when i dun think i even hav the capabilites to take care of myself?? hmm.. i m seriously at a very very bad shape.. my self-esteem is once again in the reds.. i look at myself and i sigh.. but on the other hand, i noe i m selfish.. i wan her to b beside mi.. i wan her to b part of my life and mi to b in hers.. haix.. i nid a sign.. lolx.......................

"The torment of human frustration, whatever its immediate cause, is the knowledge that the self is in prison, its vital force and "mangled mind" leaking away in lonely, wasteful self-conflict." - Elizabeth Drew

2007-06-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

howdy!! lolx.. interesting greeting.. today i woke up to a very bad start.. feverish, shoulder aching from all the carrying at the race.. sian.. practically jus dun feel very gd la..but thankfully the feeling is gone now.. water realli helps i think.. drink and drink and drink.. go toilet a few times more oso.. haha.. but then again.. my skin is peeling.. possibly from sunburns.. lolx.. so looks like i m very dry even after all the H2O intake.. haix.. well, gotta live wif it.. mi, wif sensitive skin, suffers more when exposed to the same amt of light as compared to normal ppl.. lolx.. but then again, i m nt about to give up the sun becos of it.. ^^ another thing tat is special about mi is my body temperature.. i hav a higher body temperature then normal ppl.. i din say it.. my doc did.. and its probably one of the cause for my sensitive skin.. cool rites.. and when i m feeling cold myself, my body is actualli radiating more heat away from mi.. tested and proven by my many frens.. lolx.. so nxt time hu eva is feeling cold, come to mi.. i may b able to help.. ^^

well, today i woke up quite early.. dun noe why either.. but the time i left my bed is still 11 plus.. cos i couldn't move, aching.. so i woke up at 10 and left my bed at 11.. haha.. dun noe y i cant go back to slp either.. mus b all the uncomfortable feeling ba.. so i jus lie there and rot.. eh.. come to think bout it, i did leave mi bed once.. to go to the toilet.. then i went back hoping to go back to slp but failed.. so i ended up thinking bout a lot of things in bed.. lolx.. nt a gd idea to get emo early in the morning i tell u.. lolx.. but thankfully the emo part din last.. so i finally left my bed and wash up.. had breakfast.. then chiong the com.. played dota again.. cos the onli game on my desktop now is dota.. my bro reformatted the com.. so i can onli play dota.. and so becos i nid to satisfy my blood lust.. haha.. i nid to kill someone.. :P joking.. but realli, when u get to own in dota, it is very satisfying.. ^^ then i skipped lunch today.. becos play too much.. haha.. played all the way till dinner.. din realised the time until my mummy tell mi to stop.. lolx.. so i stop lor.. then had dinner.. then had a little talk wif mi bro.. haha.. full of nonsense one.. practically talked bout everything, the latest songs, latest news, etc etc.. until campus superstar on.. then we go watch.. cos my fren inside.. F2 elaine.. pls support.. haha.. but i hav faith in her.. got the highest score among the female contestant for 2 weeks liao.. haha.. :P then after the show, kelvin dealt mi a hard blow.. lolx.. he told mi dis sat recee overnight training.. wa lau.. more work.. lolx.. i had totally forgotten bout it la.. haha.. so ya.. from tonight onwards, i hav to get to work liao.. haven even start plotting route la.. haha.. gg la hanbin..

well, these few days, my tots r very limited.. cos of tiredness.. number 1 is her.. number 2 is 'my' car.. well, in both cases, i can onli dream on.. haha.. wif her, i dun even noe how i shld take my nxt step.. wif the car, i hav to worry bout getting my license first(mi colorblind*).. can these dreams b realised?? the future is still a huge question mark for mi...............

I'm just a normal boy
That sank when I fell overboard
My ship would leave the country
But I'd rather swim ashore

Without a life vest I'd be stuck again
Wish I was much more masculine
Maybe then I could learn to swim
Like 'fourteen miles away'

Now floating up and down
I spin, colliding into sound
Like whales beneath me diving down
I'm sinking to the bottom of my
Everything that freaks me out
The lighthouse beam has just run out
I'm cold as cold as cold can be
be

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down

Where is the coastguard
I keep looking each direction
For a spotlight, give me something
I need something for protection
Maybe flotsam junk will do just fine
the jetsam sunk, I'm left behind
I'm treading for my life believe me
(How can I keep up this breathing)

Not knowing how to think
I scream aloud, begin to sink
My legs and arms are broken down
With envy for the solid ground
I'm reaching for the life within me
How can one man stop his ending
I thought of just your face
Relaxed, and floated into space

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion... yeah
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Now waking to the sun
I calculate what I had done
Like jumping from the bow (yeah)
Just to prove that I knew how (yeah)
It's midnight's late reminder of
The loss of her, the one I love
My will to quickly end it all
Set front row in my need to fall

Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
Into the ocean, end it all
into the ocean...end it all

[Zayra]
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

I want to swim away but don't know how
Sometimes it feels just like I'm falling in the ocean
Let the waves up take me down
Let the hurricane set in motion (yeah)
Let the rain of what I feel right now...come down
Let the rain come down
Let the rain come down

Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(In to space)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
(I thought of just your face)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)
Into the ocean (goodbye) end it all (goodbye)

-lyrics from "Into the Ocean" by Blue October

2007-06-18T00:00:00.000+08:00

firstly, i hav to say sorry for nt replying tag for the past few days.. i had no time to do so.. the last tag to mi was like 4 days b4(wif exception to miss lua's one)?? well, let mi explain and redeem myself.. yesterday night, i was very very tired and slpt at the computer table while typing dis posts.. night b4, i was helping out at singapore adventure race, doin logistic stuffs which is a dusk-to-dawn matter.. the night b4 b4, i had to slp early cos i had the mind to do compensation for loss slp for yesterday's night.. so i forced myself to go to slp.. but in the end listen to radio until 2am.. zzz.. then the night b4 b4 b4, which is the night b4 compensation night, i was too engrossed in my games to notice the times.. thus, i overshot my time and by the time i was tired, it was already 2plus morning liao.. so i couldn't reply.. well, i m sry bout nt replying..

lolx.. actualli dis post is actuali meant for ytd.. but halfway while typing, i ended up slping at the computer desk.. i was actualli goin to tell u all bout the adventure race thingy and wad we did but if u realli wan to noe more, u can msg mi la.. lolx.. IM or email or sms all also can la.. haha.. wenting's blog got things bout the race i think, mayb u all can jus go over and read.. lolx.. call mi lazy ba.. haha.. well, overall, i had fun but it was tiring.. haha.. no slp, lotsa work.. wahaha.. but then again, my health is being affected quite badly, mainly my skin.. i think i hav to lock myself in for a week or so.. sunburn + allergy = jia lat.. lolx..

well, today i din do anything much except slp.. still suffering from the negative repercussions of the overnight labor thingy.. lolx.. but i m still feeling tired.. still nid to slp.. haha.. slping soon......

"Where love rules, there is no will to power; and where power predominates, there love is lacking. The one is the shadow of the other." - Carl Jung

2007-06-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

hi guys.. and gals.. how's everyone doin now?? holidays fun?? lolx.. it's onli the second day of holiday and i cant take it anymore.. haha.. getting quite sian liaos.. haha.. but neva mind.. i shall survive.. well, lets go on to wad i did today..

hmm.. basically, today i woke up to a great afternoon.. goin to rain.. sky's overcast and looks like dawn.. lolx.. so had a little lying effect.. i kept waking up and goin to slp again cos its so nice to slp at a time like dis.. but when it realli started to rain, i wake up liao.. haha.. cos very noisy liao and i decided i had enuf of slp liao.. haha.. so went to wash up and bathe.. then went to prepare breakfast tat time found out mum's nt cooking today.. then i also lazy to go out buy so i jus ate maggi mee.. actualli oso quite some time neva eat maggi liao.. so ok lor.. well, i still prepared breakfast to eat anyway.. i like to eat bread wif chocolate spread and butter.. haha.. but cannot drink milo liao.. getting heaty.. skin's goin bad.. or rather, is bad already.. wahaha.. monster skin.. :P then after tat slack a bit, watch little KC on kid's central.. the shows nt bad la.. haha.. mayb cos i childish?? but wadeva.. then see my bro play dota a while.. then went to eat lunch.. well, actualli, to put it more accurately, i eat double servings of lunch.. breakfast and lunch join.. after 'second' lunch, slack again.. read newspaper.. then went to play a game of dota.. haha.. game ended at ard 3.30.. so i went to slp cos mi bro wans to play.. ask him to wake mi up at 4.15.. but the pig wake mi up at 4.30.. too engrossed in the game.. lolx.. cos mi to b late.. supposed to b meeting kk and grace at 5, end up 5.15.. haha.. well, we meet to go help out for an adventure race.. today is onli one of the preparation days.. the real deal is on saturday dis week.. our meeting place for 5 of us(eunice, yuheng, kk, grace and mi) is kallang.. but i meeting the couple at cck first.. couple again.. at first i dun noe onli got 2 of them la.. if i knew i wont meet up wif them.. haha.. went to national stadium.. help to sort out the bicycles.. a part of the race requires the bike and the racers were to deposit their bike either today or thursday.. so all the while arranging the bikes.. makes mi think of my own bike.. haha.. no more now.. today's major spending on transport.. train ride bus ride ard 5 bucks?? at first got 7 plus bucks.. now onli got 1.80.. haha.. stupid adult fare..

hmm.. actualli hor, i hav run out of ideas of wad to blog about leh.. hmm.. suggestions?? cos if i were to blog onli bout wad i do everyday, u all reading one also will sian rites?? at least i received one feedback stating so liao.. wad bout the rest?? or do u all jus come tag mi without reading mi posts?? lolx.. either way, i see a drop in numbers in ppl coming here.. wonder y?? but nvm la.. if possible, jus let it fade into memory.. mayb one day i myself will forget i hav a blog.. i m a random guy.. haha.................

"The secret source of humour itself is not joy, but sorrow. There is no humour in heaven." - Mark Twain

2007-06-11T22:33:00.000+08:00

*woots* today was gaming day for mi.. haha.. bro's out to sentosa, sis gone to camp.. wahaha.. dota whole day.. time passes especially fast when u r doin something u enjoy.. onli play like 4 or 5 games, nt including those wif stupid leavers and we had to do rm-s.. lolx.. well, today's game score: 4 wins 1 lose.. cool.. let's see.. lose the round i was using slithereen guard.. actualli was winning.. but damn one of my teammates hu keep on farming neutral and din help push.. so in the end they pushed into our base and got mega.. then the stupid guy turned ard and blame us.. damn him.. but nvm.. got used to jerks on b-net..

shall nt keep talking bout dota la.. ppl hu dun play will sian one.. haha.. hmm.. so wad else happen to mi today?? let's see.. other than gaming at the com, i also used it to look for my dream car.. as in realli in dream.. lolx.. Nissan Skyline GT-R proto.. cool car.. love it.. totally different look from the previous Skylines.. haha.. the new car looks more futuristic and more aggressive from the front.. however, specs of the new car has nt been released yet.. but expect something better than the previous Skyline.. i din say it.. Nissan did.. ppl hav already named the car R35 although Nissan haven officially used the name yet.. however.. judging from the bodykit, i assume tat the new Skyline's exterior will b more difficult to mod as it looks like it comes from a science fiction comic.. how do u modify a spaceship?? furthermore, i looked through some websites and found people using software to create blueprints for modifications.. and until now, i haven found one design that realli catches the eye.. so for ppl hu wans a car truely called urs, the new Skyline is nt something to wan.. but for lazy ppl, the new model is jus for u.. haha..

i jus realised nt everyone is interested in cars.. so lets move on.. wad else did i do?? well, for one, i din feel emo today.. mayb cos it's the first day of holiday and the virus decides to give mi a break.. or perhaps i m already too tired of these things to feel emo.. haha.. in a way, nth seems to go well for mi.. or rather nth has ever gone well for mi.. wahaha.. so i think i m kinda getting used to these stuffs.. well, lets see how well i wil hold up when the holiday mood realli hit mi.. the time when all u do at home is sit looking out of the window or jus lie down on the bed looking at the ceiling then falling asleep.. i realised tat it's much easier to fall asleep in the day than at night.. well, i guess cos i m nocturnal?? lolx.. hmm.. eh.. wad else do i hav to say?? lets see.. erm.. erm.. oh ya.. i still hav a dream though.. of having my very own car and driving it down the road, testing its capabilities.. everyday i dream of driving to sch, to work, to outings.. haha.. goin crazy.. but of cos, tat's nt the onli thing i m dreaming of.. but this is the most likely to happen one.. haha.. i m a dreamer as well..............

"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable." - Sydney J. Harris

2007-06-09T23:52:00.000+08:00

^^ common test is finally over.. yes!! time to enjoy.. actualli, i shldn't put it tat way cos i m actualli playing everyday.. lolx.. well, sian sian sian.. playing everyday liao then now holiday liao even worst.. at least sch day got go out to go sch.. lolx.. well, i think i can jus slp whole day.. lolx.. my life getting meaningless sia.. everyday same routine.. sometimes i wonder if its realli a gd idea to b a gd boi..? lolx.. sia la.. nono.. cannot think dis way... i wan to b a gd boi..^^

*SPOILERS ALERT*
ytd got comm outing.. but nt everyone there.. onli got eunice daren farand rachel mirza yuheng jia jun and mi.. actualli i could hav jus say:" everyone except kelvin christina wenting and dongyang went".. haha.. but i wan to write more so that the post looks longer..-.-'' watch movie then go eat.. watched Zodiac.. i dun think ppl got hear bout dis movie b4 leh.. haha.. no form of publicity or wad-so-eva.. we came across it while we were looking at movie timings.. we look and saw "crime/thriller" so we went ahead.. lolx.. its NC16 btw.. i guess that's the reason y publicity is low.. age restricted shows often get less publicity.. the whole show is about a killer hu goes ard killing ppl without a purpose and calls himself Zodiac.. then he challenges the authorities by sending letters to them and the newspapers and asks the newspaper to publish wadeva he sends them or he will go on a killing spree again.. then the whole story tells of how the police and a cartoonist try and solve the case.. the show is interesting and thrilling at the beginning but gets kinda draggy towards the end.. and the ending is realli anti-climax.. lolx.. then after movie went to eat kfc.. then went home.. well, the outing turned out to b quite a rewarding one as i see my job ending soon.. wad job u might ask but i m nt goin to tell... when the time comes, u will noe.. haha.. actualli wanted to blog ytd one la.. but i think i too tired liao.. i wanted to lie down a while but end up slping on the sofa.. haha..

i miss basketballing.. ppl pls jio mi out to play bball.. lolx.. realli long haven play liao.. like 3 mths?? or more?? haha.. i dun like to ask becos i scared i disturb u ppl.. so if if anyone realli free and wans to play bball, pls dun forget mi.. will b waiting.. ^^

"The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle." - Anais Nin

2007-06-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

another day another post.. recently, i found something more powerful than the slping pills i hav been taking.. something tat can bring mi to lala-land faster than any dose of slping pills.. i think most of u shld noe wad it is.. its' the book.. lolx.. lame i noe.. but its true.. haix.. today wanted to study.. but in the end become slping session.. i fell aslp three times leh.. wa lao.. sian lor.. tmr got paper.. EM3B and CADCAM.. both killers.. haha.. both i had totally been dreaming in lectures and playing a fool in tutorials.. wahaha.. is dis how i m goin to start my CT papers...? wad a disappointing start.. marine engineering is even worse.. the teacher neva upload anything on Mel.. no extra notes or wadeva.. OMFG!!! haha.. but wad's the use of panicking last minute?? i guess all i can do now is pray.. lolx.. but then i m still trying hard to study now.. hopefully to cram some nonsense into my brain at dis critical point.. so ppl hu are reading dis post here, pls pray for mi too.. or better, tmr if i happen to sit beside u in the exam hall, let mi see ur answers.. haha.. lucky i still hav something i m confident of.. 10TH and MISAF.. jus in case u r wondering wad is tat, ask mi and u will noe.. haha.. hmm.. shld i b feeling nervous now??

wad m i thinking of?? recently, all tat's on my mind is her.. hard to study.. she's taking up all the ram in my brain.. haix.. i wan to stop it but the more my resolve to stop, the more she appears.. somehow, it seems more difficult to let go.. somehow i feel a sense of injustice.. some form of feeling tat will take the form of a malicious spirit if it materialises.. i noe dis is goin to put mi under the list of dangerous ppl.. but dun worry, i m in control of dis thing.. my angel and devil inside are equal in strength and u wont get the scene when the devil kicks the angel away and ask mi to do things.. it neva will happen.. ppl with half conscience hav logic and pain governing their tots.. haha.. acting too goody-two-shoes and logic takes over.. commiting heinous crimes and pain takes over.. either way, its a gd thing.. at least i wont b acting like a nerd or a A-listed criminal.. back to thinking bout her... haix.. nid to get something done.. got lots of things i nid to get off my chest.. ^^

"Aerodynamically the bumblebee shouldn't be able to fly, but the bumblebee doesn't know that so it goes on flying anyway." - Mary Kay Ash

2007-06-03T22:39:00.000+08:00

cool.. still alive and goin strong.. haha.. well, as usual, physically onli.. mentally i m stretched.. haha.. how did i allow all these things to happen at the same time sia.. haix.. all thanks to my stupidity.. IDIOT!!! feel so helpless.. all these things are affecting my mood to do things.. the previous sentence sounds funny but wadeva.. haha..

recently cupid is on killing spree in ob.. 3 couples, third one in the making.. haha.. i wonder will there be a dominating, mega kill, unstoppable, wicked sick, monster kill, godlike or holy shit.. haha.. sry too much dota.. but yes.. i m seriously bout the killng spree thing.. and i m proud to say i m involved, directly or indirectly, in the pairing sessions.. haha.. so singles out there, u can come to mi for help.. wahaha..

hmm.. life's getting boring.. hoping for something interesting to happen.. ppl all studying.. sian.. poly one is no choice.. CT coming.. but jc one all really study freaks.. haha.. whole year hear them study one.. but cannot blame them la.. their 2 yrs realli very impt.. there's nth u can do wif a 'A' lvl cert.. hard to get ppl to come out and play.. hmm.. everyone is asking mi to study.. i did try to study EM3B.. but i fell asleep.. haha.. today's my first day of studying and it's nt goin very well.. haha.. hopefully my lady luck will b smiling at mi again.. been depending a lot on her.. k then.. one more thing.. i m running pretty low on meaningful quotes.. and if i had repeat quotes, pls tell mi hor.. if u think i hav, also tell mi.. then i can go check and change accordingly.. haha..

"How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?" - Albert Einstein

2007-06-02T22:20:00.000+08:00

erm.. how do i start?? long time no blog liao.. well, it's nt tat i dun hav the time to but rather i dun feel like.. dun noe wad to write oso.. some news got to my head.. haha..

lets start wif ytd.. i almost killed myself ytd.. haha.. stunt went wrong.. ppl hu noe mi shld noe i like to do jumping stunt.. so ytd i jump from outside clubhse there to the badminton court one floor below.. normally i would hold on to the railings then slowly let myself down.. ytd i tried to b hero.. i neva hold on to anything and jus jump.. idiot rites?? then stupidly, when i land, i neva concentrate properly.. so i slipped and landed on my side.. kinda like fall down like dis.. for a few seconds, i was totally stunned.. the rest of the ppl ard mi neva notice tat i fall down liao.. haha.. so i jus lie down there and try to recover.. fortunately all tat happened was shock i think.. i recover quite quickly.. haha.. but then my left side of the body was in pain; my legs and my hands.. had some difficulty walking and standing straight.. haha.. so i jus lie down again lor.. then midori called and ask mi to collect kayaking form from her.. haha.. so 'sway'.. so had to walk lor.. although pain but still ok la.. i think hor, all my bones in my body mus hav cracks appearing liao.. all the accidents i had but neva die from it one.. haha.. hmm.. i m jus plain lucky....... another thing tat happened is i did nt go home for the night again.. went to rachel hse stayover.. :P her parents r nt in town and she alone at home.. haha.. then i think she dun wan to b lonely.. so ask mi go over.. WRONG!! actualli is i wan to go one la.. she neva realli ask mi to go over.. :P then i oso invite myself to stay over.. hahaha.. we talk a lot.. haha.. so basically i noe more bouther and i think she shld noe more bout mi la.. hopefully.....

today nt much happen.. jus tat i wake up very late.. haha.. which is quite normal actualli.. but then again, in someone else' home.. rare again.. haha.. contradicting statements.. haha.. then go eat lunch wif rachel(i hav been skipping breakfast for as long as i can rmb liao).. eat and talk at the same time.. hee..

well well, nth much to say.. funny thing is i can help ppl but i cant help myself.. good job la, hanbin.. haha..

"Feelings are not supposed to be logical. Dangerous is the man who has rationalized his emotions. - David Borenstein

2007-05-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

time passes quickly.. soon, term 1 will b over.. haha.. and sooner than i could expect, the year will b over.. haix.. i realli hope time will nt pass so quickly.. dis term , i hav already gotten low attendance notifications for CAD/CAM applications and Marine Industrial Safety modules liao.. wonder wad's for nxt term.. which module shall i skip?? lolx.. actualli i think i shld hav more than 2.. i think the other lecturers jus dun realli care bout attendance.. haha..

studies wise, i think i can still make it wif the exception of engineering maths.. lolx.. hmm.. dun noe how to save myself.. it's jus like a-maths la.. open book haven read already sian.. thermodynamics i jus hav to look out for careless mistakes.. marine engineering mus memorise equation then shld b save.. cad/cam and marine safety mus read slides.. i miss all the practical modules.. manufacturing technology, compro, autocad and engineering drawing, all so easy to pass.. haix.. lolx.. and sure to ace one.. hmm.. i keep saying i shld do this and tat but i think i will slack.. haha.. study!!!!!!!

switch to psychological welfare.. my physical sickness hav been healed.. wad's hurting is the things inside the grey matter at the top of my physique.. well, to b more precise, it's more of confused than hurt.. to love does not mean to possess?? love is selfish?? to love her means making sure she is happy?? ok let's start.. i like her but she doesn't want mi.. however, in the very bottom of my heart, i wish for her to be mine.. but if she is mine, she wont b happi? hee.. jus one scenerio.. impt one.. no point saying the others if i cannot come to terms wif this one.. heard a lot of things tat adds to the misery.. wahaha.. siao liao la..^^

"It is very hard to say the exact truth, even about your own immediate feelings – much harder than to say something fine about them which is not the exact truth." - George Eliot

2007-05-28T08:45:00.000+08:00

i wonder wad is the impression of mi in other ppl's eyes?? lolx..

will i b rmbed for something gd or something bad??

cos mi myself can onli rmb all the bad things i hav done and said..

they dun go away.. they become ur shadow.. and no matter how hard u try, they wont go away.. unless u intend to live ur life in the darkforever..

hmm.. i hav nt done any heinous crime and will neva.. but all the little sins tat i had done had accumulated and i m feeling the pressure built up.. some ppl thinks i m talking nonsense.. i m jus bragging.. how can u do so much bad things and nt get caught?? is it realli so easy to escape punishment?? but i hav to tell u guys something.. there r a lot other form of punishment tat can b met out to a person.. something more powerful than law.. and there is no running away from it.. i m in the midst of all these.. and no, i m nt religious.. it jus happens.. heard of the phrase 'conscience eaten by dog(chinese phrase)'?? it's gd if its all gone.. but wad if the dog leaves it half-eaten?? the pain at the wound.. and it doesn't heal.. no.. wad's left is wad u will get.. pain and all.. i m afraid of wad i had done.. of cos i hav gd frens of mine coming to mi telling mi it's all in the past.. is it excuse??

most imptly, no matter how bright the light at the end of the tunnel shines, the shadow will always be behind u.. silently following until the time when it can surround u.. the time in the dark............

2007-05-28T00:02:00.000+08:00

eh.. haha.. long time no post.. well, recently hav been pretty tired and lazy.. all affected by the things i had done in the week.. haha.. a bit of sickness here and there.. headaches coming more frequently.. eyebag getting heavier.. which brings mi to the things i hav set for myself, my resolutions.. haha.. hmm.. here it goes..

1. i will sleep earlier - which means to say i may nt blog as often as b4 liao.. and if anyone see mi online after 12, pls kindly remind mi i hav my resolutions to follow.. i think my willpower is still nt powerful enuf.. and oso provided i m nt doin anything impt..
2. i mus start to save money - recently, the way i m filling up my piggybank is like filling a cup, wif holes, wif water.. big holes to b exact..
3. actualli i haven think of no. 3 yet.. lolx.. soon i think......

yup, shld b about all.. haha.. i think the list WILL get longer.. haha..

well, tension pretty high in family again.. i neva seem to b able to see eye to eye wif my dad.. damn it.. i dun wan to think bout it.. jus thinking is making mi mad again..*end of family issue*

well, a lot of conflict is happening ard and inside of mi.. lets talk bout ard mi first.. recently, 2 frens of mine, which i m nt goin to name is fast becoming from frens to enemies.. all becos of a gal.. their tolerance of each other is getting lower and lower.. recently, a fight almost occured becos of 1 comment.. hey guys, is it realli worth sacrificing 4 and a half years of friendship over a gal.. pls understand wad's meant to b will b.. so does it means tat all the weal and woe we hav shared for the last few yrs were all jus all for show?? if it can happen to one person in the grp, does it mean tat either of u dun take the rest of the grp seriously as well?? haix.. i wonder how one gal can jus break all the bonds we had built.. it's ok to fight for a gal.. but nt fight over a gal.. do you see the difference?? i m very disappointed.. now i m uncertain if i can call the both of u brothers..

internal conflict is all bout love again.. advance or nt?? given the circumstances i m in now, m i realli ready like i think i m?? well, actualli i dun think i can do it.. i m bad at relationships.. i m already failing at the most basic part of maintaining relationships; my family.. haix.. damn it.. damn it.. damn it.. well, self-confidence is once again at another lowest point.. i m wrong.. all wrong.. i think i m a mistake.. i like to doubt my existence.. haha..

"Love is more than just a feeling: it's a process requiring continual attention. Loving well takes laughter, loyalty, and wanting more to be able to say, "I understand" than to hear, "You're right." " - Molleen Matsumura

2007-05-22T23:50:00.000+08:00

wahaha.. hmm.. today did a bit of stunt.. today IS day.. lesson 8 to 12.. haha.. but mi very very clever.. i woke up at 8.45.. and it's because bjorn called mi.. haha.. i rmb i was like still so calm when i saw the clock.. interesting.. i actualli had the mind to jus skip lesson but then i tot tat my teammates may nid mi.. so i went anyway.. but when i reached, they had already finish the robot.. haha.. so jus went in and look look see see lor.. get participation marks.. hee.. today managed to complete project so nxt week no more IS.. cool.. one day no sch.. but i dun like to stay home either.. realised less contact means less friction.. our grp was the fastest team to complete the tasks assigned and to clear up.. lolx.. the teacher oso very gd la.. say wad housekeeping he will b very strict but in the end all shui2 bian4 one.. lolx..

after lesson went clubhse to slack.. tot i will b the onli person there but was surprised to see dongyang there.. he ended lesson early oso and was waiting for mirza to go gym.. so we talk talk a while while waiting for him to come.. and all of a sudden, the number of ppl in clubhse grew.. first was ben.. then rachel and her 2 escorts appeared.. the 2 = derrick and ian.. haha.. then we all jus talk and talk lor.. suddenly ian say wan play badminton.. then go play lor.. damn hot to play in jeans la.. sweating like mad in a matter of minutes.. haha.. then hafiz came along.. ian had to leave early for lesson so hafiz took over.. he played well even though he kept saying he nt gd.. wad a liar.. lolx.. joking.. then after tat play derrick came down oso.. so i let him play.. cannot make it liao.. sweating a lot liao.. then i went up to clubhse myself.. hav to cool down.. the sports hall no fan one.. pretty soon the other 2 guys came up oso.. shortly after tat, jia shan came.. so we had a little talk session.. lolx.. talk very long.. i din noe i can talk so much either.. then jia shan and ben had to leave.. so left mi, rachel, derrick and hafiz.. we went for very late lunch.. haha.. then after eating, the 2 yr 1s had to leave.. so left mi and rachel.. dongyang and mirza jus returned from their gym oso.. but as soon as we returned to clubhse, they had to leave.. lolx.. so left mi and rachel.. seems like everyone wans to go home except mi.. so me and rachel gossiped in the clubhse until she had to leave for lesson.. after she left, i jus stayed back in clubhse and slack a bit.. almost fell aslp there.. and thankfully i stayed behind cos shujuan and ian came to clubhse.. shujuan came to pay for her kayaking and macritchie hike.. ian i dun noe y there.. well, come to think bout it, the reason shld b pretty clear.. :P then went home liao lor.. thinking bout training stuff then.. my report oso halfway done.. haha..

btw, it's my mental sickness tat i m more worried bout.. physical one is minor.. haha.. relying heavily on slping pills to slp.. but i think nt effective enuf.. i think one day i may collapse due to fatigue for nt bein able to go to slp.. it's like i hav 2 different type of energy.. and when one is down, the other is recharging.. but currently because of the fact tat i m getting older, the system doesn't work as efficient liao.. haha.. so wish mi gd luck.......

"If you love something, set it free; if it comes backs it's yours, if it doesn't, it never was." - Richard Bach

2007-05-22T00:18:00.000+08:00

today is 8 to 9 day again.. cool rites?? and for those hu dun noe wad i m talking bout, it means that my lesson is from 8AM to 9AM.. 1 hr.. haha.. well, today maths lesson was kind of fruitful.. i managed to copy down 2 questions on permutation and combination.. can understand them a bit.. well, common test is right ard the corner.. jus 2 more weeks.. gotta buck up.. but nt today..^^ today after lesson, went to play laptop wif jia hao and liheng.. well, i suggested it since we haven been playing together for quite some time.. played CS and dota.. we owned in CS but got owned in dota..... lolx.. then after tat went gym.. by then , mental strain in the games hav already taken over mi and i dun feel like moving anymore.. so went there, did onli a bit free weights and cardio.. in the gym for 1 and a half hours.. lolx.. saw mirza 2 times today, once when i was playing game and then in the gym.. 3rd time was in clubhse.. lolx.. but tat one dun count.. we were intending to play badminton, jus mi and liheng, after gym one.. but realised got S&W.. haha.. so we went to eat first.. after tat came back hang ard a while and S&W ended.. so we went down to play.. play for 1 and a half hour also.. i found out tat i like to play badminton better over gym cos can sweat it out.. then after badminton went home..

i cant realli think well now.. under the influence of medication.. drowsiness.. so pardon mi.. sick liaos!!!

"To love a person doesn't necessary mean possession. Rather, it about being able to give him or her happiness, with or without you by the side"

2007-05-20T23:33:00.000+08:00

today is an uneventful day for mi.. come to think bout it, most of the days r uneventful days.. lolx.. today i woke up at 12nn, as per normal to non-schooling days.. it's kinda like default clock now.. monday to friday ard 6am, then the weekends 12nn.. haha..so pls dun msg mi early on weekends mornings and expect to reply unless u r my special one.. haha.. jking.. most of the time i will reply if i can hear my phone ring.. i shall say nth bout my activities for today as they r all mundane stuff.. lolx.. lets talk bout yesterday..

well, if u noticed, i din blog ytd.. and its nt becos i din wan to.. but for some reason, the idea of blogging totally vanished from my list of things to do.. so 1 minute i was thinking of wad to write later, then the nxt, i was navigating away from the page and neva returned.. haha.. ytd a lot of bad things happened to mi.. lets start from waking up.. some of u hu came to my hse b4 shld noe i slp on the floor(nvm if u dun), between my brother and sister bed.. so dis particular morning, i woke up as normal, opened my eyes, and tossed and turned a while.. but when i tried to sit up, i stupidly hit my head against the bottom of my sis' bed.. lolx.. damn it.. so unlucky.. and my streak starts from now.. then after which i wash up and ate lunch(i woke up at 12nn).. afternoon nth to do play game.. play dota.. and damn it.. 4 games all lose.. 3 game kena first blood.. wa lao eh.... damn sian liao lor.. so dun play liao.. then hungry.. so find things to eat.. saw cake in the fridge, neva cut one.. so i cut.. eat already happy.. go wash knife and the other utensils.. happily washing then kena cut.. nt once but twice.. but onli one drew blood.. damn it.. then after tat went to laze ard watch tv.. nth much happen.. most peaceful time of the day.. then had to go buy dinner.. haha.. walk walk walk walk disappear.. normal walking oso can fall down.. sian sian sian sian.. so unlucky.. then nvm.. buy already went home eat.. and the disposable utensils died on mi.. the chopstick broke.. o.O suay day man.. sian sian sian sian sian sian sian sian.. lolx..

back to today.. actualli i did do something special today.. i went to seletar reservoir wif my family.. went there and play 'jumping stones'.. haha.. well, basically it jus make the stone jump on the water surface.. average times were 2 jumps.. highest record now is 5 jumps.. so happy wif myself.. from 0 jumps to 5.. nt bad..^^ then saw this very funny scene.. a grp of ppl were releasing small fishes into the reservoir.. i think religious purpose cos i saw them praying first.. so there were on my left.. then on my right, there was dis family, both parents, 2 children and their maid, using nets trying to catch fishes.. so basically they cannot see each other cos the banks of the reservoir is a gradual 'n'-shaped arc.. and there were some small trees in the middle.. then when the fishes were released, they didn;t swim out into the reservoir.. instead, the fishes swam slong the banks.. so from left, the fishes swam to the right.. and the family of 5 saw it.. so they very happi.. keep catching and catching.. then they keep moving towards the grp of ppl releasing the fish.. lolx.. and finally the both grp of ppl met.. haha.. then the first grp of ppl explained to the family the purpose of the fishes and the family had to let the fishes go.. so sad.. :(

"Love is like a campfire: It may be sparked quickly, and at first the kindling throws out a lot of heat, but it burns out quickly. For long lasting, steady warmth, you must carefully tend the fire." - Molleen Matsumura

2007-05-19T01:14:00.000+08:00

woah.. today i impressed myself wif my working speed.. haha.. today's lecture was 9am.. lazy mi, although yesterday slp damn early, still had problems waking up.. 8.15am was the time i woke up.. i was damn shock la.. haha.. so everything i did was double-speeded(?).. lolx.. thankfully the bus journey was very smooth, minimum traffic lights and stops at bus-stops.. i think because less ppl go to sch at dis late timings.. there were no jams.. so the original 25 minutes bus ride was reduced to 15 plus minutes.. so in the end still attended lecture within the 15 minutes time frame set for latecomers.. my original intention was to skip lesson for the day.. but then i tot of the number of times i had skipped already.. so i think i better go.. in the end, i was glad i did went.. for thermodynamics, the teacher gave a refresher course for the chapter which i had missed cos i was absent one time.. so today managed to grasp almost all the techniques and formulaes.. then for marine engineering, the teacher provided some extra contents to b added to our lecture notes.. if i was nt there, i would hav missed out on it..

today was oso kinda like my monday's sports session.. after lesson which ends at 12nn, i went for lunch with part of my class first.. heard some interesting gossips.. :P then after went to clubhse.. at first wanted to jus slack there and play games.. but saw kk slping.. so dun wan to disturb.. hang ard outside clubhse wif jia hao, liheng and weilson.. saw badminton court nobody so i suggested going for a game.. everyone was ok wif it so we went ahead.. btw, our original intention was to go gym.. but i sian cos ytd went liao.. so our badminton game went on and on until farand and kk joined.. kept playin until S&W stepped in.. so we clear court.. went back to clubhse.. jia hao disappeared, liheng then went to gm himself.. i told him i go down later.. but i nt very willing to go.. then went to co-op wif kk.. came back jia hao return already.. so he managed to persuade mi to go.. so i go lor.. went there do free weights.. saw some OB freshies inside.. OB members r fit ppl.. lolx.. last time i was nt supposed to do a lot of gym.. as a bball player, i hav to maintain my weight to b light and fast(depends on position).. muscle mass is heavier than fat mass.. so i could onli do statics and such.. or rather, i was advised to.. after gym, at ard 4.45, i exited the gym.. sian liao.. went back clubhse heard badminton.. so i offered to play.. haha.. so play again.. until training starts.. a lot of freshies joined us for the game.. we took turn to play.. haha.. or rather they, cos i had to leave in the middle.. then trainin start.. today a lot of ppl.. i think more than 50 ppl.. largest grp so far.. jia you OB.. but it means i hav to shout more.. sorry throat.. ^^ taught orienteering.. to prepare them for mac-something hike(i dun noe how to spell).. everything was well but a bit of hipcup appeared at the back.. nth too serious though.. so ok.. haha..

and so ends my day..... this quote below is one tat had changed my life a lot.. however, it is a double-edged sword.. so learn when to follow and when nt to, k?? lolx..

"What's meant to be yours will always be yours. Don't try to change the course of nature."

2007-05-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

hmm.. nth to talk bout for the day.. except mood was pretty low.. dun noe y but a voice appeared inside of mi and kept asking mi stupid questions.. question which i had no answers to.. lolx.. so i ended up trying to fight dis inner self.. for those hu watches bleach, its like ichigo battling his inner hollow.. lolx.. a bit too much anime.. but its something like dis.. was trying hard to get myself to crack jokes to make myself happier.. but i realised i couldn't make myself happy at the expense of another person's sorrow.. haha.. too much jokes can make a person mad too.. so i was haix-ing all the way.. but nobody seem to notice.. and tat is something gd.. at least ppl wont b bothered by mi.. haix.. lets call it a day.. nitex guys and gals.. mayb i will find something in my dreams, the answers i nid............................................................................

2007-05-15T23:55:00.000+08:00

well, today was a normal day for mi.. after i-camp, no more meetings etc etc.. so free and easy.. however, the backlash of little slp has surfaced again, affecting my overall energy level.. today woke up feeling energetic.. so rare of it to happen.. i woke up at the first ring of the alarm clock and did nt went back to slp.. went to wash up.. bathing halfway suddenly rain like mad.. could hear the raindrops beating against the bathroom windows.. but when i came out of the showers, it stopped raining again.. or rather it became a drizzle.. i dun bathe very long one.. :) found out it was still very early when i came out of the showers.. i hav the tendency of setting my alarm clock very early to provide time for mi to laze ard first.. so had breakfast.. so long neva had breakfast liao.. early morning rain cold cold then had hot milo.. makes hanbin a happi boi.. so my energy was high for the early morning.. but gd things dun last.. so i went to sch, took the bus.. recently, bus rides hav become sort of hypnotising.. everytime i sit down on the bus, my energy level drops drastically.. i think because a lot of ppl fighting for oxygen with mi.. then my brain dun get enuf oxygen.. haha.. so become tired.. kinda possible isn't it??

today IS day.. so had man and machine.. things r getting more and more interesting for mi as my project had finally began.. building a robot to complete several tasks, much like b4 in science team.. i took the hardware side of the project, to build up the robot.. however, i was too ambitious, which resulted in my design being changed over and over again.. i did nt complete my robot today.. i guess i m losing my touch.. took mi ard 2 hrs and i still haven even finish my basic design.. i din hav dis problem when i was in robotics.. i guess dis is the result of nt practising, nt tat i had a chance to.. lolx.. hmm.. i guess today was sort of like a warm up for mi.. next lesson i shld do better..^^ after lesson, i accompany bjorn to ME office.. he was goin to run for some election and had to submit some form.. lolx.. then had to sign something for him.. lolx.. dun noe wad but i think it's nt goin to hurt la.. i signed on jia hao's behalf oso.. 2 names altogether.. lolx..

today is Mavis' bday.. jus now went out to celebrate wif her, evon, pei shan, qiu yan.. and i was a major spoiler for today.. first of all, i was supposed to meet evon and pei shan first b4 meetin mavis.. but then the world got realli small.. i met the bday gal at the mrt station.. zzz.. so surprise over.. then rite, we went to eat.. they had dis cake which they wanted to surprise mavis wif.. but i had to bring mavis out of the eatery at the crucial moment.. so when they came in, we went out.. lolx.. :P i din mean to la.. haha.. so we ended up having to look for somewhre else to eat cake.. qiu yan got funny ideas lor... sitting in the middle of the mall, on the floor.. lolx.. ended up being chased away by security guards.. all-in-one, it was my fault la.. haha.. sry mavis!! and to the planners too.. :P

ytd i said i would detailed my camp experience.. but then hor, i think too long liao.. when i free then i write ba.. if nt dis post will b very long.. haha.. ending wif a quote again.. well, if i had repeated a quote b4, pl kindly tell mi hor.. cos sometimes i dun noe wad i had written b4.. and it hard to keep track of all.. haha.. so if u think got b4, jus tell mi.. then i go check and if need to, change..^^

2007-05-14T22:54:00.000+08:00

wahahaha.. i m back finally.. pardon mi for being away for so long.. was away in camp.. i hav been away for 4 nights?? breakdown: 1 night rest(thursday), day 1 night(friday), day 2 night(saturday), 1 night total system failure(sunday)..

well well, like all camps, i-camp was fun but very very tiring.. haha.. first of all, i would like to thank all the helpers(casper, yuchen, andrew, rebacca, benjamin, jia junn, jason and esp midori) for helping set up all the games and thinking of ways to make it more fun for the participants.. then comes the GLs, AGLs( jun wei, ying jia, joe, grace, yongjie, xinyi, kk, sally) for being the main platform for the participants to start interacting with each other, with the comm and the helpers as well.. then comes the participants(refer to participant list.. lolx) for their involvement and a lot of funny and scandalous moments in the camp.. for the 4 seniors of the committee(farand, kelvin, christina, wenting) for their valuable advices and reminders.. and last of all to my i-camp comm(daren, eunice, mirza, dong yang, rachel, jia jun, yu heng) for doin such a gd job.. haha.. thanks to u all, i got a lot of fun and the most appreciated part, no work.. haha.. i was playing most of the time or jus sitting by the side watching daren and eunice running about.. lolx.. hmm.. got to noe a few more names dis camp.. i think they shld noe mi by now oso la.. daren was complaining to mi no one noes him.. haha.. as in noe his name.. i managed to get my name across but as usual, spelling mistakes appeared.. haha.. tml then i post up details of the camp.. hopefully the pics r out as well.. haha..

so basically because of the camp, i m so damn bloody tired.. today wake up did a lot of unexpected things.. haha.. firstly, i had to return home 2 times to collect wad i left behind, first time maths book, second time wallet.. lolx.. first time still nt bad, second floor(i live third floor) but second time i almost reach bus stop liao then realised.. and i cannot do without my wallet..... lolx.. after tat, take bus.. slp on the bus.. when i wake up the first time, i saw ngee ann gate already.. but traffic moving slow.. haha.. so bu4 zhi1 bu4 jue2 fell aslp again.. then overshot.. damn.. but thankfully slow traffic.. so i managed nt to overshot a lot.. in fact, onli 1 stop, meaning i ended up at sim.. then lesson at blk 50-02-0006.. so i climb stairs.. dis time more stupid.. i climb until the third floor b4 realising i overshot.. haha.. then hav to climb back down one storey.. lolx.. funny rites??

i guess tat's all for today la.. tired still.. cannot think properly.. haha..

"Love vanquishes time. To lovers, a moment can be eternity, eternity can be the tick of a clock." - Mary Parrish

2007-05-08T23:01:00.000+08:00

today wake up damn tired.. barely able to open eyes.. and to think i slpt early yesterday nite.. yesterday i slpt at ard 12mm.. today wake up 6.30am.. considered slp quite long liao as compared to normal.. but in the end turned out to be more tired.. lolx.. i slp on the bus while standing.. cool stunt.. but nt for long.. i think for onli 2 bus stop cos the uncle's driving skills made it difficult to balance.. then for the rest of the journey, i was struggling to stay awake lest i fall aslp again.. when i reach the sch, saw yingjia and mummy at the sch's bus-stop, waiting for frens i presume.. too tired to walk over and say hi.. so i jus waved, eyes half-opened.. then i went cheers to buy drinks to wake mi self up.. then saw roxanne(is her name spelled dis way?) working there.. no surprise though cos too tired to feel surprised.. lolx.. then after tat on the way to class, meet small joe from ob one.. i noe a lot of joes.. lolx.. so dis morning saw a lot of frens.. joe walks very fast and i hav to keep up.. i think becos he late liao.. but if i was the one late, i think i will still b strolling enjoying the scenery in sch.. reach class exactly when the lecturer taking attendance.. so nt considered late or absent.. lucky boi..^^

today IS, man and machine, finally got into practical.. lolx.. happi to see the lego mindstorm set again after a year.. formed up our grps and got to building.. but today is fundamentals.. so i let my grp members do all the things first.. i do b4 liao ma.. they nid to know more.. this time i m restricted by limited parts.. nt like last time in science team whre everything is dumped in a big box and we share parts.. dis time mus do hse-keeping one.. sian.. but ok la.. fun will still b there.. another difference is the program used.. last time i use mindstorm programmer and a bit of robolab, better more adept at the first one.. however, ngee ann doesn't hav mindstorm.. onli robolab.. i think becos mindstorm is passe liao.. haha.. after class, din wan to go home so early.. so i kept askinh bjorn whre he goin.. then he say he meeting fren but at 1pm.. our lesson ends at 11.30am.. so i waited wif him lor.. discussed a lot of things, mostly nonsense.. no sch work involved at any point.. i anti-schwork one.. lolx.. so we talk and talk and talk.. and nt forgetting looking at gals passing by.. haha.. then wait until ard 12.30 then he went off.. so i went home oso lor.. went to ten mile junction to b exact.. got to buy some toiletries.. there cheaper.. and i m still looking for my sacred travel toothbrush.. haha.. cant seem to find it anymore.. and my old one is getting old.. hee.. nid to change soon.. then after went home..

another sharing session in the making.. jus wondering today.. when u realli love someone, do u realli overlook all his/her bad points and keep quiet, or do u voice them out and let him/her be a better person..? some ppl told mi tat when u truely love a person, u mus love her weakness too.. but if loving her weakness means having to accommodate it, i would oso believe tat means leaving her weakness as be.. but wad if other ppl dun like her weakness? will u tell her to change? or will u b the onli person to love her while the rest dun realli like her..? let's say i like dis gal here.. but my other frens dun.. so hu do i folo? or do i change the gal, covering up her weakness, so tat others may love her oso? the abv situation is jus an example.. so dun start asking mi hu the gal is.. lolx.. interesting enuf? *end of headache*

"The bottom line is that people are never perfect, but love can be,....., we waste time looking for the perfect lover, instead of creating the perfect love." - Tom Robbins

2007-05-07T22:44:00.000+08:00

today is Sports Day for mi.. did a lot of activities.. lesson was onli from 8am to 9am and surprisingly i woke up on time today and got to class within acceptable time.. lolx.. so strange.. i think becos i had a gd dream tat's y.. but i dun rmb dreaming.. wadeva.. haha.. today had been entrusted a mission to collect money.. for i-camp.. hee.. so i practically had my phone wif mi throughout the whole day and every activity.. cool man.. first time doin dis kinda stuff.. normally when i do sports, my phone will b in my bag or frens' bag or jus placed somewhre.. haha.. i hold on to it cos i was scared i might miss a call or msg.. which happens ever so often to mi.. haha.. altogether, i collected money from 5 ppl.. 3 guys 2 gal.. and one of the gal is chio.. and she's yr 1.................. erm.. sry.. problem working up again.. lolx.. jking la.. but seriously, dis batch of freshies got quite a few pretty faces.. so guys, wad r u waiting for?? join OB la..

well, today we had quite a few activities done.. first was badminton.. lolx.. we played from 10am to 12nn la.. quite long.. and all the while, bjorn and the rest of the class was studying while we were playing.. haha.. so cool.. but i seriously doubt bjorn's attention span.. lolx.. sry bjorn.. haha.. the after which we went to the gym.. but nt b4 slacking a bit at clubhse.. :P sry to hav used the place again.. gym was like 12 to 3.. today there were more ppl at the gym.. so did relatively less stuff.. cos dun wan to keep ppl waitin.. haha.. then we had lunch.. and tat's when we had our guys talk.. lolx.. very very funny.. especially wif joe ard.. his jokes all funny until siao.. haha.. and he noes a lot of stuff also.. cool dude.. a lot of funny questions.. haha.. and backstabbing occurs too.. guess the target la.. lolx.. no points for getting it correct.. after talking crap finish, we went back clubhse.. saw rachel.. lolx.. the guys all like neva see gal b4.. all pattern liao liao.. haha.. then in the end jus went and look at badminton.. gave permission to rachel to b my secretary and then went for swim.. lolx.. swim 1 hr liao then kena caught by guard.. lolx.. for nt wearing proper attire.. :P cool man.. haha.. after swim and clean up, we all went our seperate ways.. joe went home, bjorn went home, jia hao went home, liheng siao siao go gym again and i went back to clubhse to listen to eunice and daren talk.. haha.. then had a game of dota and left sch at ard 8pm.. reached home 9pm and had dinner..^^ haha..

my day ends ard dis point and so does my post for today.. i had reverted back to the 'alibi' mode simply becos i m too tired to think.. haha.. hopefully my life is interesting enuf for u, readers.. haha.. and i still haven used my new pattern yet.. hopefully the motivation to apply wad i m thinking will come soon.. haha..

'Unbelievable' by Craig David

Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.

In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.

[Chorus]

When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.

[Chorus]

Now I see, what love means

^^for those hu wans the song, msg mi^^

2007-05-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

today was sleeping day for mi.. wake up, had breakfast, slp, wake up, had lunch, slp, wake up, wake naruto movie 3, slp, wake up, had dinner, then neva slp until now.. haha.. cool enuf.. so to put it more simply, i din do anything much today.. well, even after so much slping, i m still yawning.. interesting.. haha.. yesterday neva post and the reason for tt is the post below.. tat post caused mi to think for so long la.. haha.. funny tt i had to think so much to find out more bout myself.. i guess i realli nid to find a day and understand myself more.. didn't wan to do the thing at first.. but Miss Loh complains no one do.. so i ying4 chou2 her lor.. haha..

parents getting on my nerves again.. :P or shld i b saying i m getting on their nerves.. recently because of some very stupid frens, i hav been slping at 4, 5 plus in the morning.. haha.. of course mummy nt happi.. when mummy nt happi, daddy of cos nt happi.. but sometimes its nt tat i wan to slp at tat kinda time..i jus got carried away.. then she say she dun wan to sign my i-camp indemnity form liao.. do wadeva lor.. come to worst i sign myself lor.. pls b informed tat tat is nt a consent form.. lolx.. and i dun think they will hold the sch accountable for anything even in the case of something happening to mi.. it will b jus my fault la.. but i think i m getting pretty used to dis kinda stuff.. so no problems here..

i nid to go gym soon.. i missed last week's racer's training and friday's training was a bit slack for mi(except for pull-up, i think i fatter^^).. so nid to make up for lost exercises.. haha.. nid to go run and lift weights.. i m still dreaming of my six-pecs returning to mi.. wahaha.. i hav been uniting them with hope of unity = strength.. but then hor.. i m jus deluding myself.. they still look nicer seperated.. lolx.. so ya.. i m goin to work hard.. but my fren say if gone once, the nxt time u wan to get it back is a bit harder.. i still dun understand the logic behind it but ok lor.. jus hav to train harder..

"Love is like π - natural, irrational, and very important." - Lisa Hoffman

2007-05-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

got homework to do.. miss loh give one.. difficult thing to do lor.. wad a cruel way to treat a slacker.. make him think.. haix..

RULES: Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 idiosyncrasies as well as clearly state this rule. After stating your 6 weirdness you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names at the bottom of the entry. Don’t forget to leave a comment on their tag board that says “you’re tagged!” and tell them to read your blog for information as to what it means.

Idiosyncrasy: a peculiarity of constitution or temperament : an individualizing characteristic or quality

So here i begin:

1) does being a slacker count? i slack a lot.. i dun like to do work.. prefers to jus lie ard all day or do things tat i like onli..

2) full of nonsense knowledges.. i dun rmb things from my textbooks but i do noe a lot of nonsense..

3) i cant slp without something to hug and i cover myself from head-to-toe with my blanket when slping - so basically u cannot see mi when i m slping..

4) nocturnal - i gain more energy as the sun gets lower.. although morning oso got quite a bit of energy.. :P

5)large tendency to overcome obstacles by jumping.. :P -.-''

6)hav the inabilty to xpress myself well.. haha.. sometimes i m oso confused by how i feel..

Well, now tat i hav finished thinking, it's time for me to ~~create headache for someone else~~ understand more bout someone else.. 6 people, here u go..

1. Weilson
2.Wenting
3. Mirza
4.Midori
5.Kok Koung
6.Jarrod

2007-05-05T00:18:00.000+08:00

welcome back to my blog.. haven been blogging for quite some time as u can see.. been rather busy.. i dun like to be busy.. so lets run through wad i did today.. today lesson starts at 9am.. but then i overslept and ended up waking up at 10am.. i think my brother pressed down the alarm button.. damn it.. and i almost slept all the way if nt for jia hao(thks) hu called mi and woke mi up.. haix.. so now i m getting low attendances for almost all modules i think.. damn it.. lolx.. then to make matters even more sian.. i went to sch, ready for a 1 hr marine engineering lecture, then the teacher let us off practically half an hour earli.. and he almost forgot bout attendance.. damn it.. haix.. so after lesson, we went for lunch at canteen 1.. slack slack.. then after tat go clubhse more slacking.. then go buy fruits for today's 'fruit buffet'.. the training starts and then my day ends..

well, i hav a new nickname.. little monkey aka xiao3 hou2 zi3.. lolx.. pretty interesting rites? and i somehow feel tat its quite appropriate for mi.. and heard a lot of comments bout myself through rachel and chris.. although nt realli the type of comments one would expect for a normal person, its nt realli entirely bad after all.. so yes, i m 'jumpy' and hyperactive.. and i like to b tat way.. which brings mi to another point.. today's training as usual, i was taking the running part.. i toned myself down a lot.. i din do anything 'stupid' and i was talking a bit less nonsense.. and i found out tat I DUN LIKE IT!! lolx.. yes a bit extreme but i realli dun.. well, i dun realli think i shld say this but i kinda regret joinin the comm.. its nt tat i dun like OB.. in fact i enjoy it and love it.. i like the way ppl in the club function as one.. but the fact tat i cannot b myself is bad.. i understand the image the club has to present to its members.. but i guess i m too much of a nonsense to really help.. and i like nonsense.. -.-'' lolx.. and i noe ppl r goin to tell mi a lot of da4 dao4 li3 liao.. but i heard all of the stuff countless times le.. and i noe wad i wan and wad i like.. i guess its my attitude.. so pls pardon mi.. well, times hav changed, people.. wad happened in the past shld b kept in the past.. mistakes tat happened in the past a the onli things tat shld b brought forward.. solutions to these problem shld b kept whre they r..

haha.. 4 days no blog means i owe ppl hu wisit my site for quotes 4 quotes.. the previous sentence is a bit funny.. but unfortunately, i lazy to find 4.. :P so pls b contended wif one for the time being.. i will make it up to u shortly.. lolx..so here it goes..

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous." - Ingrid Bergman

2007-04-30T23:18:00.000+08:00

*woots*.. tmr no sch.. lolx.. and i knew it onli dis morning.. labor day.. cool rite.. first time i m nt updated on a holiday.. but i think mayb it's cos i dun feel like being at home anymore.. last time happily at home do anything oso can.. now my every action at home is being scrutinised.. and i dun think i m enjoying it.. and wad do u do when u dun like something..? u learn to retaliate.. fight back.. but i dun nid to learn la.. been doin it since sec sch.. call mi rude, unfilial or wadeva things u wan to say.. i jus dun like to b restrained..

today learned something fascinating bout my family tree.. haha.. so wei wen is a 'distant' relative of mine.. he is the paternal cousin of my maternal cousin.. sounds chim.. o.O and something tells mi tat i hav seen him somewhre even b4 sch starts.. haha.. no wonder he looked familiar to mi when i first saw him.. but it's nt too late to realised it onli nw rites? lolx..

let's get to the love thingy.. erm.. actualli i hav been rather passive recently.. nt realli troubled bout the love questions as much.. remembered wad weilson asked mi:"y r u still single?".. i rmb my answer was something like "cos i still cannot find a gal hu can stand my nonsense and b able to tolerate it for life" or something like tat.. so do u think u can "stand my nonsense and tolerate it"..? i hope the target of this question understands i m talking bout her.. i haven been getting answers for my previous questions but plenty of ppl hu wans to start a discussion.. lolx.. i guess nobody got the answers.. so i think i'm jus goin to let slping dogs lie for the time being.. but i would still like answers if anyone hav them.. wonder if they hav ten-year-series for dis topic......?^^

"The heart has its reasons which reason knows not of." - Blaise Pascal

2007-04-30T00:05:00.000+08:00

hee.. wad do i say today..? let's see.. let's start wif a brief run-through of wad i did today.. wake up, wash up, breakfast, nth, lunch, temple, granny hse, talk wif wenting, nth, sms-chat yingjia, dinner at kfc, nth, home, bathe, blog, end(?).. haha.. short and sweet.. pretty interesting for a day huh?

lolx.. today had a talk wif wenting.. over the phone.. talking bout my problem in ob.. she can realli talk!! well, firstly i hav to apologise for accidentally hanging up on her 3 times.. haha.. SRY WENTING!! well, she made mi feel a little better after the talk.. but then, i hav to say.. i actualli feel more of a grudge than hurt for some comments bout mi.. so i nt realli emo over the training stuff.. it's more of the contributing part.. i seriously neva done anything yet.. and the more she try to convince mi i did something, the more i feel i haven.. haha.. but at the time when she talk to mi, i at tat moment got feel normal.. then after she put down the phone and i think bout it, i think i better stick back to my thinking.. haha.. mayb like wad she says, it's jus the beginning.. but my personality leaves much for mi to desire.. hopefully i can find something positive in mi to talk bout..

once again, i clashed wif my parents.. y cant they ever understand wad i wan..? y do they always wan mi to think in their shoes but they dun wan to do the same for mi..? dis time over my overseas trips.. damn it.. outdoors.. tat's something i always enjoyed.. but y do they always hav to impose their thinking onto mi..? "mountain-climbing is useless.. wad do u gain..? u dun get money.." i quote my dad.. but fuck it.. face it.. if u were to live onli for money, i think it's goin to b a pretty meaningless life u r goin to get.. i apologise for my use of the f-word there but tat word best describe wad i m feeling now.. the experience one gets is neva something money can buy.. frustrated.. damn frustrated.. i kinda feel glad to b rebellious.. if i were to hav listened to them all the time, i think i m goin to b one f**king nerd.. i think i m nt goin to give a damn to wadeva they say.. i mean, wad's up wif loving the great outdoors.. and dun give mi stupid reasons like dangerous.. everything we do possess an amount of risk.. and how mani ppl actualli die climbing mountains? compare it to the number of ppl hu died in road accidents.. r u goin to tell mi u dun wanna cross a road or drive ever again..? damn it.. i noe it's the money issue again.. u both r jus concern bout mi using ur money.. i think i m goin to enjoy army a lot.. lots of time in camp and none at home.. i think i dun mind the intensive training..

and comm photos r out.. haha.. cool enuf.. everyone pls refer to the updated NPOB webbie.. and check under 14th comm.. pretty nice photos.. nice skill on farand's and kelvin's part.. haha.. and i cant help but to agree wif jason tat kelvin is an all-rounder.. cool huh..? preview of pic..

"Absence is to love as wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small and kindles the great." - Roger de Bussy-Rabutin

2007-04-28T23:57:00.000+08:00

yo.. i apologise for nt posting for the past few days.. been rather busy and feeling kinda down.. sry to those hu come and read bout my life and even more sry to those hu come and look at quotes for there were no updates.. lolx.. to kickstart stuff, today hav been rather slack.. wake up very late.. actualli morning got ob stuff.. but mummy kept complaining so i had to forgo it.. but in the end, i ended up goin in the afternoon.. in actual fact, i was supposed to stay over in sch for 1 nite.. but my parents hasn't been supportive.. they think i m spending too much time on OB.. haix.. sian lor.. actualli i think i haven been contributing much to OB even as i m in the comm.. instead, i think i m actualli wasting the position.. i noe some ppl r goin to rebuke dis statement of mine but lets jus say i noe wad i hav been doin and wad i hav nt been doing.. lolx.. sian.. mistakes a lot, nth gd.. let's see wad's goin to happen nxt.. haha.. until now i still haven understand y i m in dis position.. cos i haven got a single strength i can talk of.. except for a lot of time and nonsense if u call tat something gd.. lolx.. i m fast being overtaken by the demon inside of mi.. dis demon known as inferior complexity.. strangely, dis time the attack is lasting longer and more difficult to overcome.. lolx.. enuf of depressing tots.. now for more interesting stuffs.. jus now help wenting get her things home.. when i was goin back, i took 190.. then saw dis funny sight.. got one couple hoping to get onto the bus.. then i dun noe wad happen la, either the gal is tired liao or wan to give up then she stop.. the guy then turn ard, carry her up and continue running towards the bus.. lolx.. then on the bus liao rite, the guy still refuse to put down the gal.. haha.. the guy onli put down the gal when he found out tat he cannot carry the gal wif onli one hand cos he hav to scan card.. he was trying to find a way to take out his card without putting the gal down.. lolx.. so cute hor.. but a bit stupid.. -.-''.. haha.. then 2 days b4.. i went home late la.. so i lazy.. i took 184 to the interchange and change 920.. when i board the bus, i immediately went t the back of the bus to sit.. then rite, i found out tat the bus all couples except mi (and the driver)leh.. there were like 3 or 4 pairs of couples in front of mi la.. and all of them all like sticking together.. makes mi so sad.. lolx.. impressive.. its the first time it has ever happened to mi.. haha.. well, jia hao commented on the way i blogged and i think it's very true.. he say my blog boring and tat if i were to ever get caught by the police, my blog can actualli help be some sort of evidence cos the police can jus refer here to see wad i hav done for tat day.. i think he means tat my blog lack substance.. but then hor, i dun noe how to change leh.. cos except from wad i do, i dun noe wad to write liao.. haha.. but dun worry hao.. i try hor.. see can change or nt.. so u will come more to see my blog.. :P well, tat so much ends my post for now.. to make up for the past 3 days i haven blogged, i shall hav a poem.. its called love by roy croft..^^ enjoy..!

I love you
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.

I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.

I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;

I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can't help
Dimly seeing there,

And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple.

Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.

I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good.
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.

You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.

You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means,
After all.

2007-04-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

today is a very slow day for mi.. woke up earlier than usual so tat i wont b late for class.. cos cher say got practical today.. in the end went there still hav lecture first.. and the lecture damn sian one la.. pulleys, wheels, etc etc.. all learn b4.. and somemore dun nid to learn formulas.. all definitions cos got non-engineering students in class.. then i started slping.. but i sit first row sia.. so if i slp like nt giving the teacher face.. so i started sending out msg to see hu is as bored as mi.. haha.. got quite a few replies.. but all reply very slow.. so in the end i self-entertain la.. looking at the lecturer's mistake and wrote them down.. haha.. all his spelling and when he pronounce wrongly and wad word.. got it down.. then after class went outside burn the paper.. haha.. nth to do.. found matchsticks in my bag.. mus b tat time i play then forgot to put back..^^ after class, went for gym orientation.. the gym quite cool ar.. got a lot of technology.. but i think too much la.. no wonder the gym so expensive.. haha.. after the orientation went for lunch.. liheng hav to rush thorugh lunch to go gym cos he got date at 2.. by the time we finish eating, it was like 1330 liao.. so he do half an hour also happy.. zzz.. i was in the gym from 1330 to 1530 without realising it.. lolx.. din do much stuff oso.. i dun hav the habit of goin to gym.. haha.. but manage to hav the feeling tat i hav worked out.. o.O haha.. after gym went home.. then usually when i reach home, there is nth more to b said cos its very very sian to b at home.. i wanted to go roam about.. but my bag heavy.. then reach home liao dun feel like goin out again..^^ lolx.. today i was thinking bout some questions.. y do u love someone? do u love someone becos u nid her or do u love someone simply becos u lov her..? how do u actually express love..? if u r willing to give up everything, including ur life, does it realli show tat u love..? cos u will b leaving the person u love wif nth except grief.. lolx.. a lot of 'loving' question.. answers are of course welcome.. wan to discuss also can.. msn chat lor..^^

"I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each others dreams, we can be together all the time." - Hobbes

2007-04-23T23:39:00.000+08:00

getting tired.. sian already.. very sian.. feeling all weird inside again.. a warning to all.. dun keep things bottled up inside urself.. u r nt goin to feel the effect nw but when ur thoughts accumulate, its gonna hurt.. haha.. but then i like dis feeling.. feeling of impending doom? mayb nt so serious la.. but jus a feeling to put u down.. makes mi less confident of myself so i wont do too much nonsense.. haha.. jus nw i was cross-examining myself.. asking myself wad i hav done over the years.. nth but trouble.. no achievements.. great..! i dun think i m suited for life as a human.. i think i like things to b slower.. this world is moving too fast.. haix.. i think i would much prefer to live my life in seclusion.. in the mountains or mayb jus a simple village life.. but dreams r dreams.. reality is still cruel.. haha.. ok.. lets move on.. today wad i did.... lesson was from 8am to 9am.. dis week even week.. and i still bloody haven buy my book.. but i copied down for someone else.. at least i listened a bit.. after class ends, i went to do duty as office boy for OB.. onli this time the office is the whole campus.. first, i went to print out the document, then went to get it endorsed by our president(farand).. after tat pass to my 'boss(daren)' and he sign again.. the submitting part is done by daren.. i passed it to him through the secretary by the name of eunice.. haha.. i kinda like the job.. partially cos it helped mi kill time.. was supposed to go to the new gym but we received bad info.. someone told us it would onli open at 2pm.. so we waited.. and in the midst of waiting, we played soccer and basketball.. we as in mi, liheng, jia hao, amanda, bjorn and joe.. terry joined later cos he had a lot of time to kill until the nxt lesson.. first up was soccer.. first time i played half field soccer.. 3-a-side wof one communal keeper.. haha.. very tiring cos hav to run a lot.. then had a little rest and went to borrow bball to play.. played 1v1 wif terry.. he taller than mi half a head.. i lost.. but i noe it's becos i m tired.. hope got chance to play proper match wif him again.. then at ard 1 plus, we went down to the new gym onli to discover tat u nid to go through orientation b4 u can use the gym.. and there are timeslots for u to book.. 11-12, 12-1 and 7-8.. by then we had already missed the 2 early slots so no choice hav to wait one more day.. for all hu wans to use the new gym, pls pay attention to the previous information and go book a slot.. after knowing we cannot use the gym.. bjorn suggested we go swimming.. so we went for lunch first.. then we went to OB clubhse to camp a while cos cannot swim immediately after eating and bjorn had to go for a meeting first.. by this time, onli mi, liheng, bjorn and joe was left.. the rest left.. we waited quite a while for bjorn to come back.. but he took very long.. so we went ahead first.. but weather wasn't on our side.. barely 10 minutes after we hit water, it started to rain.. siren came on and we were forced to leave the water.. haix..and bjorn still haven come.. haha.. so he neva touch water at all.. then becos of the weather, we were forced to go home since there were nth much for us to do in sch liao.. exited sch at ard 4.. joe gave us a lift to the bus stop.. today post very long..^^

"If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don't have it, no matter what else there is, it's not enough." - Ann Landers

2007-04-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

today is a very normal day for mi.. hmm.. let's see.. i woke up and did everything one shld when he or she wakes up.. then i rmb watching huan zhu ge ge 2.. saw dis fight between elephants and horses.. haha.. hmm.. i like part 1 better.. the actresses look prettier.. and the emperor look cuter.. lolx.. old shows.. means i m old.. and i think i m proud of it.. rite, yingJia??? hahahaha.. ok la.. sry.. later kena scolded again.. erm.. then after tat went my granny hse.. mummy side one.. granny throwing some sort of tantrum i think.. haha.. she is kinda moody.. i oso dun noe how to talk to her.. hmm.. she kept saying nobody cares bout her.. haix.. mayb i shld do something.. haha.. erm.. my cousin kept asking mi to play maple wif him ar.. he keep on complaining he lvl very slow.. haha so he ask mi to help him.. but then hor.. i oso very busy one leh.. i told him i will try but most often then nt, i dun think i can do a thing.. so sry.. haha.. then after when to ang mo kio.. checked out the ang mo kio hub.. long time haven been there liao.. the last time i was there, onli the ntuc was opened.. now its so much busier liao.. my brother went to buy hp.. he lost his phone quite some time ago.. haha.. finally cannot tahan life without hp and went to buy.. my mum does nt trust him wif the new plan.. so i got the new number.. mus inform everyone.. spent 1/10 of my free sms.. and a bit more cos some 'long-lost' fren of mine started to msg-chat mi.. haha .. i guess most of u shld hav my new number now.. if nt ask mi for it through msn lor..^^ my brother new phone pretty nice.. slim and light.. camera is ok.. supports 2GB microsd.. and dis brings mi to another point.. anyone selling..? preferably 512 abv.. samsung dun noe wad model.. forgot model number and is lazy to go check.. haha.. then went for dinner.. and came home jus in time for ong bak.. basket.. tony jaa is one very very very pro guy.. if i hav half of his abilities............ sry.. was dreaming.. haha.. but he realli very li hai.. he like so small size but then so powerful.. cool..!!!! and it's all real!!! no wire no special effect.. haha.. after show then i came here to blog liao lor.. my mum is getting naggy again.. sian.. sian.. sian.. haha.. hmm.. recently been having strange dreams.. haha.. wonder wad could they mean..? anyone can decipher dreams???

"How on earth are you ever going to explain in terms of chemistry and physics so important a biological phenomenon as first love?" - Albert Einstein

2007-04-22T00:45:00.000+08:00

ha..! another late night post.. i wonder how long b4 i can successfully change my slping pattern.. mayb i nid to see doc liao.. wonder if i shld take slping pill again.. haha.. well.. today has gotta b one of the most sian day for mi liao.. wake up do nth.. and did nth for the whole day.. lolx.. today supposed to play bball wif yongjie.. but then i overslept.. i guess i 'silenced' my alarm clock and went back to slp although i hav no impression of tat.. haix.. sry to who-eva-it-may-concern.. haha.. hmm.. then after tat wake up liao, washed up, eat breakfast and then jus sit on sofa stone.. watch pokemon.. haha.. long long time neva watch liao.. pls pardon my childish-ness.. i still think pokemon is interesting.. haha.. after pokemon is teen titans, followed by justice league unlimited and then followed by this stupid new show on kids central.. i watched the new show but couldn't last more than 3 minutes in front of the tube.. lolx.. so i went to watch movie on laptop.. those joe and jonathan send mi one.. haha.. onli watch eragon.. one thing i like bout watching movie at home is tat u can eat ur lunch while watching.. haha.. by the time i finish watching, it was already 3 plus.. then i went to cut hair.. i oso dun noe wad to cut.. so i ask the hair-dresser to shui bian jian.. haha.. then wadeva he ask mi i jus ok lor.. haha.. pretty much the same leh.. cut like no cut.. got scolding from mum.. haha.. then wanted to go ngee ann run wif farand.. but then rain like siao.. mum say dun go.. feeling lazy so i din go lor.. but did a bit of statics at home.. i wan my muscles.. haha.. then i went to slp.. haha.. from 5 slp until ard 8.. then wake up hav dinner.. haha.. so u noe the reason y i m blogging at unearthly hours?? after dinner did a bit of hsework.. cos mum nt at home.. and i do mean a bit.. ^^ overheard mum and aunt conversation and realised mother's day coming.. -.- sian liao.. mus i buy things for my mummies?? haha.. then mus go shopping.. o.O ok lor.. for a worthy cause.. then i found out phone card no more credit.. ppl sms i cannot reply.. haha.. so sry for all hu sms mi today.. i cant reply u.. :P hmm.. i noe i hav something else i wan to say one.. but now i cant rmb.. always happening.. dun noe y.. my memory reali got so bad ma?? haha.. if can rmb then i write down during nxt post ba..^^

"A man who becomes conscious of the responsibility he bears toward a human being who affectionately waits for him will never be able to throw away his life. He knows the "why" for his existence, and will be able to bear almost any "how"." - Victor Frankl

2007-04-21T00:34:00.000+08:00

today i m jus gona start wif today again.. i still trying hard to work out my new style..^^ haha.. today lesson start 9am.. so can slp in a bit later.. i found out that all my timetable start at 8am wif exception of wed and fri.. haix.. but all end pretty early..^^ had our first lesson of thermodynamics.. first lesson very boring.. all the definitions of terms.. haha.. after that supposedly got marine industrial safety tutorial.. but then the lecturer bday.. so he dun wan to come sch.. haha.. actualli it's becos he haven start lecture yet la.. haha.. lame excuse rite.. :P so i hav 3 hrs of break.. no big deal.. had lots of tat last sem.. so we knew wad to do liao.. play computer games.. haha.. so play until 2pm, maths tutorial starts.. haha.. realised i nid to catch up a bit.. haha.. actualli A-maths got learn b4.. but my foundation nt very gd.. haha.. and dis is the first time i saw lecturer leaving earlier than students.. and i dun even noe she is leaving until she is at the door.. haha.. pro.. but dis does nt mean she nt gd hor.. she explain things very clearly and hav lots of patience.. cos i ask her a lot of questions and sometimes a lot of times per question.. haha.. after that went ob.. kinda early.. so went clubhse first.. and found a lot of ppl already there.. haha.. wanted to put down bag rhen go canteen 2 play laptop wif liheng.. but in the end become play volleyball in hall.. sorry hor liheng.. haha.. but he had fun too..^^ 30 minutes b4 actual training starts, we went down to set up station for telematch.. already showing signs of bad weather.. tat's when i found out we din hav a wet weather plan.. haix.. we prayed for the clouds to jus move away.. so we set up our stations as per normal.. however, jus as we stepped out of shelter into the open, the rain began.. as first we ignored the rain but then it became heavier.. so we had to move indoors.. as soon as we settled down at the grandstand, the rain stopped again.. haix haix haix haix haix.. weather is nt on our side today.. lets hope nxt week it wont happen.. haha.. managed to get the game goin smoothly and had fun.. however, i think i nid to improve myself a lot.. on a lot of things.. then after that got to noe some of the year 1s.. they very easy high one oso.. haha.. tat will make things easy in the future.. oh ya.. today morning, i was writin dis post for wad i did yesterday.. but i very silly.. i neva see if published liao then i jus shut down com.. zzz.. turns out i din post it.. waste my time.. lolx.. haix.. been wanting to slp early but it jus doesn't work for mi.. still slping at ard the same timings.. I WAN TO SLP EARLY.. too bad cannot.. i dun wan eye bags.. :( i wan to look normal..

"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it." - Rumi

2007-04-19T00:00:00.000+08:00

^^ today i shall start wif 'today' again.. it's kinda tiring to thing of new stuff everyday.. haha.. so i shall begin la.. today i overslept.. i was supposed to wake up at 9.45am but ended up waking at 10.45am.. zzz.. and so i was late for my duty at cca booth.. yuheng called mi and told me that daren, the onli one at the booth now is leaving for lesson le.. and thus, i hurried down lor.. when i reach there, daren was already gone and onli yingjia, grace and syafiq were there.. so the four of us jus sat down cos there were nt much ppl at tat time.. but here comes the problem.. i hav lessons from 12pm to 4pm.. however, there were no comm members at the booth.. for my first lesson, since i was late, i tot i might as well dun go.. so from 12 to 1, its was ok.. but then at 1, all the four of us at the booth had lessons.. so the headache begins.. i couldn't leave since the other three were leaving and even though joe had joined us, i couldn't leave him alone to man the booth.. so i ended up skipping 2 lessons, the second one is from 1 to 3.. as for the 3rd one, i din go because its a tutorial session and i tot dun nid go.. but then, i heard from my lecture grp frens that my class went for the tutorial.. and so i ended up skipping all 3 lessons from 12 to 4.. haha.. traffic at the booth were average today, a large number of ppl were those whom we spoke to yesterday, returning today to sign up.. apart from that, the rest were brought in by friends hu had already signed up.. haha.. and a lot of interesting things happened at the booth.. yingjia's 'son' came to the booth and provided entertainment to us.. haha.. he and his fren very funny.. always got pattern one.. lolx.. and today i got the fire engineering notes from yingjia!! finally, wad a long wait it has been.. haha.. but now i got my own notes to read liao.. :P but nvm la.. got time then read lor.. u dun nid the book liao rite, yingjia??^^ so i think no hurry.. today had our first weekly meeting during sch term in sch.. lolx.. it was a long meeting.. there was a lot of things to b confirmed bout our first training and i-camp.. and miss june came down to talk to us about some issues.. when she was leaving, she casually asked if we had had dinner and when we say no, she actualli ordered pizza for us.. cool..! so dinner was taken care of.. i was still wondering whre to go eat after meeting cos it was so late liao.. haha.. so mus realli thank her.. well, my plan on changing my sleeping pattern has failed terribly.. these few days i m still bloggin late nights.. haiz.. very very busy wif cca.. tml still gt training for adventure race wif ARC ppl.. haix.. lolx.. then tml lesson start at 8.. gg la, hanbin.. tml u will b outside for like 14 hrs again.. haha.. i think tml mayb no blog.. mayb too tired ba.. i admired those hu can slp a few hrs everyday but still look like they r slping normally.. i hav lots of comments bout my dark eye rings.. haix.. mayb i shld do facials or something to my face.. do they help?? lolx.. and today i finally realised my limits.. i can neva be gd enuf for her.. it's something i shld hav realised long ago.. i look at her and i look at myself.. haix.. i guess it might b better to actualli stay as a background 'protector'.. or does love always hav to b selfish..? haix..

"I believe that imagination is stronger than knowledge -- myth is more potent than history -- dreams are more powerful than facts -- hope always triumphs over experience -- laughter is the cure for grief -- love is stronger than death." - Robert Fulghum

2007-04-17T22:19:00.000+08:00

today.. today.. today.. i found out that i always start my post wif today.. haha.. hmm but other than tat, i wonder how i can start my post.. so i m goin to try something new.. lolx.. So here it goes:

On 17 April, Tuesday, HanBin had his IS lessons: Man and Machines, but he was late.. There were two other person who were also late and he saw them on the bus to school.. The two person are Grace and YingJia.. How coincidental it is to be commenting on them the night before and meeting them the next morning..? Some of u may be wondering what is the course about now..? Basically, it's a module which deals with the machines we are using everyday, such as cars and televisions.. The class studies how it works and how it affects the life of humans.. then HanBin also get to work with LEGOs, using it to build his project, a robot and learn to program it.. This is not a new thing for HanBin because he used to do it during his secondary school days.. Apart from that, HanBin also learns how to troubleshoot problems and come up with solutions for them.. His presentation skills are also honed and his ability had been tested on the very first lesson, where he was required to present his findings based on an assigned case study.. After class, which ended at 12pm, HanBin went off to mind his CCA booth.. He is surprised to see the number of juniors he will be seeing in his CCA because during his year, he is the only one.. Today was a very quiet day at the booth for human traffic was low.. So HanBin ended up slacking quite a lot.. The two person whom he met earlier in the morning came down to the booth and helped too.. But the thing is they also didn't do a lot of stuff.. So there were a lot of people at the booth but the target audience were not present.. However, HanBin still had pretty much fun with the two girls because of their silly actions which provoked laughter.. After the event ended at 5pm, HanBin and Daren, together with the rest of the people who were there at the booth, went on to try out some games for their first training.. The trial didn't return the results which the duo was expecting and thus, they have to brainstorm for more ideas again.. They then decided to bring forward this problem during tomorrow's committee meeting and engage the rest of the committee to help them out.. This marks the end of the day for HanBin for the rest of his day were spent eating, bathing, writing this post and sleeping, nothing special.. *end of new system*

haha.. goin to make my english teacher proud of mi when she sees the post.. wonder how will the response be if i were to start blogging like dis.. haha.. actualli i think i might actualli force myself to quit blogging.. haha..^^ ya lor.. cos in good english dun hav haha.. and i like to haha and lolx.. haha.. :P

"Love seems the swiftest, but it is the slowest of all growths. No man or woman really knows what perfect love is until they have been married a quarter of a century." - Mark Twain

2007-04-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

today is first day of sch and its a realli busy day for mi.. was out from 7am to 11pm.. well.. morning went to sch, received a lot of "miss you"s and had 1 hr of engineering maths.. i dun even hav my books and the lecturer is already teaching the first chapter.. zzz.. mus get book fast.. maths is followed by practical sessions; marine engineering and thermodynamics.. however, since its the first week of sch, there r no sessions scheduled for today.. which means i get to go home pretty early.. however, i m still tied down by CCA fiesta.. so down to the booth i went and got lame.. i wrote my name at the recruitment list, first one.. haha.. then i went away to join my frens to chill out at the library.. nt my timeslot yet ma.. :P then follow some other fren to tour their CCA booths.. pretty interested by the NP radio control club.. they mess ard with rc cars and even do drifts wif them.. cool..! but its an expensive CCA.. my fren bought his car at 180+ bucks.. zzz.. i m a poor boi.. ^^ so i toyed ard wif his car.. haha.. if i had more time to play, i think his car will b gone at the end of the day.. lolx.. so after all these fun, i reported back to OB booth, to find 2 extra names below mine.. at first i tot so fast got ppl sign up liao.. but on closer look, the names looked familiar.. -.-'' LOH YINGJIA AND GRACE KWAN.. haha.. copycats.. lame oso mus b original ma.. haha.. so i started my duty on this note.. however, today i dun noe wad happened.. i lost my gift of speech.. everytime someone ask mi questions, i would stumble, nt knowing how to phrase my answers.. so i kept 'erm-ing' lor.. so nt nice.. so i decided nt to talk more.. but booth shorthanded.. so i still mus do talking.. haix.. i think i chase quite a lot of ppl away.. haha.. some members came down.. ppl like yong jie and joe came so at least i nt so sian cos got them to entertain mi.. haha.. today's recruitment number i think still ok la.. but the old birds think a bit low.. neva mind.. still got 2 more days.. lets hope tml i can find back my speech ability.. and i suddenly remembered.. i received some msg from ARC and i haven pass them out to the rest of the comm yet.. opps.. tml i MUS do it.. haha..

"True love does not come by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." - Jason Jordan

2007-04-15T23:27:00.000+08:00

today is a busy day for mi.. haha.. i helped my uncle to move hse.. 8am in the morning, i was up and about,waiting to go over and help my aunt.. been so long since i last helped someone move hse.. haha.. pretty fun.. the whole thing took mi ard 7hrs.. but i felt more fun than tiredness.. haha.. my uncle did nt hire professional movers so it was an anyhow thing.. everything we jus dump on the lorry.. haha.. but i hav to admit i din do much unpacking cos i was busy playing wif my cousins.. haha.. then first time my another cousin drove mi ard.. he pro la.. first time take exam then pass liao.. haix.. how i wish i can b like him.. its hard.. then he very cute also.. when he feels that he brake too hard rite, he always turn behind and say sorry to us.. but its jus himself la.. new driver cannot blame.. and it's the first time he is driving without his father beside him.. so kudos to him.. cannot believe he jus got his license last month.. he drives like a pro driver.. well, holidays end liao... tml start sch liao.. and i hope i can change my sleeping habits cos if i were to stick to the time i slp during hols, i think it will b difficult to stay awake in class.. and so it means tat i wont b online for long long time, hopefully.. but i dun think it matters much cos i rarely chat.. and one more thing, i will nid to update my blog at an earlier time.. yup yup.. ok then.. goin to slp liao.. tml morning class.. to all returning back to sch tml, i wish u a happi sem ahead.. haha.. GL HF!!!

My brother and my cousin.. Hu is cuter??

2 of my youngest cousin..

"Because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have." - Anonymous

2007-04-15T00:44:00.000+08:00

today morning went to market.. nt supermarket.. wet market.. alone.. haha.. help my mum buy stuff cos she got work then by the time she knock off, the market wont hav anything left.. so i began my adventure at 8am.. which was actualli pretty late.. then i went ard to buy stuff.. the store owners were like damn fascinated by the fact that a i patronise their stores.. all the uncles and aunties were like: "wa, boi! so earli come market ar.. nowsaday young ppl dun come wet market anymore liao hor.. haha.." lolx.. so i kept hearing that over and over.. got one auntie wanted to comment my spirit and gave mi some extra groceries.. haha.. pretty fun.. but i still dun noe how to choose fresh fishes.. i asked the uncle to help mi..^^ my adventure took mi ard 1 hr.. then after that went home, bathe liao, went to sch to help set up booth for cca fiesta.. lolx.. in the end onli 5 person turned up.. mi, jia jun, yu heng, daren and eunice.. haix.. but mi and jia jun had to leave early and daren for the earlier part was away for ambassador meeting.. lolx.. so technically manpower was kept at 4.. but managed to get most things done b4 i left.. so i pretty gd liao hor.. haha.. the reason i left early was for bball wif sec sch frens(u noe hu u r).. haha.. at first our meeting time was 11am.. then change to 11.30am.. but when i left sch at 12, onli one person reach onli.. haha.. and onli when i reached at 1pm, did they actualli start playing.. haha.. played one match and was sian liao.. i think they too long neva play.. halfway become chat session again.. then we keep 'disturbing' gals passing by.. haha.. ended at the road kerbside discussing cars.. haha.. pretty fun.. our whole session ended at about 4pm.. after that i went home eat while they roam causeway point.. haha.. reach home liao nth to do went to slp.. then wake up eat lunch-cum-dinner.. went into maplestory to try out this new guild quest stuff.. realli nids a lot of cooperation man.. haix.. din complete.. got dced.. haha..and that ends the chapter for today..^^ i wonder except for yingjia, how many ppl actualli reads or even notice the quotes i attached to every post.. hmm.. hopefully the quotes will help.. in wad way i dun noe..^^

"The pursuit of truth and beauty is a sphere of activity in which we are permitted to remain children all our lives." - Albert Einstein

2007-04-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

jus came back from bbq.. it was supposed to be a sort of socialising chance for the 3 ccas(TAS, NPOB and ARC).. however, the onli ppl socialising were kelvin and farand and the rest of us were on our own.. i did try but give up relatively fast.. haha.. ended up playing bball wif yuheng and dong yang.. jia jun joined later.. hmm.. mayb the rest did talk when i was nt ard.. i dun noe..^^ well, b4 the bbq, i went to suntec wif wenting to collect satays and otahs.. took 700.. then somewhre along newton, the bus had a minor accident wif another van.. and i do mean minor cos the onli thing visible from the accident was nothing.. lolx.. but then the two drivers had to argue as if the engine of the vehicles were seperated from the car body from the collisions.. haix.. then one man in the bus kept saying tat he saw the accident but when asked to sign a document which the driver nids for his claims, he jus pushed the duty on by saying 'mayb we shld get everyone(the passengers) to sign'.. zzz.. then after tat when everything was fine, there appeared another 2 aunties hu kept commenting wad the bus driver shld do.. shldn't they hav told the driver when it heappened instead of commenting after everything is over?? some singaporeans are jus so funny.. lolx.. and because of dis incident, we were late for the bbq.. but neva mind.. we got the food!! :P amd oh ya.. several ppl falling sick, one losing voice.. i think its because of the weather recently and FOP.. so take care, all my frens.. tml morning going bball.. happi!! but first had to go sch help set up booth.. haix.. but wadeva.. happi means happi..^^

"The grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love, and something to hope for." - Allan K. Chalmers

2007-04-12T23:29:00.000+08:00

today wake up very early.. dun noe y.. then began my interval-ed sleep... lolx.. 6am.. 7am.. 8am.. 9am.. 10am.. then i give up.. and all very accurate one.. its all within 10 minutes range to the exact timing.. lolx.. my psychological clock is haywiring.. haha.. then wake up oso nth to do.. regretted nt helping out in fop.. i think tml i will go crash.. haha.. then i went out when my fren jio-ed mi.. found out tat i m starting to revert back to my old form.. did a lot of nonsense things when i was outside.. cannot.. i cannt let the inner demon surface again.. ^^ haha.. mus be guai kia.. today went out everything my fren pay for mi.. cool rite.. cos they noe i haven been 'working' for some time liao.. then they say its my bloody belated bday celebration.. haha.. so wadeva lor.. i let them do wad they want.. but did nt spent much oso la.. jus a meal and some drinks.. then we chit chat for damn long la.. from 3 to ard 8.. 5 hrs.. pure talking and crapping.. haha.. but its fun to hear my frens talking bout their experiences.. some r realli stupid la.. but some r impt lessons.. ^^ but i surprised myself at my ability to chat so long wif them.. haha.. but then it might b due to the fact tat i hav nt seen them for like 4 and a half mths.. i 'quit' last december.. dun ask mi wad my job is.. jus noe i m nt doin it anymore.. haha.. hmm.. then went home liao read newspaper listen radio.. slack again.. but managed to redeem myself wif an hour of marine engineering.. haha.. first chapter: machinery arrangement and liquid flow in pipe(?).. dun ask mi to explain yet cos i dun realli understand the liquid thing yet.. will try harder nxt time and then mayb i can tell u if u wan..^^

"Good judgement comes from experience, often, experience comes from bad judgement." - Rita Mae Brown

2007-04-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

today i woke up feeling lost.. i dun noe y but i hav this feeling that something tat shld b here is nt here.. and the feeling would nt go away.. i woke up and went back to slp several times and everytime i wake up, the feeling is there.. so i started the day on a bad note.. i dun noe y but i think dis feeling is growing stronger in mi.. and worse part is i dun noe wad i m losing or wad i nid.. hmm.. got to find out?!?! today i said bye bye to my father when he left for work cos my mum wans mi to do so.. actualli its nt tat i dun wanna talk to him.. but everytime i see him i jus dun feel alright.. and the feeling is nt of something gd.. so confused now.. i think i'm jus goin to let nature take its course.. afternoon practically did nth.. slacked and slacked and slacked.. forgot tat i had books to read.. so i jus sit in front of the com and do nth.. lolx.. seriously nth.. the screen was there but i din noe wad to do.. lucky evening got meeting wif miss june.. if nt the stoning can last till nite.. the meeting wif miss june is about the adventure race trainings.. she wanted us to start training wif the ARC(adventure ropes course) racers.. and proposed a 'system' for us to follow.. the 'system' looks pretty gd.. and i realised tat this coming sem, although timetable ends early, i still got lots of after-sch activites.. sian.. so in the end, my time spent in sch is still long.. meetings, adventure race trainings and weekly training will be taking up my evenings.. haix.. sian le.. and i realised i nid to start working part-time if i were to support my wish of continuing driving license for bike... hmm.. but dis year got IA.. i dun noe how liao.. haha.. excuses for myself.. i kept daydreaming bout how gd it is to own ur own transport.. haix..

"if you love someone tell them because hearts are often broken with words unspoken" - Anonymous

2007-04-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

haha.. today went to buy books le.. so happy.. but marine engineering, thermodynamics and cam/cad application r wad i hav got.. still got engineering maths and marine industry safety haven get.. i dun noe bout IS leh.. do i nid to get books for IS modules? i think iwait until the lecturer say then i go.. ^^ so from today onwards dun nid rot at home liao.. got books to read.. i still din get my fire engineering knowledge.. pretty sad.. but i see marine engineering got touch a bit la.. so nt so bad after all.. after i get my books, i went for recee..^^ it was very sian at first la.. i had to watch lovebirds in action.. haix.. see them da qing ma qiao.. :P pls, daren and eunice, next time if its jus 3 ppl, i think dun nid ask mi go.. haha.. after rachel joined us, i kinda feel better.. at least got someone to share the pain wif mi.. lolx.. recee took very long cos we were quite slack and in the middle got some problem.. so in the end weekly meeting had to change location to KAP Mac from marine square..^^ nearer to hse.. happi.. but during meeting, we found out that we din do a lot of things for i-camp proposal.. so i dun think we can meet the deadline of tml.. my first work and its delayed.. haha.. pretty cool.. today the whole i-camp comm very busy.. jia jun and yu heng went to army market to get logistics.. daren, eunice, rachel and mi went recee.. mirza got work i think so cannot commit.. then dong yang is sick.. o.O but he still managed to come for meeting and contribute some lame jokes.. so i think he is goin to be fine.. :P today has been a very busy day for mi.. not much time for mi to anyhow think.. haha.. i kinda like busy days.. but nt being at home for 14 hrs is a minus point.. so tired liao cannot slp.. plus halfway through i was feeling terrible due to the fever coming back.. somehow i managed to suppress it and nt let it show.. if nt i think i dun nid recee anymore.. ( i forgot to bring medicine out) hee.. overall, today IS a better day compared to yesterday.. but tiring it is.. goin to slp real soon.. i looking forward to sch reopening.. *woot* ^^

"Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind ... Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch." - Natalie, age 9

2007-04-10T00:18:00.000+08:00

today i woke up feeling feverish.. and stayed that way for the whole day.. probably cos of the rain and lack of slp.. felt very cold even when the sun is shining brightly in the sky.. so i was huddled in bed most of the time.. my inferior complexity took over today.. i dreamt a lot.. my dreams were all about my non-existence.. wad would happen of i had not existed in this world.. my parents will nt be angry so many times, neither will they hav to worry bout my health.. then the world shld b happier wif one less person contesting for oxygen, food and other material needs.. then i went to look at myself in the mirror and wished my dreams would come true.. lolx.. then i tot about being very very sick.. so sick tat i would end up in the hospital or even die.. lolx.. but it's jus a tot... been a not-very-gd day for mi.. lets hope tml will be better.. *end of a bad day*

yesterday wanted to blog but in the end fell asleep.. my first sign of sickness started ytd.. but i tot i was onli too tired.. lolx.. tml or technically today, i m goin to sch to buy books for my new sem.. then goin for recee again.. after that i forgot got meeting or not.. hopefully nt.. if nt i will be out of the hse from 8 to 10 again.. so sian.. cannot slp, cannot play... been some time since i last played my computer.. been rather busy these few days.. i've been a thinker.. thinking bout lots of things these few days.. and i still feel i m bad with relationships...............

A ship in the harbor is safe, but that is not what ships are built for.

2007-04-07T23:57:00.000+08:00

today went for macritchie hike recee... dun noe if i m supposed to say it out but neva mind la... i dun think it will hurt much... yup... and so we tried out some new routes... pretty tough i would say... and it's up to u all to guess wad route will we b taking this time... haha... i was late la dis morning... and i m the in-charge for dis event... oh ya, then saw liheng having silat training... cool man.. he got one-to-one training... lolx... then of all things to happen after recee, it had to start raining and i forgot my poncho or any anti-rain devices... lolx... ended up drenched and very very cold... lucky enuf, everyone out of forest liao... but wadeva la... after that went back sch did discussion for i-camp... done up some pretty slick stuffs which dis time i m sure i shld nt say wad...^^ u will see in the days to come... saw KK in sch... he's taking part in FOC for his course as GL... i found out that one of my primary sch fren joined ECE dis year... puzzling leh... i noe he jus joined becos he's participant in the camp... can year 2s b participants? decided on goin for qing ming tml instead of doin camp recee... dun noe if it's the right decision.....?

"I'm still hurting from a love I lost,
I'm feeling your frustration,
But any minute all the pain will stop,
Just hold me close inside your arms tonight,
Don't be too hard on my emotions"
- Lyrics from 'Patience' by Take That

Another Finale...

2007-04-05T23:10:00.000+08:00

today last day at CHIJ... very very fun... was cameraman again even though farand was there... lolx... u wont believe the 180 degrees change in some of the gals... jus 24 hrs ago, they were running away from the camera and today, they cant wait for mi to shoot them... went out on excursion to Red Dot Museum wif the gals and had a lot of fun there... when i was filming at the museum, i had my group of 'assistants' wandering behind mi and giving a lot of funny comments... like idol sia... but they still very violent la... some of the i-dun-wan-to-b-filmed gals still managed to beat mi quite a few times but all nt pain one la... and they seem more like playing catching wif mi than having the intent to silence mi for life... today managed to established quite good relationships wif some of the gals... i was told tat got gals miss mi when i m nt on the same bus as them leh... so happi!! lolx... received several 'gifts' from the gals; some food, a friendship band(was goin to take photo and show but forgot :P) and several nicknames... lolx... To all CHIJ(Our Lady of Nativity) gals... Thank You!!!^^*end of InnoWorks programme*

i jus realised my post no title... but it's because i lazy to think of them la... haha... but from now on i shall try and think of one for every post k...?

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; but sometimes it is letting go" - Herman Hesse

2007-04-05T02:03:00.000+08:00

haha... long time neva so late blog liao... jus now doin some paperwork for ob weekly training and re-typing my timetable... haha... and in the middle got slaca a little by playing maple... ^^ lolx... today can be considered a good day for mi... went to CHIJ(Our Lady of Nativity) for an innovation workshop and nt as participant hor, as facilitator... ^^ the gals there very hyped-up one and all very cute... but dun get the wrong idea, they all pri 5 onli... so pls dun go touch them u all desperate guys... lolx... for the first half, i was facilitator under Michelle... then halfway, became cameraman all becos farand din turn up and nobody is free enuf to do his job... my class got 3 trainers and so i was 'lucky' and got to b the cameraman... lolx... the gals all very scared of the camera one... when i scanned the camera through the class, all the reaction same one... now tat's wad u call team spirit... then at the end of the day almost got killed by the little gals... for filming them... some wanted to throw broom at mi, some pulled my shirt... violent!!! to think they r gals leh... haix... but ok la... lively cute and spontaneous... and now i noe Nissan Sunny can seat 7 people... haha... tested and proven... if in doubt, pls contact either mi, dong yang, michelle, siti, cuijing, kan wee, or jameson... :P mi getting slacker liao... starting to skip posts... ^^ hmm.. how long will my blog last dis time?? i wonder...

and for those who wans mi to link them, pls tell mi hor... i very blur when it comes to human's needs and wants... so wadeva u want pls tell mi straight in the face... :P

"I think you're supposed to get shot with an arrow or something, but the rest of it isn't supposed to be painful." - Manuel, age 8

2007-04-02T22:39:00.000+08:00

today i did nth special... morning wake up, went out to buy things for my mum, then reach home bathe and went out for my briefing for my next programme... and yes i m goin to b facilitator again... lolx... i like work for so long but in the end pay less than 500 bucks... haix... but its ok la... i like camps... can dun stay at home... and i haven been talking to my dad for so very long liao... new record... haha... but i dun care la... i think i might get used to it someday... hmm... happi things r nt happening to mi nowsaday... so sian.. but on the other hand, i hav neva felt sad, so neva mind lor... getting sick of life liao... jus now i told my mum i dun hav a will to live and if she ever find mi in an unconscious state, she can jus let mi go... lolx... she say i siao... but somehow its true la... i m nt mentally well... :P haven seen my sec sch frens for quite some time liao... recently i hav the urge to to get frens out to play but i haven get my pay, so no money to spend... haha... mus 'ren' a bit more... then i found out that my scrolling texts r all lagging one... lolx... mus find out the problem!!! hmm.. nth much to say liao... mayb if later i think of something more then i come back... haha... over and out...

"Gravitation can not be held responsible for people falling in love" - Albert Einstein?